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No I dont pray jummah
It shames me to admit that I dont offer my prayers. This is not because I am a non-Muslim, nor is it because I do not want to pray. Truth of the matter is that I dont know how to offer my prayers. I am 23-years-old and I am still not sure about the number of farz, sunnat, and nafal to offer with each namaz. In the past, I have tried to cover up my ignorance by making excuses.
However, the day Shahbaz Taseer was abducted was the day I stopped hiding.
I had joined a new firm in the month of Ramazan, and was welcomed by a very religious environment. My co-workers naturally assumed that I would join them for prayer everyday, but I did not know how to pray. To hide my shame, I kept making excuses to not pray.
I will offer my prayers at home I sometimes said.
Other times I just skipped out during prayer timings, so as not to be cornered and questioned. When the probing got intense, I often contemplated the idea of going to the mosque and copying the actions and motions of other people. However, even though I dont know how to pray, I am still a Muslim. Being a hypocrite in a mosque just did not sit right with me.
So there I was alone in the office at jummah namaz time when my eye suddenly caught sight of the words Taseer and abducted on the online newspaper. I stiffened in my chair as I read the tragic news that Shahbaz Taseer has been abducted. I conveyed this news to my colleagues as soon as they returned from jummah namaz, expecting an uproar and a fervent discussion. However, all I got was:
Who is he?
Salmaan Taseers son, I replied dumbfounded.
I could not solicit a greater response than acha, hmmm and maybe you are taking his abduction too seriously. One of my colleagues stated that dozens of people get kidnapped everyday to which I replied that this was a high profile case and and can be related to Salmaan Taseers murder. He, however replied:
Salmaan Taseer was rightfully killed as he was ghustakh e Rasool and Qadri is ghazi.
Appalled, I replied that all Salmaan Taseer did was question the law made and passed by the parliament of Pakistan, not Allah or his Messenger.
This was, apparently, the wrong thing to say.
I realized that I made everyone in the room very angry. I had to say something to cool things down. I was getting evil stares and fierce looks. A young man sitting in the room wanted to say something but decided to let the deathly silence prevail. I had to say something in my defense anything. But what could I say? I wasnt sure about any Quranic surahs, or ayats. I started questioning myself. Did I say something against Allah or the Holy Prophet (Pbuh)? No. This made me feel a little better.
At length, one of the two bearded men in the room stated:
Do you even know what Salmaan Taseer said on TV?
The other bearded man immediately voiced his opinion by stating that Shahbaz Taseer has been rightfully abducted as his father was a blasphemer.
To this I just had to reply:
On every forum he only questioned this man-made law. Never did he question Allahs or the Prophets authority.
The elder bearded intellectual went on to quote several verses from Quran which calls for a blasphemer to be killed. I am no authority of Islam; I was trying to prove my point by stating what I learnt in my O level Islamiat class what Islam actually stands for.
However, I was interrupted by an allegation that made my cheeks flame red. The younger bearded man stood up, pointed his finger at me, and shaking in rage, he stated:
You are a blasphemer! Anyone who supports a blasphemer is also a blasphemer!
After his allegation had sunk in, I made one last move to defend myself. I calmly stated that I was arguing over one man-made law. This has nothing to do with the Shariah.
The elder bearded man dismissed my speech and interrupted me by saying:
He doesnt even offer prayers. Forget about him. Theres a lot of work to be done.
I was shocked. How are prayers related to blasphemy? Where does the Quran say that one who doesnt know how to pray is a blasphemer? For the remainder of the day I was ignored; no goodbyes or Allah hafizs were exchanged with me. There was no conversation whatsoever.
I was very upset when I got home. I watched some TV, ate my dinner and went to bed. However, I just couldnt sleep. I kept thinking about why my praying or not praying is so important to other people. There are more pressing issues such as ethnic violence, abduction, murder, looting, floods, dengue, and so many more. Yet, why are people so bothered about my praying habits?
It was then that I realised that I am answerable to God alone, and social pressures should not be the only reason I should offer my prayers. I, thus, made the decision that I will nott offer excuses any more - I wont lie. Praying is something personal an no one has the right to judge a matter that should be judged by Allah alone. God will punish me if He so desires. The people who work at my office do not have the right to tag me as a non-believer.
August 26 was, thus, the last day I made an excuse for not offering prayers. Now, if the question of my namaz ever pops up, I politely reply that it is my personal matter.
I understand that I need to make an effort to learn how to offer prayers, and I am trying my best to do so. However, I am not comfortable with people pushing me to do what they want me to do and be what they want me to be. I dont want to learn how to pray to save myself of the embarrassment that others instil in me. I want to learn how to pray because I love Allah.
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