I am not feeling good [Just had another break down]

[Indos]

You can do a test yourself, and put on recitation of Quran when you are going through the feelings described. If you don't want to listen to recitation of Quran at all, then there is an issue of possession.

One of the symptoms of being possessed is to feel hot inside body (Jinn is made of fire), just like what one of my family member had experienced. But I do thing that @Dewaneh is more on depression than possession.

 

[Verve]

One of the symptoms of being possessed is to feel hot inside body (Jinn is made of fire), just like what one of my family member had experienced. But I do thing that @Dewaneh is more on depression than possession.

These no harm in @Dewaneh getting spiritual help, just to rule it out.

Also if it was just depression, should he be getting this:

I get these lumps in my throat, my eyes get teary, many chills get sent down my spin, my stomach feel light and funny, and my heart feels though as someone is scrubbing thrones on it.

 

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Thanks. Everyone have me some really great idea.

I never thought it would be a spiritual problem. I will look forward to solving it through getting closer spiritually to Islam.

As some one pointed out, the problem is that I am living in America. Hyper-social is the way I am living. What I would need to do would be to move out and radically change the negative influence around me.

Some people told me to find a new passion. Like working out, going to the gym and building a body. One of friends in real life interestingly is doing the same thing (and he is depressed as well but doesn't know I am too).

Many said that seeing psychiatrist/psychologist is first option. Because they are professionals in handling problemful people like me. I may need to break out from the shell before going on to those lessons.

Some pointed out what I am experiencing is something traumatic not depression. I need to do just move in life and just say to myself it is just a Test of life. I am going to have hardships and downs, no need to excessively worry about them to make them even worse.

Some said that I need to get some physical therapy. Like taking a cold shower or cyrotherapy to cool me down. Relieve my muscles (could be with working).

I thank everyone for giving me great tips that I never thought of. I will be trying many of them out.

Overall I feel so much better while planning out to incorporate these.

 

[GumNaam]

I have had depression for past few years (nearly 3.5 years to be exact) since Aug 2015. I have a flood of thoughts in my head literally 24/7. I have not been able to sleep until 1 or 2 am every night, and sometimes until 4. I remain so tired and exhausted all through out the day from this sleep mess plus the mental strain within me. These thoughts (some good and some bad) can't seem go find a way out of my head after so long. and its around the same theme for years. and these hit me so suddenly multiple times a day. as almost like a day dream but with a lot of pain. I will try my best to describe as much as I can. I get these lumps in my throat, my eyes get teary, many chills get sent down my spin, my stomach feel light and funny, and my heart feels though as someone is scrubbing thrones on it. It seems as I am loosing my nature, my vibrancy, my identity to this sickness. Because of my depression, I have stopped hanging out with most of my friends, i rarely talk to them if ever, I ignore there messages on Snapchat and texts on my number. I only talk to a few buds from school and work, which are okay. I don't want them to know about what i am going through. i don't want anyone to know in real life what I am going through. i want to fix this sh*t myself. I dont want to feel cocky, but the decisions i made 3.5 years ago I REGRET to this day and they still effect me/stay relevant. just to let everyone know, I don't feel lonely. its the opposite. i want to distance myself from the 'vogue' lifestyle. i want to loose all these 100s of contacts/aquitances (in the US) and this extravagant complex living to come onto simple dwelling by myself and a special some one somewhere far away.... It is not easy for me. i keep having depressing thoughts since that date (due to what happened to me then)... and things really havennt in my favor since, other new things coming along the way as well... Just as PAINFUL. nothing to soothe. i look at it at a sum point of view, i have nothing else to do but break down crying.

hey bro. Let me know how we can talk. I think I maybe able to help...I'm in my mid 40s and have been through some crazy experiences myself that would've led some other people to the loony bin but I managed to recover myself. If I can help then I would like to. Let me know how we can talk.

 

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hey bro. Let me know how we can talk. I think I maybe able to help...I'm in my mid 40s and have been through some crazy experiences myself that would've led some other people to the loony bin but I managed to recover myself. If I can help then I would like to. Let me know how we can talk.

I dont feel suicidal or crazy. I know suicide is wrong and horrible. I would never go that way. I want to recover myself (have so much planned out). I would be upset if I were to do something else other than what I've planned.

 

[GumNaam]

I dont feel suicidal or crazy. I know suicide is wrong and horrible. I would never go that way. I want to recover myself (have so much planned out). I would be upset if I were to do something else other than what I've planned.

okay, well...lemme know if you ever wanna talk...I'm always here for my brothers.

I dont feel suicidal or crazy. I know suicide is wrong and horrible. I would never go that way. I want to recover myself (have so much planned out). I would be upset if I were to do something else other than what I've planned.

just remember, whatever doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger. I don't know what's going on with your life and what choices you've made...but if things going towards the way that you have to mentally and physically toughen yourself up then that perhaps could be an indication that Allah has a very specific purpose in stored for you and is putting your life through trials and tribulations to toughen you up for the ultimate task...everything happens for a reason.

 

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okay, well...lemme know if you ever wanna talk...I'm always here for my brothers.

One of the negativity is that I have a lot of problems with my boss (he is a Pakistani restaurant head chef/owner). I have been working there for a few months. He looks down upon me and treats me really horribly. Only reason why I feel ok with my job is that I am getting paid. This isn’t the only job that I have held. I have had 5 jobs in the past 1 year (since I started working). All have been really horrible but this is the worst.

The owner talks down upon me. Asks me cook Kabab and BBQ on Mangal (grill). While taking out Naan from the Tandoor. All cooking them perfectly with no burns or raw spots at all. IT is so stressful. All he does is makes peras and puts them on the Taqiya. As if he is so scared to put his hand in the tandoor. Also marinating the meat before hand is my job. So I am doing the job of 3/4 people in the kitchen. Gladly I only work 15 hours a week at the stupid resurant. He insists me to work more. I strictly tell him no. And he verbally abuses me after that (which I don’t mind).

I am going to quit this stupid job within this week. And find a job some where else. Or maybe stay focused School and become un employeed.

 

[GumNaam]

One of the negativity is that I have a lot of problems with my boss (he is a Pakistani restaurant head chef/owner). I have been working there for a few months. He looks down upon me and treats me really horribly. Only reason why I feel ok with my job is that I am getting paid. This isn’t the only job that I have held. I have had 5 jobs in the past 1 year (since I started working). All have been really horrible but this is the worst.

The owner talks down upon me. Asks me cook Kabab and BBQ on Mangal (grill). While taking out Naan from the Tandoor. All cooking them perfectly with no burns or raw spots at all. IT is so stressful. All he does is makes peras and puts them on the Taqiya. As if he is so scared to put his hand in the tandoor. Also marinating the meat before hand is my job. So I am doing the job of 3/4 people in the kitchen. Gladly I only work 15 hours a week at the stupid resurant. He insists me to work more. I strictly tell him no. And he verbally abuses me after that (which I don’t mind).

I am going to quit this stupid job within this week. And find a job some where else. Or maybe stay focused School and become un employeed.

well the guy sounds like a total jahil who came here straight from a dhaba in Pakistan and opened up a restaurant. this is a classic example of a hostile work environment and he needs to understand that in america, you can take him to court and sue the skin off his back. if you are a u.s. citizen or a green card, you can bluntly tell him to stay in his auqaat and behave himself. it'll just take one single letter of notice to a litigation from your attorney to give this n!gger the realization that he aint in kansas anymore and needs to watch his behavior and mouth. Make it happen man. as per the law in any state, their is a financial amount that can be put on the needless mental stress he has given you due to a hostile work environment and that amount is NOT small...you can literally walk away with the skin off of his back.

 

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well the guy sounds like a total jahil who came here straight from a dhaba in Pakistan and opened up a restaurant. this is a classic example of a hostile work environment and he needs to understand that in america, you can take him to court and sue the skin off his back. if you are a u.s. citizen or a green card, you can bluntly tell him to stay in his auqaat and behave himself. it'll just take one single letter of notice to a litigation from your attorney to give this n!gger the realization that he aint in kansas anymore and needs to watch his behavior and mouth. Make it happen man. as per the law in any state, their is a financial amount that can be put on the needless mental stress he has given you due to a hostile work environment and that amount is NOT small...you can literally walk away with the skin off of his back.

There many of bosses like these even in America. The US is built for the “big business”, the common man can barely do anything. The courts will dismiss this case (if I were to litigate) in the blink of an eye.

Crazy and classless fool he is. This “Chef” doesn’t even have the courage to put his hand to work even in his own restaurant.

I am show how it is done and put him to work. I will quit out from my job on a very busy business day (Saturday night). And he will be left without a chef. So his a*s well be put on work. The hiring process takes about a week. So he will be left without a chef for a week. And he will be working 10 times as much for that time.

When I quit. I am sure he will mess up so much food. He will burn the BBQ, he will burn the Naan. He won’t have time to cook other dishes like Haleem, Karai, Nihari. He will work so slow. Customers will be mad at him. He will loose so much money.

 

[GumNaam]

There many of bosses like these even in America. The US is built for the “big business”, the common man can barely do anything. The courts will dismiss this case (if I were to litigate) in the blink of an eye.

Crazy and classless fool he is. This “Chef” doesn’t even have the courage to put his hand to work even in his own restaurant.

I am show how it is done and put him to work. I will quit out from my job on a very busy business day (Saturday night). And he will be left without a chef. So his a*s well be put on work. The hiring process takes about a week. So he will be left without a chef for a week. And he will be working 10 times as much for that time.

When I quit. I am sure he will mess up so much food. He will burn the BBQ, he will burn the Naan. He won’t have time to cook other dishes like Haleem, Karai, Nihari. He will work so slow. Customers will be mad at him. He will loose so much money.

oh don't underestimate the labor laws in the united states yar. big business is indeed froth with corruption but let's face it, this guy is just a two bit restaurant owner...he is NO NOT big business. Trust me, the court will hear you out, especially if you have witnesses that he ill treats his employees. Back in the day when I was a wee little lad working through college, I did the same thing to an indian that was working part-time for. Long story short, yeah I walked away with the skin on his back leaving him thoroughly embarrassed and shamed in the community...you can make it happen man. Just go talk to a good lawyer. You can even hit the owner to pay you for your legal fees.

 

[Tps43]

I am going to quit this stupid job within this week. And find a job some where else. Or maybe stay focused School and become un employeed.

Stay focused on school for some time then think about getting some job, tho I prefer u to build some startup.

 

[GumNaam]

@Dewaneh what are you majoring in? which university and how far along are you?

 

[denel]

Stay focused on school for some time then think about getting some job, tho I prefer u to build some startup.

i second this....
focus on education as priority; any another vices, point a finger and not required. cut yourself off this bs intagrams etc. they screw ur mind up.
next, take up the koran/torah etc or what my dear friend who was an imam said to me. if you have conflicts, last thing you need is a religious book - pick up Gibran. Read it. It is now 30years since Jamal opened (may his soul rest in peace); Gibran is my companion since that time.

Treasured Writings of Khalil Gibran, go to library they will have it.

Remember have pride in yourself in what you are able to achieve. Next focus focus focus. Take up additional courses to make yourself more marketable and who knows the department may pick u for TA role etc. Work with students to get them to pass etc

 

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oh don't underestimate the labor laws in the united states yar. big business is indeed froth with corruption but let's face it, this guy is just a two bit restaurant owner...he is NO NOT big business. Trust me, the court will hear you out, especially if you have witnesses that he ill treats his employees. Back in the day when I was a wee little lad working through college, I did the same thing to an indian that was working part-time for. Long story short, yeah I walked away with the skin on his back leaving him thoroughly embarrassed and shamed in the community...you can make it happen man. Just go talk to a good lawyer. You can even hit the owner to pay you for your legal fees.

We will we see. Honestly This type of waged “slavery” is really common in the US. Judge can easily toss this case in the gutter. Also this is also partly my fault because I walked into the store desperately looking for a job (when I quit my previous one). Judge will also look into my work history (which isn’t too good either). I was fired from the 2 of the other 4 jobs I held.. This is my fifth, and I want to quit it in his face... I never held a job for more than 3 months. It’s kind of pathetic but I don’t really care. I am worried more about school then these holding these useless part time jobs.

@Dewaneh what are you majoring in? which university and how far along are you?

Major Economical Science. Minor in Computer Science. First Year Alhamdulillah. I can’t say what university due to privacy.

 

[denel]

We will we see. Honestly This type of waged “slavery” is really common in the US. Judge can easily toss this case in the gutter. Also this is also partly my fault because I walked into the store desperately looking for a job (when I quit my previous one). Judge will also look into my work history (which isn’t too good either). I was fired from the 2 of the other 4 jobs I held.. This is my fifth, and I want to quit it in his face... I never held a job for more than 3 months. It’s kind of pathetic but I don’t really care. I am worried more about school then these holding these useless part time jobs.


Major Economical Science. Minor in Computer Science. First Year Alhamdulillah. I can’t say what university due to privacy.

my suggestion - do accounting with comp sci. entire world of ERP will open up for you