I am not feeling good [Just had another break down]

[Mage]

3.5 years is a long time. You need to see a psychiatrist. Forget about the stigmas attached to it. Most of the time, it helps.

 

[Sinnerman108]

I have had depression for past few years (nearly 3.5 years to be exact) since Aug 2015. I have a flood of thoughts in my head literally 24/7. I have not been able to sleep until 1 or 2 am every night, and sometimes until 4. I remain so tired and exhausted all through out the day from this sleep mess plus the mental strain within me. These thoughts (some good and some bad) can't seem go find a way out of my head after so long. and its around the same theme for years. and these hit me so suddenly multiple times a day. as almost like a day dream but with a lot of pain. I will try my best to describe as much as I can. I get these lumps in my throat, my eyes get teary, many chills get sent down my spin, my stomach feel light and funny, and my heart feels though as someone is scrubbing thrones on it. It seems as I am loosing my nature, my vibrancy, my identity to this sickness. Because of my depression, I have stopped hanging out with most of my friends, i rarely talk to them if ever, I ignore there messages on Snapchat and texts on my number. I only talk to a few buds from school and work, which are okay. I don't want them to know about what i am going through. i don't want anyone to know in real life what I am going through. i want to fix this sh*t myself. I dont want to feel cocky, but the decisions i made 3.5 years ago I REGRET to this day and they still effect me/stay relevant. just to let everyone know, I don't feel lonely. its the opposite. i want to distance myself from the 'vogue' lifestyle. i want to loose all these 100s of contacts/aquitances (in the US) and this extravagant complex living to come onto simple dwelling by myself and a special some one somewhere far away.... It is not easy for me. i keep having depressing thoughts since that date (due to what happened to me then)... and things really havennt in my favor since, other new things coming along the way as well... Just as PAINFUL. nothing to soothe. i look at it at a sum point of view, i have nothing else to do but break down crying.

Well
if you do not change circumstances then don't expect the pain to go away.

Start with environment,
people and then very important find another line of work,
something easy, that keeps you busy yet satisfying.

May I also suggest to change your diet,
Try fasting
and eating only fruits and vegetables after fasting.

 

[third eye]

Im too anxious to discuss it throughly with anyone. I can't even with close friends. I appreciate your concern.

You have kept it within yourself all these years & it has not helped , may have got worse.

Force yourself to open up with a friend, Doc - anyone.

You have nothing to loose except your depression.

 

[Jaanbaz]

I have had depression for past few years (nearly 3.5 years to be exact) since Aug 2015. I have a flood of thoughts in my head literally 24/7. I have not been able to sleep until 1 or 2 am every night, and sometimes until 4. I remain so tired and exhausted all through out the day from this sleep mess plus the mental strain within me. These thoughts (some good and some bad) can't seem go find a way out of my head after so long. and its around the same theme for years. and these hit me so suddenly multiple times a day. as almost like a day dream but with a lot of pain. I will try my best to describe as much as I can. I get these lumps in my throat, my eyes get teary, many chills get sent down my spin, my stomach feel light and funny, and my heart feels though as someone is scrubbing thrones on it. It seems as I am loosing my nature, my vibrancy, my identity to this sickness. Because of my depression, I have stopped hanging out with most of my friends, i rarely talk to them if ever, I ignore there messages on Snapchat and texts on my number. I only talk to a few buds from school and work, which are okay. I don't want them to know about what i am going through. i don't want anyone to know in real life what I am going through. i want to fix this sh*t myself. I dont want to feel cocky, but the decisions i made 3.5 years ago I REGRET to this day and they still effect me/stay relevant. just to let everyone know, I don't feel lonely. its the opposite. i want to distance myself from the 'vogue' lifestyle. i want to loose all these 100s of contacts/aquitances (in the US) and this extravagant complex living to come onto simple dwelling by myself and a special some one somewhere far away.... It is not easy for me. i keep having depressing thoughts since that date (due to what happened to me then)... and things really havennt in my favor since, other new things coming along the way as well... Just as PAINFUL. nothing to soothe. i look at it at a sum point of view, i have nothing else to do but break down crying.

Take up solo camping.

 

[lastofthepatriots]

I've suffered from depression for the past 4 years. I just take it one day at a time and picture myself taking a step in an endless desert.

What you described is not depression but something traumatic that affects you on a daily basis.

Depression is when you are unmotivated and when you stop caring about almost everything in life. When I feel very bad I just do push ups until my arms give out and exhaust my self. Namaz definitely helps. I take showers randomly when I am home to uplift my mood. I've come to realize depression is just some chemicals in your brain that inhibit you from feeling connected to the world. I've gotten used to being lonely and this forum is one of the few outlets where I just express myself. It's all about perspective. A healthy mind is a healthy brain. Exercise. Read books. I have a hard time talking to people as well because I view most of them as shalllow backstabbers that want something from you. 99% of the time that is the case, but I've come to accept it. I engage certain people I deem worthy to let them take something from me in exchange to get what I want from them. It's an even exchange. Will these feelings pass? Of course they will. I don't think God is so cruel that he torments your existence in this world forever. I just look at it as a test. And even today I continue to test myself. No matter how shitty I feel I put my feelings to the side and keep it moving. There is nothing else you can do but to move forward in life.

 

[Death Professor]

Psychiatrist waghera, saray ch__ bnatay hain. Bunday ne theek hona hota hai tou khud hota hai, if it is psychological issue. Psychology is very different from physical ailments. One can-not compare a physical tumor with mental issues, only a retard would do that. Culture, language, experiences, one has to take all these things into consideration.

The issue is whatever a psychiatrist is going to tell you is only going to be a generic solution which you could find over the internet. He would tell you what you would like to listen. An american psychiatrist will tell a male teenager, be what ever you want to be, if he wants to be a transgender so be it, even if he has zero physical features to a woman. The thing is every one has a different life, each individual has different experiences, the only thing a psychiatrist is able to do is to listen to all your life and comment on every important topic you have gone through your life. And it helps some because, you have told some one about your experiences and it will lessen your burden. There is a reason why there is a system of confession in Churches, it frees you of the burden that you are carrying alone.

My advice would be find a friend, a really genuine friend who cares about you and who can sacrifice his time to listen to your bs life story. Tell him what ever is burdening you, it would be a great help if he is a great listener. The reason people go to psychiatrist is they don't have friends. And let go of the past, no one lives in the past. If it was girl, forget her the world is 7 billion population, you will find another one in no time. If it was family, face them and ask for forgiveness if you did something bad. If it was a old friend, ask for forgiveness, people forgive and move on.

 

[Mage]

The issue is whatever a psychiatrist is going to tell you is only going to be a generic solution which you could find over the internet.

At least the psychiatrist will talk to him face to face. That helps.

 

[PDF]

Psychiatrist waghera, saray ch__ bnatay hain. Bunday ne theek hona hota hai tou khud hota hai, if it is psychological issue. Psychology is very different from physical ailments. One can-not compare a physical tumor with mental issues, only a retard would do that. Culture, language, experiences, one has to take all these things into consideration.

The issue is whatever a psychiatrist is going to tell you is only going to be a generic solution which you could find over the internet. He would tell you what you would like to listen. An american psychiatrist will tell a male teenager, be what ever you want to be, if he wants to be a transgender so be it, even if he has zero physical features to a woman. The thing is every one has a different life, each individual has different experiences, the only thing a psychiatrist is able to do is to listen to all your life and comment on every important topic you have gone through your life. And it helps some because, you have told some one about your experiences and it will lessen your burden. There is a reason why there is a system of confession in Churches, it frees you of the burden that you are carrying alone.

My advice would be find a friend, a really genuine friend who cares about you and who can sacrifice his time to listen to your bs life story. Tell him what ever is burdening you, it would be a great help if he is a great listener. The reason people go to psychiatrist is they don't have friends. And let go of the past, no one lives in the past. If it was girl, forget her the world is 7 billion population, you will find another one in no time. If it was family, face them and ask for forgiveness if you did something bad. If it was a old friend, ask for forgiveness, people forgive and move on.

Psychiatrist and psychologist have a difference.
Seek help from a psychiatrist.
Talk to a complete stranger. Sometimes, you can share things with strangers which you can not with the people around you. Remember, there are always people facing more severe issues than you but they stand firm and overcome them. You can too. Depression can easily be checked by taking medicine. Get yourself treated. You should know there are people who support and back you.

 

[Tps43]

I've suffered from depression for the past 4 years. I just take it one day at a time and picture myself taking a step in an endless desert.

What you described is not depression but something traumatic that affects you on a daily basis.

Depression is when you are unmotivated and when you stop caring about almost everything in life. When I feel very bad I just do push ups until my arms give out and exhaust my self. Namaz definitely helps. I take showers randomly when I am home to uplift my mood. I've come to realize depression is just some chemicals in your brain that inhibit you from feeling connected to the world. I've gotten used to being lonely and this forum is one of the few outlets where I just express myself. It's all about perspective. A healthy mind is a healthy brain. Exercise. Read books. I have a hard time talking to people as well because I view most of them as shalllow backstabbers that want something from you. 99% of the time that is the case, but I've come to accept it. I engage certain people I deem worthy to let them take something from me in exchange to get what I want from them. It's an even exchange. Will these feelings pass? Of course they will. I don't think God is so cruel that he torments your existence in this world forever. I just look at it as a test. And even today I continue to test myself. No matter how shitty I feel I put my feelings to the side and keep it moving. There is nothing else you can do but to move forward in life.

Why do u think this problem is more commen in expat pakistan living in USA and Canada?
Many of my relatives and freinds got same problem as well.

 

[Mage]

Why do u think this problem is more commen in expat pakistan living in USA and Canada?

They cannot get girls in their lonely lives. I have cured loneliness in so many girls.

 

[Pakistansdefender]

Bro you need to visit a psychiatrist.
Yes. The only thing he would do is give yiu anti depressants and in sessions they would tell you the same things again and again. It is good, I am not critcizing them or else.
Where as irregular sleep is caused by the body clock, which is totally different thing.
Try to not sleep. One day and you can set your routine and body clock.

The only thing that can cause any differnce is exercise. Exercise as much as you can.. Run for 2 hours .
This would release endorphins which made you feel good, helps you with sleep too And is extremely healthy.
Visit a doctor and he would advice you too to exercise a lot.

 

[Azadkashmir]

join the club depression is big in uk for paks.
I made decision which was a mistake now i pay for it till this day.
From that day everything went down hill.

Go do steam bath and magnesium chloride salt bath.
wet cupping and do it back of your neck and head.
switch diet to vegetales/fruits.
by air purifier ozone type.

 

[Valar.]

Why do u think this problem is more commen in expat pakistan living in USA and Canada?
Many of my relatives and freinds got same problem as well.

There could be many reasons like cultural/religious adjustments etc.
But there is one thing which I noticed - SAD (seasonal affective disorder) in which a person feels gloomy in winter(mostly) especially in a colder place with lesser sun exposure.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Seasonal_affective_disorder

 

[Azadkashmir]

Bro you need to visit a psychiatrist.
Yes. The only thing he would do is give yiu anti depressants and in sessions they would tell you the same things again and again. It is good, I am not critcizing them or else.
Where as irregular sleep is caused by the body clock, which is totally different thing.
Try to not sleep. One day and you can set your routine and body clock.

The only thing that can cause any differnce is exercise. Exercise as much as you can.. Run for 2 hours .
This would release endorphins which made you feel good, helps you with sleep too And is extremely healthy.
Visit a doctor and he would advice you too to exercise a lot.

hey use ten machine that helps body to release endorphins .

 

[Tps43]

There could be many reasons like cultural/religious adjustments etc.
But there is one thing which I noticed - SAD (seasonal affective disorder) in which a person feels gloomy in winter(mostly) especially in a colder place with lesser sun exposure.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Seasonal_affective_disorder

I do think same they can't adjust in there culture and maybe that's why in brit pakistanis I don't find this problem because gora was here for a long time.