I am not feeling good [Just had another break down]

[Tps43]

It has more to do with being disconnected with your roots. When I am in Pakistan I never feel depressed or sad, even in the most boring uneventful days like Sunday.

I agree this is main reason.

 

[Mage]

Tbh what @Dewaneh needs is some pu$$y...but I get the feeling that he's inexperienced in this front.

 

[Tps43]

Everyone have different reason.

Something going bad in work but they have no one to share.
Broke up with bf or gf
Younger ones specially feel lonely when they cannot connect to their parents. They seek attention outside.
Single woman/man may feel lonely when they see others in happy relationships.

The reason and magnitude varies from person to person. I have comforted many woman with different reason. Lonely people are vulnerable. Treat them kindly(make them feel you care about them) and let them open up to you. You can manipulate them easily this way.

And I feel lonely after seeing u with blondes

 

[Mage]

And I feel lonely after seeing u with blondes

I know. Too many people already said this to me.

 

[Indos]

I have had depression for past few years (nearly 3.5 years to be exact) since Aug 2015. I have a flood of thoughts in my head literally 24/7. I have not been able to sleep until 1 or 2 am every night, and sometimes until 4. I remain so tired and exhausted all through out the day from this sleep mess plus the mental strain within me. These thoughts (some good and some bad) can't seem go find a way out of my head after so long. and its around the same theme for years. and these hit me so suddenly multiple times a day. as almost like a day dream but with a lot of pain. I will try my best to describe as much as I can. I get these lumps in my throat, my eyes get teary, many chills get sent down my spin, my stomach feel light and funny, and my heart feels though as someone is scrubbing thrones on it. It seems as I am loosing my nature, my vibrancy, my identity to this sickness. Because of my depression, I have stopped hanging out with most of my friends, i rarely talk to them if ever, I ignore there messages on Snapchat and texts on my number. I only talk to a few buds from school and work, which are okay. I don't want them to know about what i am going through. i don't want anyone to know in real life what I am going through. i want to fix this sh*t myself. I dont want to feel cocky, but the decisions i made 3.5 years ago I REGRET to this day and they still effect me/stay relevant. just to let everyone know, I don't feel lonely. its the opposite. i want to distance myself from the 'vogue' lifestyle. i want to loose all these 100s of contacts/aquitances (in the US) and this extravagant complex living to come onto simple dwelling by myself and a special some one somewhere far away.... It is not easy for me. i keep having depressing thoughts since that date (due to what happened to me then)... and things really havennt in my favor since, other new things coming along the way as well... Just as PAINFUL. nothing to soothe. i look at it at a sum point of view, i have nothing else to do but break down crying.

Keep five times prayer bro and improve relationship with ALLAH. InsyaALLAH HE will give you a way out.

 

[denel]

I have had depression for past few years (nearly 3.5 years to be exact) since Aug 2015. I have a flood of thoughts in my head literally 24/7. I have not been able to sleep until 1 or 2 am every night, and sometimes until 4. I remain so tired and exhausted all through out the day from this sleep mess plus the mental strain within me. These thoughts (some good and some bad) can't seem go find a way out of my head after so long. and its around the same theme for years. and these hit me so suddenly multiple times a day. as almost like a day dream but with a lot of pain. I will try my best to describe as much as I can. I get these lumps in my throat, my eyes get teary, many chills get sent down my spin, my stomach feel light and funny, and my heart feels though as someone is scrubbing thrones on it. It seems as I am loosing my nature, my vibrancy, my identity to this sickness. Because of my depression, I have stopped hanging out with most of my friends, i rarely talk to them if ever, I ignore there messages on Snapchat and texts on my number. I only talk to a few buds from school and work, which are okay. I don't want them to know about what i am going through. i don't want anyone to know in real life what I am going through. i want to fix this sh*t myself. I dont want to feel cocky, but the decisions i made 3.5 years ago I REGRET to this day and they still effect me/stay relevant. just to let everyone know, I don't feel lonely. its the opposite. i want to distance myself from the 'vogue' lifestyle. i want to loose all these 100s of contacts/aquitances (in the US) and this extravagant complex living to come onto simple dwelling by myself and a special some one somewhere far away.... It is not easy for me. i keep having depressing thoughts since that date (due to what happened to me then)... and things really havennt in my favor since, other new things coming along the way as well... Just as PAINFUL. nothing to soothe. i look at it at a sum point of view, i have nothing else to do but break down crying.

shut down all mobile devices and destress from over communication/information over load.
take a fishing rod and head out to the wilderness.
best medicine, come to my place - we are working on a new extension on an AIDS oprhanage; manual labour will do you good and being with kids who are more unfortunate than yourself gives you a better prespective in life.

Go and help out at a church/mosque/soup kitchen (later).

This depression is only in your thoughts; it is due to the materialistic/high strung lifestyle of wanna haves.

Welcome at my place; this is from a walk yesterday afternoon.

 

[lastofthepatriots]

Tbh what @Dewaneh needs is some pu$$y...but I get the feeling that he's inexperienced in this front.

Let's be honest here bongoli. The closest thing to pussy you get is when your mother leaves your fish dinner raw on the counter before cooking it. Your whole bald bongoli baba persona online is great, but I don't think you should insult this guy with your fake stories, while he may be going through something serious.

 

[Cookie Monster]

I have had depression for past few years (nearly 3.5 years to be exact) since Aug 2015. I have a flood of thoughts in my head literally 24/7. I have not been able to sleep until 1 or 2 am every night, and sometimes until 4. I remain so tired and exhausted all through out the day from this sleep mess plus the mental strain within me. These thoughts (some good and some bad) can't seem go find a way out of my head after so long. and its around the same theme for years. and these hit me so suddenly multiple times a day. as almost like a day dream but with a lot of pain. I will try my best to describe as much as I can. I get these lumps in my throat, my eyes get teary, many chills get sent down my spin, my stomach feel light and funny, and my heart feels though as someone is scrubbing thrones on it. It seems as I am loosing my nature, my vibrancy, my identity to this sickness. Because of my depression, I have stopped hanging out with most of my friends, i rarely talk to them if ever, I ignore there messages on Snapchat and texts on my number. I only talk to a few buds from school and work, which are okay. I don't want them to know about what i am going through. i don't want anyone to know in real life what I am going through. i want to fix this sh*t myself. I dont want to feel cocky, but the decisions i made 3.5 years ago I REGRET to this day and they still effect me/stay relevant. just to let everyone know, I don't feel lonely. its the opposite. i want to distance myself from the 'vogue' lifestyle. i want to loose all these 100s of contacts/aquitances (in the US) and this extravagant complex living to come onto simple dwelling by myself and a special some one somewhere far away.... It is not easy for me. i keep having depressing thoughts since that date (due to what happened to me then)... and things really havennt in my favor since, other new things coming along the way as well... Just as PAINFUL. nothing to soothe. i look at it at a sum point of view, i have nothing else to do but break down crying.

A few points...

- I noticed that u have chosen to reveal ur depression here anonymously rather than opening up to those close to u. This is natural especially for a guy. However u must know that there's nothing wrong with opening up to ppl close to u. If they truly love u and care for u, they will try their best to help. My advice would be share it with ppl who are very close to u...ur family and friends. Opening up can lift a heavy burden off ur chest.

- Since u have shared ur depression here anonymously...make use of that anonymity further. If it's not too painful then maybe describe exactly what decisions u made 3.5 years ago...so that ppl here can give more specific advice.

- Get professional help. Depression will ruin ur health, it's best to try and get treated ASAP.

- The extravagant lifestyle takes a toll on many ppl. Sometimes as a way to treat depression, doctors recommend taking a vacation to some quiet, stress free, scenic environment. If u want to get away from this all then perhaps try winding things down here over the next few years...and depending on ur financial situation and the type of job u have, start going on vacation every year. I would recommend Pakistan's northern areas.

- Lastly idk what exactly happened 3.5 years ago so idk if it's fixable. I know u really want to fix it...but is it fixable? If it is then go for it...if it's not realistically fixable then u must come to terms with it. There come many times in life where u wish u could go back in the past and do things differently...but the past cannot be changed. What u can do however is not let ur past mistakes ruin ur present and ur future. In the words of the wise Rafiki, “the past can hurt but the way I see it, you can either run from it or learn from it.”

 

[Awan68]

Lol.. I was exactly thinking same one year ago. But not now because i also gone through this mental disease.. Thanks to Allah now im feel better after taking medicines as per doctor advice

Its excellent that medication worked in ur case but in most mental health cases medication only dumbs down the person and reduces the symptoms rather than tackling the issue, when one gets hooked on the pills than u really have a problem. I too suffered from depression an year ago, used to be hyper social, tons of friends, rarely at home etc etc, than slowly i started pushing everyone away, i became comfortable in seclusion, too comfortable.... i went into a shell, started hating bieng in anyone's company for more than 15 mins.....then i came to Australia, a couple of old time pals were already here so went to live with them, hated it for 3-4 mnths and then slowly n steadily my social instincts came back, now cant stand bieng alone for more than an hour. One just has to stick right in there, train ur brain to do the opposite, things get better.

 

[Verve]

I have had depression for past few years (nearly 3.5 years to be exact) since Aug 2015. I have a flood of thoughts in my head literally 24/7. I have not been able to sleep until 1 or 2 am every night, and sometimes until 4. I remain so tired and exhausted all through out the day from this sleep mess plus the mental strain within me. These thoughts (some good and some bad) can't seem go find a way out of my head after so long. and its around the same theme for years. and these hit me so suddenly multiple times a day. as almost like a day dream but with a lot of pain. I will try my best to describe as much as I can. I get these lumps in my throat, my eyes get teary, many chills get sent down my spin, my stomach feel light and funny, and my heart feels though as someone is scrubbing thrones on it. It seems as I am loosing my nature, my vibrancy, my identity to this sickness. Because of my depression, I have stopped hanging out with most of my friends, i rarely talk to them if ever, I ignore there messages on Snapchat and texts on my number. I only talk to a few buds from school and work, which are okay. I don't want them to know about what i am going through. i don't want anyone to know in real life what I am going through. i want to fix this sh*t myself. I dont want to feel cocky, but the decisions i made 3.5 years ago I REGRET to this day and they still effect me/stay relevant. just to let everyone know, I don't feel lonely. its the opposite. i want to distance myself from the 'vogue' lifestyle. i want to loose all these 100s of contacts/aquitances (in the US) and this extravagant complex living to come onto simple dwelling by myself and a special some one somewhere far away.... It is not easy for me. i keep having depressing thoughts since that date (due to what happened to me then)... and things really havennt in my favor since, other new things coming along the way as well... Just as PAINFUL. nothing to soothe. i look at it at a sum point of view, i have nothing else to do but break down crying.

Besides seeking medical help, get Ruqyah done by the right pious person - symptoms you have listed do point to possession (queue the flaming by unbelievers!). It is critical you don't go to just any guy. Get both medical and spiritual help.

Do you pray?

Do Wuzu and recite these duas daily: https://www.parhlo.com/ayats-and-duas-to-counter-evil

and recite throughout the day:

Bismillah.

أعوذ بالله من الشيطان الرجيم

I seek Allah’s protection/refuge/shelter from Shaitaan, the Accursed one.

 

[jamahir]

@Dewaneh , I don't know if praying will help you in the long term or not but I suggest that you join any progressive political movement like the "Occupy Wall Street" movement or even the CPUSA ( Communist Party of USA ). Joining them will keep you occupied in work that will not only help you remove your current suffering but also make you helpful to the general public.

 

[Verve]

You can do a test yourself, and put on recitation of Quran when you are going through the feelings described. If you don't want to listen to recitation of Quran at all, then there is an issue of possession.

 

[jamahir]

You can do a test yourself, and put on recitation of Quran when you are going through the feelings described. If you don't want to listen to recitation of Quran at all, then there is an issue of possession.

Possession ?? Like by spirits ??

 

[Verve]

Possession ?? Like by spirits ??

By the Shiyateen (Jinn).

 

[jamahir]

By the Shiyateen (Jinn).

Well, I suggest that @Dewaneh can try what I suggested in the below post :

https://defence.pk/pdf/threads/i-am...nother-break-down.596280/page-4#post-11092186