Just balancing and moderating....I went all out for a bit too long and didn't really enjoy it all that much in the end at all (Esp what I was becoming, which was not me). The real poignant criticisms were losing their lustre as well etc (when I prefer those to stay sharp and honed).
Also this forum needs to have better equivalent standards for all nationalities and all members (and it is eternally searching for it still)....otherwise what ended up happening is people start to undermine (what I feel I stand for) by thinking my loud focus in one area and (enforced) silence in another...means I can be directed and used at their whim and fancy and even for larger arguments (against even my own country and its interests in the end). I abhor being used by others (like some instrument of hate) to try prove a totally foreign unrelated argument.
Till I see change in this forum's de facto policies (whatever it says de jure) and common standards (as close as can be given the wide range of memberships and ideas presented for that)
for all, I am not going to deploy my time and arguments in any more lopsided spread for that simply to be abused by nefarious forces here. If it achieves such, I will be glad to again dive in deeply to start poking around at the raison d'etre kind of stuff (but again I would need to be afforded that same opportunity for other countries too and see it present for everyone in some equivalent way...not just BD).
How it may all manifest to another as sudden love or hate for something compared to before, is not really my concern anymore.
Suffice to say, I never had any real hate for BD (as something larger past a few despicable members here), in fact I have no real hate for any country in the world (at large).....just I was foolish (in hindsight) to think I could wait out the rest of the forum to evolve into a fairer environment (somewhat like found here)...... and thus practiced my craft here in the interim in anticipation of that. But it never came, so I similarly see no point in continuing....heck 2019 I made my peace with
@padamchen too since that was really a sapping affair as well for me....again because I over-commited to some assumptions (this time on my side).
All those that need to be chastised here (in this subforum), have been so...all those that have proven themselves to be credible opponents have similarly earned my respect...basically its about the best result I could hope for in the end given the circumstances.
There is not much left to be done in the earlier combat strategy I used....it has evolved now (I have a transitioning set of objectives as well)....and I really wont be looking back....not till the environment actually changes anyway ...to better allow for it everywhere (and fairly) and not just here....but that is beyond my control.
@Joe Shearer @VCheng @I.R.A @Game.Invade
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