NO, I’M NOT READY A strange thing happened to me last night. A female British-Pakistani journalist reached out, for what I thought was a piece promoting western YouTubers and our growing interest in Pakistan for Al Jazeera. It’s the second time we’d been in touch and I told her I was happy to get involved. After a few exchanges though, I realised that the piece she wanted to do was not for a media outlet but for a brand new youtube channel (still to be created) and that it was an honest deep-dive into the social commentary on a topic with a definite negative slant. If you follow my YouTube channel and have seen my “Pakistan: Top 5 Things I Love & Hate” video … well it was one of those ‘hates’. Once I realised that I kindly said no thank you. Pakistan’s reputation has it tough enough. Most of the world views Pakistan so suspiciously, so negatively … and like a terrorist country. I prefer not to shine a light on anything negative when there is so much beauty and goodness to share. Don’t get me wrong. Pakistan isn’t a perfect country to live in, especially for a single, western female. But I’ve realised through my travels in Balochistan that my soul and my spirit are happiest helping to change the outside world’s view and perceptions of Pakistan. At least for right now. And when I’m ready to talk about something sensitive, I will. OH, and something unexpected came out of all this. I’ve removed that ‘love & hate’ vlog and every other random video that was “off-brand” for my channel: ‘Luxury Travel & Hidden Gems’. Gone is the Lahore orange line metro, a Karachi bus ride with the DodoExplorers, street life, and others. Soon I’ll start sharing “expat life” vlogs but until my visa is approved and I have an apartment I’ll remember to keep my content true to what I love sharing most. I’m thankful to last night’s exchange for putting me back on track, too. Just another unexpected gift from Pakistan ❤