It's my first time on this forum and I'm not sure if this is the right place to post this, but anyway..
Do not hesitate in saying whats on your mind. You have taken one of your first steps in dealing with your problem.
My grandparents were Hindu Sindhis from pre-partition British India, and they remained in Sindh after the partition, but they emigrated to the US a few years later citing violence towards the Hindus and an unstable environment. My mother was born in the States, and she married a guy (my father) from the Sindhi community. I was born in the early 90's in an English speaking household. My parents are proficient in Sindhi, but I never really picked it up because of the environment (you'd be hard-pressed to find any Sindhi speakers in the U.S.) and my lack of interest in the language
Your and my story isn't far different from my own. My parents, both of them were born in a place called Lucknow or region around it. My mothers side hails from a place named Barabanki. We too moved due to persecution among with other reasons including the solid belief in Quaid E Azam and his ideals.
Although I love Pakistan now beyond anything I did realize that this wasn't a solution. All Muslims in India can't and won't go to Pakistan and neither will or can all Pakistani Hindus move to India (though I claim certain regions should have been part of Pakistan). The best option is to find a place in your home country.
It is not impossible. Why do I say so. Because Danesh Kaneria, Rana Bhagwandas, Deepak Perwani, Vajeesh Pertab all made a living in Pakistan and did well. So there is opportunity though of course you can say that does not mean the Hindu community here is in a perfect state of affairs.
I've started taking a keen interest in my heritage as of late, but the thing is that I realised that I don't really have a 'homeland'. My family's from Sindh, but they were ostracised in the years after the partition and made to leave. I guess I have more in common with India than with Pakistan because I happen to speak Hindi well, but I have no relatives in India or any other connection to the country. I don't identify with Pakistan either for obvious reasons (my grandparents went through a lot at the hands of its people... and besides, isn't Islam an integral part of the Pakistani identity? How/where do I fit in?).
See there is no reason, absolutely none that if you are a Hindu you cannot be loyal or love Pakistan. You went through a lot... many people did. I met an Ahmedi who was beaten up at a bus stop. Never said he wasn't Pakistani. Do you know Hindus equally suffered trying to create a Pakistan. Have you heard of a man named Jogindar Nath Mandal? He was the first speaker of the constituent assembly and he was a Hindu. Do you know Cornelius, he was a Christian and was the first Pakistani chief justice and an active member of AIML. So was Zafarullah Khan, an Ahmedi. So Pakistan was an ideal of people regardless of religion. It transcends religion and the assumption or assertion that Pakistan is only for muslims is wrong.
Islam is a part of Pakistani ideology but so is secularism because Jinnah clearly said:
Now I think we should keep that in front of us as our ideal and you will find that in course of time Hindus would cease to be Hindus and Muslims would cease to be Muslims, not in the religious sense, because that is the personal faith of each individual, but in the political sense as citizens of the State.
You are free; you are free to go to your temples, you are free to go to your mosques or to any other place or worship in this State of Pakistan. You may belong to any religion or caste or creed that has nothing to do with the business of the State.
As far as Islam is concerned Pakistan was meant to be a safe haven for not only Muslims but all those oppressed under Indian rule. We were oppressed so we went to Pakistan. My nana married almost all his daughters to Pakistanis because he believed in it. I can see that you are oppressed too and therefore the land of Pakistan beckons you too.
I don't really know how to classify myself and I know it doesn't really matter in the 21st century, but I'm kind of in the midst of an identity crisis. so yeah. any people in my position? I'd love to hear from you guys. Like if I were to visit Pakistan someday, would I be considered a part of the community despite my faith? If I were to visit India, would I be considered Indian or the Indian equivalent to a muhajir but from Pakistan?
In India you will gain no respect. You will be treated as an outsider who doesn't belong. Thats how Hindus were treated who went there from Pakistan. This is not a joke. You can test it yourself. You will be treated as an outsider. And yes. You will be considered a part of the Pakistani community despite your faith. We even have Hindu army recruits. Do you happen to know a man named Dinesh who is now in the army?
@Dalit what say you? I saw you just one day on the forum and then you disappeared. We need a Hindu Pakistani worldview on this forum to make the forum a representative of the entire Pakistani community, including Pakistani Hindus. I would love to see you back on the forum.