So true. But still you're believing in existence of God. Of course our ibadah' ain't perfect. But that doesn't make you disbelieving in God.
a indian member had asked me a similar question last year and this was my reply to him :
my concept about god is closest to the islami thought of the formless presence who begets not, nor was he born ( from a creature )... this presence is not affected by worship or human hope.
the nepal earthquake demolished the prayer houses of buddhists,hindus, muslims, christians... and some of these had stood for centuries and been visited by countless daily worshipers and pilgrims... all those idols and accepted shapes of the prayer houses and their special establishment rituals were of no help.
what was this earthquake that destroyed in seconds the human imaginings or hardened belief about "the divine"... the earthquake was nature... perhaps nature is god and god is nature... immovable, undefeatable, existent.
in early 2013, russia saw a passage in its skies of a meteor from space... it arrived without much warning and didn't even have to touch the ground to indirectly injure 7000+ people and damage 1000+ buildings... this world hangs delicate in the vastness of space and in space no understanding of human religion can make effect... i see space as the outer nature, the real nature.
what if a mad-man with the capabilities of elon musk were to go out into the "asteroid belt" ( between mars and jupiter ) and put rocket engines onto three 1-km wide asteroids, push them towards earth and smash them into riyadh, varanasi and vatican... would these three centers of extreme belief in religious mysticism survive the impacts??
the mad-man, believer in his own religion, can claim that he is doing the work of nature, of god - like how changaiz khan had said centuries ago... and this "mad man's" belief will stand supreme to the belief of every religious believer on this world.
idolatry is a attribute of most religions and it is false system... when prayer houses have idols and those idols cannot resist the strikes of man ( raider from another culture ) or nature ( earthquake, rain, flood, meteor ), where stands the belief system in such?? also, what is the point in bathing idols in milk and feeding them other foods when the idols neither live nor cannot they protect themselves... if so, those foods are being wasted on rock, metal and plaster when they could have sated the undeniable material needs of hungry people.
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umm, that is really a western phrase, more specifically invented by western government affiliated media agencies like bbc.
but since we as humans are comfortable with group identities, especially when they are available, i generally call myself as socialist muslim, socialist, communist.
and perhaps for you - progressive muslim, old-style muslim ( this i use too ).
and please do read the 'concept of god' section above.