No worries. I do share you pain. Before the dramas starting April this year, I was fairly happy and was watching videos like Ali Zafar's 'Hum Taba Abad' set around the OIC Conference in Islamabad around 23 March. But then I saw something so disturbingly different. That's for another day.
I will add to what I was vaguely saying above. Nations go through ups and downs. And Pakistan is no exception. I am a paid subscriber to the NY Times which allows me to go through news archives to as early as 1851!! United States became a nation in 1776. But already, by 1850, there were open talks of secession and indeed by 1860, a Civil War broke out, resulting in about 10% Americans killed! Imagine that--for a country with only two land borders, great natural resources, and a country which gained independence by beating the then Super Power.
Also look at countries like Sri Lanka or Lebanon now? Two countries with better educated people, and fairly well endowed with natural resources. I am not talking about Afghanistan or Somalia here to compare. Pakistan is not 'the sick man of Asia' as Dawn.com recently said.