Now you are only reaffirming my suspicion.
You are running low on Testosterone, you can never ever kiss a guy otherwise, not accidentally, not even if you are facing a death threat.....you rather die, but can't kiss a guy..........BTW, was it a lip kiss? Kind of French kiss...?? Did you kiss another 8th grader, or a mustache??
Listen, you need to raise your Testosterone levels, that will solve your perpetual feeling of illness, joint pains, depression, etc. etc. You should immediately find a girlfriend, not necessarily a nice one, but certainly a hot one! If you can't find a girlfriend then don't jump into a marriage, you might end up ruining someone's life, you need to first ensure that all your gears are in working condition and perform well when time comes.......seek professional help in that case to asses the functionalities of the gears.........but doctors can't help you in that, they are theoretical, and in your case something 'theoretically expected to perform well' is just not enough.