When i recieved my "Not Recommended" letter it came as no surprise. I was very foolish in my GTO test's and the same can be said for my interview. I applied for the 127 PMA L/C.
First of all i have been a book worm all my life and hence after 5 attempts i climbed a 6 foot tall plank, shakily stood straight on it and leaped a few feet to cross the finish line. My group had lost all confidence in me and every commander would say: "Chest number 8, aap nahin kar sakte, waapis aajaein" and my reply would always be, "COMMANDER I CAN DO IT, I CAN DO IT!". They were treating me like another inanimate object.
In my interview i was razor sharp honest. I DID say that i would be highly obliged if we had a little hot running water. I DID admit that i am afraid of heights because i have NEVER climbed a tall ladder! Also i honestly informed the interviewer about my ex-gf, my habit of not offering prayers regularly. But in the end atleast i told him, "Sir, i am afraid of heights and i dont want to be a burden on the army. I wish to return after 6 months eliminating this fear and increasing my agility considerably". At this point he said to me, "Dont lose hope, you are recommended uptil now. However we will evaluate your performance in the Individual Obstacles tomorrow. Make your maximum effort".
Its the IO's. I am standing infront of the GTO. The whistle goes off and i make a dash towards the monkey bridge. As i cautiously step on to the rope, i am shaking from head to toe. The whistle goes off again..............i reach the vertical rope but am too scared to climb down it. I honestly tell the GTO: Sir i am sorry but i am afraid.
YES, i am ashamed of my Zero Obstacle drama but atleast i have a clean conscience that i was true to myself. Now i am trying to improve my physique by running 5 kilometers everyday and light bodybuilding. I'll give it another shot 6 months later. Won't lose hope, won't give up.........
P.S. It was fun spotting the 'jasoos-es'
4 memorable days...
First of all i have been a book worm all my life and hence after 5 attempts i climbed a 6 foot tall plank, shakily stood straight on it and leaped a few feet to cross the finish line. My group had lost all confidence in me and every commander would say: "Chest number 8, aap nahin kar sakte, waapis aajaein" and my reply would always be, "COMMANDER I CAN DO IT, I CAN DO IT!". They were treating me like another inanimate object.
In my interview i was razor sharp honest. I DID say that i would be highly obliged if we had a little hot running water. I DID admit that i am afraid of heights because i have NEVER climbed a tall ladder! Also i honestly informed the interviewer about my ex-gf, my habit of not offering prayers regularly. But in the end atleast i told him, "Sir, i am afraid of heights and i dont want to be a burden on the army. I wish to return after 6 months eliminating this fear and increasing my agility considerably". At this point he said to me, "Dont lose hope, you are recommended uptil now. However we will evaluate your performance in the Individual Obstacles tomorrow. Make your maximum effort".
Its the IO's. I am standing infront of the GTO. The whistle goes off and i make a dash towards the monkey bridge. As i cautiously step on to the rope, i am shaking from head to toe. The whistle goes off again..............i reach the vertical rope but am too scared to climb down it. I honestly tell the GTO: Sir i am sorry but i am afraid.
YES, i am ashamed of my Zero Obstacle drama but atleast i have a clean conscience that i was true to myself. Now i am trying to improve my physique by running 5 kilometers everyday and light bodybuilding. I'll give it another shot 6 months later. Won't lose hope, won't give up.........
P.S. It was fun spotting the 'jasoos-es'
4 memorable days...
