Surely it was a good way to die, in the place of someone else, someone I loved. Noble, even. That ought to count for something.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Preface, p.1
When life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your expectations, its not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Preface, p.1
My primary motivation behind buying a car, despite the scarcity of my funds, was that I refused to be driven around town in a car with red and blue lights on top. Nothing slows down traffic like a cop.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.5
I do a good job of blocking painful, unnecessary things from my memory.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.6
The thing, I thought to myself
it had possibilities as a nickname, at the very least.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.7
It was nice to be alone, not to have to smile and look pleased; a relief to stare dejectedly out the window at the sheeting rain and let just a few tears escape.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.9
Sometimes I wondered if I was seeing the same things through my eyes that the rest of the world was seeing through theirs. Maybe there was a glitch in my brain.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.11
Good luck tended to avoid me.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.11
I was expected, a topic of gossip no doubt. Daughter of the Chiefs flight ex-wife, come home at last.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.13
I can do this, I lied to myself feebly. No one was going to bite me.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.14
My mother is part albino.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.16
I tried to be diplomatic, but mostly I just lied a lot.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.17
I stared because their faces, so different, so similar, were all devastatingly, inhumanly beautiful.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.19
I felt a surge of pity, and relief. Pity because, as beautiful as they were, they were outsiders, clearly not accepted. Relief that I wasnt the only newcomer here, and certainly not the most interesting by any standard.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.22
Id noticed that his eyes were black coal black.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.23
I peeked up at him one more time, and regretted it. He was glaring down at me again, his black eyes full of revulsion. As I flinched away from him, shrinking against my chair, the phrase if looks could kill suddenly ran through my mind.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.24
Forks was literally my personal hell on Earth.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.25
For an instant, I felt a thrill of genuine fear, raising the hair on my arms. The look only lasted a second, but it chilled me more than the freezing wind.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 1, p.27
It was ridiculous, and egotistical, to think that I could affect anyone that strongly. It was impossible. And yet I couldnt stop worrying that it was true.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.31
It seemed excessive for them to have both looks and money. But as far as I could tell, life worked that way most of the time. It didnt look as if it bought them any acceptance here.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.32
When I came here as a child, he would always remove the bullets as soon as he walked in the door. I guess he considered me old enough now not to shoot myself by accident, and not depressed enough to shoot myself on purpose.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.35
Once people start throwing wet stuff, I go inside.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.39
I was sure, though, in the instant our eyes met, that he didnt look harsh or unfriendly as he had the last time Id seen him. He looked merely curious again, unsatisfied in some way.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.41
His fingers were ice-cold, like hed been holding them in a snowdrift before class. But that wasnt why I jerked my hand away so quickly. When he touched me, it stung my hand as if an electric current had passed through us.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.45
I vividly remembered the flat black color of his eyes the last time hed glared at me the color was striking against the background of his pale skin and his auburn hair. Today, his eyes were a completely different color: a strange ocher, darker than butterscotch, but with the same golden tone.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.46
Hasnt anyone ever told you? Life isnt fair.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.49
I was in disbelief that Id just explained my dreary life to this bizarre, beautiful boy who may or may not despise me.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.50
Edward Cullen was leaning against the front door of the Volvo, three cars down from me, and staring intently in my direction.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.52
I stared straight ahead as I passed the Volvo, but from a peripheral peek, I would swear I saw him laughing.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 2, p.52
In a lot of ways, living with Charlie was like having my own place, and I found myself reveling in the aloneness instead of being lonely.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.54
If I was being honest with myself, I knew I was eager to get to school because I would see Edward Cullen. And that was very, very stupid.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.54
Clearly, today was going to be nightmarish.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.54
Whatever the reason, Mikes puppy dog behavior and Erics apparent rivalry with him were disconcerting. I wasnt sure if I didnt prefer being ignored.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.55
My throat suddenly felt tight. I wasnt used to being taken care of, and Charlies unspoken concern caught me by surprise.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.54
Edward Cullen was standing four cars down from me, staring at me in horror. His face stood out from a sea of faces, all frozen in the same mask of shock.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.56
Just before I heard the shattering crunch of the van folding around the truck bed, something hit me, hard, but not from the direction I was expecting.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.56
A low oath made me aware that someone was with me, and the voice was impossible not to recognize. Two long, white hands shot out protectively in front of me, and the van shuddered to a stop a foot from my face, the large hands fitting providentially into a deep dent in the side of the vans body.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.56
How did you get over here so fast?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.57
He unleashed the full, devastating power of his eyes on me, as if trying to communicate something crucial.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.58
When theyd lifted me away from the car, I had seen the deep dent in the tan cars bumper a very distinct dent that fit the contours of Edwards shoulders
as if he had braced himself against the car with enough force to damage the metal frame
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.59
I tried to think of a logical solution that could explain what I had just seen a solution that excluded the assumption that I was insane.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.59
How come you arent strapped to a gurney like the rest of us?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.61
I dont like to lie so thered better be a good reason why Im doing it.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.65
I was positive that Edwards defensive behavior in the hall was a confirmation of the bizarre things I still could hardly believe Id witnessed.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.66
I was consumed by the mystery Edward presented. And more than a little obsessed by Edward himself.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.67
That was the first night I dreamed of Edward Cullen.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 3, p.67
I wondered to myself why no one else had seen him standing so far away, before he was suddenly, impossibly saving my life. With chagrin, I realized the probable cause no one else was as aware of Edward as I always was. No one else watched him the way I did. How pitiful.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.69
He wished he hadnt pulled me from the path of Tylers van there was no other conclusion I could come to.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.70
I watched as his golden eyes grew perceptibly darker day by day. But in class I gave no more notice that he existed than he showed toward me. I was miserable.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.70
As always, I was electrically aware of Edward sitting close enough to touch, as distant as if he were merely an invention of my imagination.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.72
I didnt want to get into the safety hazards that dancing presented, so I quickly made new plans.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.73
I sighed and opened my eyes. And Edward was staring at me curiously, that same, familiar edge of frustration even more distinct now in his black eyes.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.73
I couldnt allow him to have this level of influence over me. It was pathetic. More than pathetic, it was unhealthy.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.74
I turned slowly, unwillingly. I didnt want to feel what I knew I would feel when I looked at his too-perfect face.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.74
What? Are you speaking to me again?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.74
Its too bad you didnt figure that out earlier. You could have saved yourself all this regret.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.75
I almost had a stroke when I rounded the corner and saw a tall, dark figure leaning against the side of my truck.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.76
I considered taking out the rear of his shiny Volvo, but there were too many witnesses.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.77
In his rearview mirror, Edwards eyes were on me. He was unquestionably shaking with laughter, as if hed heard every word Tyler had said. My foot itched toward the gas pedal
one little bump wouldnt hurt any of them, just that glossy silver paint job. I revved the engine.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.78
He must see how absorbed I was by him; he must not want to lead me on
so we couldnt even be friends
because he wasnt interested in me at all.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.79
I wasnt interesting. And he was. Interesting
and brilliant
and mysterious
and perfect
and beautiful
and possibly able to lift full-sized vans with one hand.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.79
I tried to be crafty as I hid my horror.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.80
I thought you were supposed to be pretending I dont exist, not irritating me to death.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.82
It felt like the heat of my anger should physically burn him, but he only seemed more amused.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.82
So you are trying to irritate me to death? Since Tylers van didnt do the job?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.82
My palms tingled I wanted so badly to hit something. I was surprised at myself. I was usually a nonviolent person.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.82
Do you have a multiple personality disorder?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.82
Are you trying to be funny?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.83
Stupid, shiny Volvo owner.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 4, p.83
It was difficult to believe that I hadnt just imagined what Edward had said, and the way his eyes had looked. Maybe it was just a very convincing dream that Id confused with reality. That seemed more probable than that I really appealed to him on any level.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.86
It was hard to believe that someone so beautiful could be real. I was afraid that he might disappear in a sudden puff of smoke, and I would wake up.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.87
Im trying to figure out what you are.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.89
I had been vacillating during the last month between Bruce Wayne and Peter Parker. There was no way I was going to own up to that.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.89
I cant imagine why that would be frustrating at all just because someone refuses to tell you what theyre thinking, even if all the while theyre making cryptic little remarks specifically designed to keep you up at night wondering what they could possibly mean
now, why would that be frustrating?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.90
I just wondered
if you could warn me beforehand the next time you decide to ignore me for my own good. Just so Im prepared.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.91
He was dangerous. Hed been trying to tell me that all along.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.93
I squeezed my eyes shut, hoping to die. Or, at the very least, not to throw up.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.96
Suddenly the sidewalk disappeared from beneath me. My eyes flew open in shock. Edward had scooped me up in his arms, as easily as if I weighed ten pounds instead of a hundred and ten.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.97
His voice was like melting honey. I could imagine how much more overwhelming his eyes would be.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.102
It was all I could do to keep from falling backward. Hed probably just drag me along anyway if I did.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.103
You are so pushy!
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.104
I was mentally calculating my chances of reaching the truck before he could catch me. I had to admit, they werent good.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.104
I tried to maintain what dignity I could as I got into his car. I wasnt very successful I looked like a half-drowned cat and my boots squeaked.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.104
My mom always says I was born thirty-five years old and that I get more middle-aged every year.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 5, p.106
I wasnt looking forward to Friday, and it more than lived up to my non-expectations.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 6, p.110
The worst part about Friday was that, even though I knew he wasnt going to be there, I still hoped.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 6, p.111
And I couldnt stop the gloom that engulfed me as I realized I didnt know how long I would have to wait before I saw him again.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 6, p.111
So it was going to be one of those days.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 6, p.113
On the one hand, I loved the tide pools. They had fascinated me since I was a child; they were one of the only things I ever looked forward to when I had to come to Forks. On the other hand, Id also fallen into them a lot. Not a big deal when youre seven and with your dad. It reminded me of Edwards request that I not fall into the ocean.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 6, p.116
I was completely absorbed, except for one small part of my mind that wondered what Edward was doing now, and trying to imagine what he would be saying if he were here with me.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 6, p.117
All I caught was that one of the girls was also named Jessica, and the boy who noticed me was named Jacob.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 6, p.118
It was like the first day of school all over again.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 6, p.119
It does great in a collision.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 6, p.120
He flashed a brilliant smile, looking at me appreciatively in a way I was learning to recognize.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 6, p.121
Hed said that the Cullens didnt come here, but his tone had implied something more that they werent allowed; they were prohibited.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 6, p.121
It was a stupid plan, but I didnt have any better ideas. I hoped that young Jacob was as yet inexperienced around girls, so that he wouldnt see through my sure-to-be-pitiful attempts at flirting.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 6, p.122
I tried to make my smile alluring, wondering if I was laying it on too thick. He smiled back, though, looking allured.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 6, p.123
But I really did like Jacob. He was someone I could easily be friends with.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 6, p.127
The shattering beats made it impossible for me to think which was the whole purpose of the exercise.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 7, p.130
And then Edward stepped out from the trees, his skin faintly glowing, his eyes black and dangerous. He held up one hand and beckoned me to come to him. The wolf growled at my feet. I took a step forward, toward Edward. He smiled then, and his teeth were sharp, pointed.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 7, p.131
My subconscious had dredged up exactly the images Id been trying so desperately to avoid. I was going to have to face them now.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 7, p.132
It was a relief, that one small entry, the one myth among hundreds that claimed the existence of good vampires.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 7, p.135
There was a thin ribbon of a trail that led through the forest here, or I wouldnt risk wandering on my own like this. My sense of direction was hopeless; I could get lost in much less helpful surroundings.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 7, p.136
There was no rational explanation for how I was alive at this moment.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 7, p.137
Could the Cullens be vampires? Well, they were something. Something outside the possibility of rational justification was taking place in front of my incredulous eyes. Whether it be Jacobs cold ones or my own superhero theory, Edward Cullen was not
human. He was something more.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 7, p.138
If Edward was a vampire I could hardly make myself think the words then what should I do? Involving someone else was definitely out. I couldnt even believe myself; anyone I told would have me committed.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 7, p.138
The dark Edward in my dream last night was a reflection only of my fear of the word Jacob had spoken, and not Edward himself.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 7, p.139
I didnt know if there ever was a choice, really. I was already in too deep. Now that I knew if I knew I could do nothing about my frightening secret. Because when I thought of him, of his voice, his hypnotic eyes, the magnetic force of his personality, I wanted nothing more than to be with him right now.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 7, p.139
This decision was ridiculously easy to live with. Dangerously easy.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 7, p.140
I should be afraid I knew I should be, but I couldnt feel the right kind of fear.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 7, p.141
I sketched inattentively along the margins of my homework. After a few minutes, I suddenly realized Id drawn five pairs of dark eyes staring out of the page at me. I scrubbed them out with the eraser.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 7, p.142
Why couldnt I ever have a pleasant conversation with Mike anymore without it getting awkward?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 7, p.144
I think
and if you ever repeat what Im saying right now I will cheerfully beat you to death, but I think that would hurt Jessicas feelings.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 7, p.144
The place was nearly filled Spanish had made us late but there was no sign of Edward or any of his family. Desolation hit me with crippling strength.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 7, p.145
Ive never had a boyfriend or anything close. I didnt go out much.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 8, p.153
Do you think that if I ran him over with my truck he would stop feeling guilty about the accident? That he might give up on making amends and call it even?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 8, p.154
Stupid, unreliable vampire.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 8, p.156
I knew exactly where my pepper spray was still in my duffle bag under the bed, never unpacked.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 8, p.158
I realized then that I wasnt being followed. I was being herded.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 8, p.160
I wasnt going out without taking someone with me. I tried to swallow so I could build up a decent scream.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 8, p.161
It was amazing how instantaneously the choking fear vanished, amazing how suddenly the feeling of security washed over me even before I was off the street as soon as I heard his voice.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 8, p.162
I stared at his face in profound relief, relief that went beyond my sudden deliverance.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 8, p.162
Im going to run over Tyler Crowley tomorrow before school?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 8, p.163
Hes telling everyone that hes taking me to prom either hes insane or hes still trying to make up for almost killing me last
well, you remember it, and he thinks prom is somehow the correct way to do this. So I figure if I endanger his life, then were even, and he cant keep trying to make amends.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 8, p.163
I wanted nothing more than to be alone with my perpetual savior. There were so many questions that I couldnt bombard him with till we were by ourselves.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 8, p.166
He stared into my eyes, and I saw how light his eyes were, lighter than Id ever seen them, golden butterscotch.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 8, p.170
I feel very safe with you.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 8, p.170
Youre always crabbier when your eyes are black I expect it then.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 8, p.171
He seemed to be wavering, torn by some internal dilemma. His eyes locked with mine, and I guessed he was making the decision right then whether or not to simply tell me the truth.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 8, p.173
Did you ever think that maybe my number was up the first time, with the van, and that youve been interfering with fate?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 8, p.174
I probably should have been used to that by now but I wasnt. I had a feeling Edward wasnt the kind of person anyone got used to.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 8, p.178
I thought we were past all the evasiveness.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.179
I couldnt think of an acceptable response to that, but I filed it carefully away for future study. I tried to refocus. I wasnt ready to let him be finished, now that he was finally explaining things.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.180
I felt silly, asking for clarification on make-believe.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.180
Are you trying to kill us?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.181
I was raised to abide by traffic laws. Besides, if you turn us into a Volvo pretzel around a tree trunk, you can probably just walk away.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.182
I tried to flirt it worked better than I thought it would.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.184
I decided it didnt matter.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.184
It doesnt matter to me what you are.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.184
And how long have you been seventeen?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.185
Dont laugh but how can you come out during the daytime?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.185
He turned to look at me with a wistful expression. The golden eyes held mine, and I lost my train of thought. I stared at him until he looked away.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.186
I was aware of the time slipping away so quickly, like the black road beneath us, and I was hideously afraid that I would never have another chance to be with him like this again openly, the walls between us gone for once. His words hinted at an end, and I recoiled from the idea. I couldnt waste one minute I had with him.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.187
I didnt like it. Not seeing you. It makes me anxious, too.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.190
I told you, it doesnt matter what you are. Its too late.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.190
His voice burned with regret. I knew he wasnt just apologizing for the words that had upset me.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.191
I fall down a lot when I run.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.191
I turned and he was leaning toward me, his pale, glorious face just inches from mine. My heart stopped beating.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.193
About three things I was absolutely positive. First, Edward was a vampire. Second, there was part of him and I didnt know how potent that part might be that thirsted for my blood. And third, I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 9, p.195
There was uncertainty in his voice. He was really giving me a choice I was free to refuse, and part of him hoped for that. It was a vain hope.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.197
It was a colossal tribute to his face that it kept my eyes away from his body.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.197
Im not quite that delicate.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.197
Do I react badly?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.198
I wanted to close that little distance, to reach out and touch him, but I was afraid he wouldnt like me to.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.199
He paused to catch a stray lock of hair that was escaping the twist on my neck and wound it back into place. My heart spluttered hyperactively.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.201
One side of his mouth pulled up into my favorite uneven smile.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.201
He was such a cheater. Now I was even more worried about what I was going to say to Jessica.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.201
How very inconvenient his little talent could be when it wasnt saving my life.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.202
He drives like a maniac. It was terrifying.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.202
You should have seen the waitress flirting with him it was over the top. But he didnt pay any attention to her at all.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.203
I do have some trouble with incoherency when Im around him.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.204
I cant explain it right
but hes even more unbelievable behind the face.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.204
The vampire who wanted to be good who ran around saving peoples lives so he wouldnt be a monster
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.204
But outside the door to our Spanish class, leaning against the wall looking more like a Greek god than anyone had a right to Edward was waiting for me.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.206
Im not surprised you heard something you didnt like. You know what they say about eavesdroppers.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.208
I tried to remember how to exhale. I had to look away before it came back to me.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.208
His liquid topaz eyes were penetrating trying futilely, I assumed, to lift the truth straight from my mind.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.209
I cant be sure I dont know how to read minds but sometimes it seems like youre trying to say goodbye when youre saying something else.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.210
Im absolutely ordinary well, except for bad things like all the near-death experiences and being so clumsy that Im almost disabled.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.210
No one has tried to do away with me today.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.211
As it happens, I dont mind being alone with you.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.214
Bears? You know, bears are not in season.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.214
Nothing more fun than an irritated grizzly bear.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 10, p.215
I was stunned by the unexpected electricity that flowed through me, amazed that it was possible to be more aware of him than I already was. A crazy impulse to reach over and touch him, to stroke his perfect face just once in the darkness, nearly overwhelmed me.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 11, p.219
His face startled me his expression was torn, almost pained, and so fiercely beautiful that the ache to touch him flared as strong as before. My goodbye stuck in my throat. He raised his hand, hesitant, conflict raging in his eyes, and then swiftly brushed the length of my cheekbone with his fingertips. His skin was as icy as ever, but the trail his fingers left on my skin was alarmingly warm like Id been burned, but didnt feel the pain of it yet.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 11, p.220
I somehow managed to hit myself in the head with my racket and clip Mikes shoulder on the same swing.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 11, p.221
What if his family was there? I felt a wave of real terror. Did they know that I knew? Was I supposed to know that they knew that I knew, or not?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 11, p.221
I dont speak Car and Driver.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 11, p.223
It must be a hard thing, to be a father; living in fear that your daughter would meet a boy she liked, but also having to worry if she didnt. How ghastly it would be, I thought, shuddering, if Charlie had even the slightest inkling of exactly what I did like.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 11, p.227
Hed been flinging questions at me with such speed that I felt like I was taking one of those psychiatric tests where you answer with the first word that comes to mind.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 11, p.229
Id given more information than necessary in my unwilling honesty, and I worried it would provoke the strange anger that flared whenever I slipped and revealed too clearly how obsessed I was.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 11, p.230
Ive never minded being alone Im too much like you.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 12, p.241
He grinned his crooked smile at me, stopping my breath and my heart. I couldnt imagine how an angel could be any more glorious. There was nothing about him that could be improved upon.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 12, p.241
I looked down, afraid of the persuasive power of his eyes. I refused to be convinced to fear him, no matter how real the danger might be. It doesnt matter, I repeated in my head.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 12, p.243
He knows Ive been meaning to do the laundry. Maybe hell think I fell in the washer.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 12, p.244
I realized slowly that his words should frighten me. I waited for that fear to come, but all I could seem to feel was an ache for his pain.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 12, p.246
Should I say have fun, or is that the wrong sentiment?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 12, p.247
I promise to try to be safe. Ill do the laundry tonight that ought to be fraught with peril.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 12, p.247
Our relationship couldnt continue to balance, as it did, on the point of a knife. We would fall off one edge or the other, depending entirely upon his decision, or his instincts. My decision was made, made before Id ever consciously chosen, and I was committed to seeing it through. Because there was nothing more terrifying to me, more excruciating, than the thought of turning away from him. It was an impossibility.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 12, p.248
This truck is old enough to be your cars grandfather have some respect.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 12, p.254
I knew he thought it was fear that upset me, and I was grateful again that I was the one person whose mind he couldnt hear.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 12, p.257
His cold touch on my skin never failed to make my heart thud erratically. Twice, when that happened, I caught a look on his face that made me sure he could somehow hear it.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 12, p.257
Edward seemed to take a deep breath, and then he stepped out into the bright glow of the midday sun.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 12, p.259
Edward in the sunlight was shocking. I couldnt get used to it, though Id been staring at him all afternoon. His skin, white despite the faint flush from yesterdays hunting trip, literally sparkled, like thousands of tiny diamonds were embedded in the surface.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.260
Now and then, his lips would move, so fast it looked like they were trembling. But, when I asked, he told me he was singing to himself; it was too low for me to hear.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.260
I was wishing that I could believe that you were real. And I was wishing that I wasnt afraid.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.262
I sat without moving, more frightened of him than I had ever been. Id never seen him so completely freed of that carefully cultivated facade. Hed never been less human
or more beautiful.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.264
I looked into his eyes, abruptly grasping that this was every bit as new to him as it was to me. As many years of unfathomable experience as he had, this was hard for him, too.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.265
I was afraid
because, for, well, obvious reasons, I cant stay with you. And Im afraid that Id like to stay with you, much more than I should.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.266
It was hard to keep up his sudden mood changes left me always a step behind, dazed.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.266
So what youre saying is, Im your brand of heroin?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.267
What are you asking? My permission?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.269
Common sense told me I should be terrified. Instead, I was relieved to finally understand. And I was filled with compassion for his suffering, even now, as he confessed his craving to take my life.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.273
You already know how I feel, of course. Im here
which, roughly translated, means I would rather die than stay away from you.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.274
What a stupid lamb.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.274
He raised his free hand and placed it gently on the side of my neck. I sat very still, the chill of his touch a natural warning a warning telling me to be terrified. But there was no feeling of fear in me. There were, however, other feelings
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.275
He came to rest with the side of his face pressed tenderly against my chest. Listening to my heart.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.276
I knew at any moment it could be too much, and my life could end so quickly that I might not even notice. And I couldnt make myself be afraid. I couldnt think of anything, except that he was touching me.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.276
No one could be still like Edward. He closed his eyes and became as immobile as stone, a carving under my hand.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.277
Youre better at this than you give yourself credit for.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.278
Will you turn into a bat?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.279
Im a bit heavier than your average backpack.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.279
If Id ever feared death before in his presence, it was nothing compared to how I felt now.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.280
I think I need to lie down.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.280
He hesitated not in the normal way, the human way. Not the way a man might hesitate before he kissed a woman, to gauge her reaction, to see how he would be received. Perhaps he would hesitate to prolong the moment, that ideal moment of anticipation, sometimes better than the kiss itself. Edward hesitated to test himself, to see if this was safe, to make sure he was still in control of his need. And then his cold, marble lips pressed very softly against mine.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.282
He was a different Edward than the one I had known. And I felt all the more besotted by him. It would cause me physical pain to be separated from him now.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.283
There was no way around it; I couldnt resist him in anything.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.284
Take it easy my truck is a senior citizen.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.284
Are you ever going to tell me how old you are?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.287
Theres nothing like an unsolved mystery to keep you up at night.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.287
I couldnt picture it, this godlike creature sitting in my fathers shabby kitchen chair.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.292
You spied on me?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.292
I knew I talked in my sleep, of course; my mother teased me about it. I hadnt thought it was something I needed to worry about here, though.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.293
Just give me a minute to restart my heart.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.297
Can I have a minute to be human?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.297
I tried not to think of Edward, sitting in my room, waiting, because then I had to start all over with the calming process.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.298
It was very difficult, while he was touching me, to frame a coherent question.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.299
It seems to be
much easier for you, now, to be close to me.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.299
Would you like a round of applause?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.300
Id never seen him struggle so hard for words. It was so
human.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.301
Yeah, its an off day when I dont get somebody telling me how edible I smell.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.306
Why do you do it? I still dont understand how you can work so hard to resist what you
are. Please dont misunderstand, of course Im glad that you do. I just dont see why you would bother in the first place.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.306
Let me get this straight Im the baby seal, right?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.308
Are you sure you wont vanish in the morning? You are mythical, after all.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.309
He laughed, and then began to hum that same, unfamiliar lullaby; the voice of an archangel, soft in my ear.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 14, p.311
Im not afraid of them. Im afraid they wont
like me. Wont they be, well, surprised that you would bring someone
like me
home to meet them? Do they know that I know about them?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 15, p.316
Well, its no irritable grizzly
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 15, p.316
My dating history gave me few reference points to work with. Not that any normal rules of dating applied here.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 15, p.317
Ill always want you. Forever.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 15, p.318
I doubted there were any etiquette books detailing how to dress when your vampire sweetheart takes you home to meet his vampire family.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 15, p.318
You
made
me
faint.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 15, p.319
I think I forgot to breathe.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 15, p.320
Im feeling extremely insignificant.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 15, p.326
A moment of wordless communication passed between us. He realized that I knew he was keeping something from me. I realized that he wasnt going to give anything away. Not now.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 15, p.328
It was easier if I didnt try to believe.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 15, p.331
Every time he touched me, in even the most casual way, my heart had an audible reaction.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 16, p.335
It was a strange combination to absorb the everyday concerns of the town doctor stuck in the middle of a discussion of his early days in seventeenth-century London. It was also unsettling to know that he spoke aloud only for my benefit.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 16, p.336
He swam to France?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 16, p.337
You cant spring something like that on me, and then expect me not to say anything.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 16, p.339
You dont have to breathe?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 16, p.339
Im not running anywhere.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 16, p.340
In the corner was a sophisticated-looking sound system, the kind I was afraid to touch because Id be sure to break something.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 16, p.343
Youre still waiting for the running and the screaming, arent you?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 16, p.344
I hate to burst your bubble, but youre really not as scary as you think you are. I dont find you scary at all, actually.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 16, p.345
Vampires like baseball?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 16, p.347
The phone rang and I sprinted downstairs to get it. There was only one voice I wanted to hear; anything else would be a disappointment. But I knew that if he wanted to talk to me, hed probably just materialize in my room.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 17, p.354
Well, I sort of have a date with Edward Cullen tonight, and he wanted to introduce me to his parents
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 17, p.356
Dont embarrass me with all the boyfriend talk, okay?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 17, p.357
I hope youre getting the Spanish Inquisition out of your system now.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 17, p.358
I quickly shot him a dirty look. He winked behind Charlies back.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 17, p.358
Enough humor at my expense. Lets go.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 17, p.359
I gave up trying to help him and focused on not hyperventilating.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 17, p.360
Run the whole way? As in, were still going to run part of the way?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 17, p.360
I knew there was a second part to my brilliant defense, but I couldnt quite call it back.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 17, p.363
Youre indestructible.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 17, p.363
Oh, youre the only one whos allowed to get mad?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 17, p.365
Go team!
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 17, p.367
His run was more aggressive, a cheetah rather than a gazelle, and he quickly overtook them. The grace and power took my breath away.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 17, p.367
You dont mind, then? That Im
all wrong for him?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 17, p.368
Three things seemed to happen simultaneously while Carlisle was speaking. My hair ruffled with the light breeze, Edward stiffened, and the second male, James, suddenly whipped his head around, scrutinizing me, his nostrils flaring.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 18, p.378
Edward bared his teeth, crouching in defense, a feral snarl ripping from his throat. It was nothing like the playful sounds Id heard from him this morning; it was the single most menacing thing I had ever heard, and chills ran from the crown of my head to the back of my heels.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 18, p.378
The sense of exhilaration that usually seemed to possess Edward as he ran was completely absent, replaced by a fury that consumed him and drove him still faster. Even with me on his back, the others trailed behind.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 18, p.380
Edward was growling something too fast for me to understand, but it sounded a lot like a string of profanities.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 18, p.381
Dammit, Edward! Where are you taking me?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 18, p.381
Youre not ruining everything over me!
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 18, p.382
Does anyone want to hear my plan?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 18, p.384
I demand that you take me home.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 18, p.384
I felt moisture filling up my eyes as I looked at Emmett. I barely knew him, and yet, somehow, not knowing when I would see him again after tonight was anguishing. I knew this was just a faint taste of the goodbyes I would have to survive in the next hour, and the thought made the tears begin to spill.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 19, p.391
Edward opened my door and took my hand, then drew me into the protecting enclosure of his arm. He walked me swiftly toward the house, eyes always roving through the night.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 19, p.391
I love you. I will always love you, no matter what happens now.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 19, p.391
Keep Charlie safe for me. Hes not going to like me very much after this, and I want to have the chance to apologize later.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 19, p.391
I could think of only one way to escape, and it involved hurting him so much that I hated myself for even considering it. But I had no time, and I had to keep him safe.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 19, p.393
I do like him thats the problem. I cant do this anymore! I cant put down any more roots here! I dont want to end up trapped in this stupid, boring town like Mom! Im not going to make the same dumb mistake she did. I hate it I cant stay here another minute!
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 19, p.393
It didnt work out, okay? I really, really hate Forks!
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 19, p.394
But it wont be all right when Im not with you.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 19, p.396
How can you kill a vampire?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 19, p.398
Emmett had my door open before the truck was stopped; he pulled me out of the seat, tucked me like a football into his vast chest, and ran me through the door.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 19, p.399
His eyes went blank, curiously dead, as he turned away. And they were gone.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 19, p.403
If anything happens to them, it will be for nothing.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 19, p.404
Youre the first one to ask permission.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 19, p.404
What if something goes wrong, and they get separated? If something happens to any of them, Carlisle, Emmett
Edward
If that wild female hurts Esme
How could I live with myself when its my fault? None of you should be risking yourselves for me.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 20, p.410
My guilt slowly subsided as I looked into her dark eyes. But, even as the calm spread over me, I knew I couldnt trust my feelings with Jasper there.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 20, p.411
I hoped that by myself in the dark, I could give in to the terrible fears that hovered on the edge of my consciousness, unable to break through under Jaspers careful supervision.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 20, p.411
Tell me then
how do you become a vampire?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 20, p.413
Immortality must grant endless patience.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 20, p.421
And what if you get hurt, Alice? Do you think thats okay with me? Do you think its only my human family he can hurt me with?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 21, p.425
I walked to my room and shut the door, slammed it really, so I could be free to go to pieces privately.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 21, p.425
There was no escape, no reprieve. I could see only one possible end looming darkly in my future. The only question was how many other people would be hurt before I reached it.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 21, p.425
Slowly, slowly, my thoughts started to break past that brick wall of pain. To plan. For I had no choices now but one: to go to the mirrored room and die.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 21, p.430
I had to accept that I wouldnt see Edward again, not even one last glimpse of his face to carry with me to the mirror room. I was going to hurt him, and I couldnt say goodbye.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 21, p.431
I folded the letter carefully, and sealed it in the envelope. Eventually he would find it. I only hoped he would understand, and listen to me just this once. And then I carefully sealed away my heart.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 21, p.432
It had taken much less time than Id thought all the terror, the despair, the shattering of my heart. The minutes were ticking by more slowly than usual.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 22, p.433
The minutes passed and Edwards arrival grew closer. It was amazing how every cell in my body seemed to know he was coming, to long for his coming.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 22, p.437
I couldnt cry yet, I told myself. I still had a long way to go.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 22, p.439
I imagined that I had stayed at the airport to meet Edward. I visualized how I would stand on my toes, the sooner to see his face. How quickly, how gracefully he would move through the crowds of people separating us. And then I would run to close those last few feet between us reckless as always and I would be in his marble arms, finally safe.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 22, p.440
So many questions I still had for him. I could talk to him forever, never sleeping, never leaving his side. I could see his face so clearly now
almost hear his voice. And, despite all the horror and hopelessness, I was fleetingly happy. So involved was I in my escapist daydreams, I lost all track of the seconds racing by.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 22, p.440
There was no time to look back at my house, and I didnt want to see it as it was now empty, a symbol of fear instead of sanctuary. The last person to walk through those familiar rooms was my enemy.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 22, p.442
Terror seized me so strongly that I was literally trapped by it. I couldnt make my feet move forward.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 22, p.443
I couldnt help myself I tried to run. As useless as I knew it would be, as weak as my knees already were, panic took over and I bolted for the emergency door.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 22, p.449
I heard, as if from underwater, the final growl of the hunter. I could see, through the long tunnels my eyes had become, his dark shape coming toward me. With my last effort, my hand instinctively raised to protect my face. My eyes closed, and I drifted.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 22, p.451
This couldnt be heaven, could it? There was too much pain for that.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 23, p.453
Edwards face was drawn. I watched his eyes as the doubt was suddenly replaced with a blazing determination.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 23, p.455
Stay, Edward, stay with me
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 23, p.456
I heard my favorite sound in the world: Edwards quiet laugh, weak with relief.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 23, p.457
Death shouldnt be this uncomfortable.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.459
I had no interest in being soothed. My mom was here and I was recovering from a vampire attack.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.459
Dont I taste as good as I smell?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.460
I was not finished kissing you. Dont make me come over there.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.463
Dont forget to breathe.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.464
Edward still had his eyes closed, but he looked too tense to pass as asleep.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.466
Im pretty crazy about him.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.468
You stole a car?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.469
He didnt say anything; he watched my face warily as the pain that had nothing to do with broken bones, pain that was infinitely worse, threatened to crush me.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.470
Do you swear you wont leave me?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.471
Are you tired of having to save me all the time? Do you want me to go away?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.472
If it werent for you, I would be ******* away in the Forks cemetery.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.472
Why didnt you just let the venom spread? By now I would be just like you.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.473
Ill be the first to admit that I have no experience with relationships. But it just seems logical
a man and woman have to be somewhat equal
as in, one of them cant always be swooping in and saving the other one. They have to save each other equally.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.473
I cant always be Lois Lane. I want to be Superman, too.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.474
You are my life. Youre the only thing it would hurt me to lose.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.474
Renée has always made the choices that work for her shed want me to do the same. And Charlies resilient, hes used to being on his own. I cant take care of them forever. I have my own life to live.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.475
If youre waiting for me to be on my deathbed, Ive got news for you! I was just there!
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.475
I may not die now
but Im going to die sometime. Every minute of the day, I get closer. And Im going to get old.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.476
Youre not the only vampire I know.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.476
Alice already saw it, didnt she? Thats why the things she says upset you. She knows Im going to be like you
someday.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.477
Youll never catch me betting against Alice.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.477
Im not afraid of the needles. Im afraid to close my eyes.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.478
Youre talking about forever, you know.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.478
Im betting on Alice.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Chapter 24, p.480
At what point exactly are you going to tell me whats going on?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Epilogue, p.481
Im not coming over anymore if Alice is going to treat me like Guinea Pig Barbie when I do.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Epilogue, p.482
Nothing good could come of our formal attire, of that I was sure.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Epilogue, p.482
His eyes were melting all my fury. It was impossible to fight with him when he cheated like that.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Epilogue, p.485
Emmett enjoyed having me around he thought my bizarre human reactions were hilarious
or maybe it was just the fact that I fell down a lot that he found so funny.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Epilogue, p.485
At school, where Charlie couldnt interfere, Edward and I were inseparable except for those rare sunny days.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Epilogue, p.486
This looks like a horror movie waiting to happen.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Epilogue, p.487
Do you want me to bolt the doors so you can massacre the unsuspecting townsfolk?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Epilogue, p.487
Oh, Im with the vampires, of course.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Epilogue, p.487
Edward. I honestly cant dance!
Bella Swan, Twilight, Epilogue, p.488
In what strange parallel dimension would I ever have gone to prom of my own free will? If you werent a thousand times stronger than me, I would never have let you get away with this.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Epilogue, p.495
Its not the end, its the beginning.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Epilogue, p.497
Do you remember when you told me that I didnt see myself very clearly? You obviously have the same blindness.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Epilogue, p.497
A girl can dream.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Epilogue, p.498
Mostly I dream about being with you forever.
Bella Swan, Twilight, Epilogue, p.498
I love you more than everything else in the world combined. Isnt that enough?
Bella Swan, Twilight, Epilogue, p.498
I felt like I was trapped in one of those terrifying nightmares, the one where you have to run, run till your lungs burst, but you cant make your body move fast enough.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Preface, p.1
My own life meant little to me today.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Preface, p.1
As the clock began to toll out the hour, vibrating under the soles of my sluggish feet, I knew I was too lateand I was glad something bloodthirsty waited in the wings. For in failing at this, I forfeited any desire to live.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Preface, p.2
I was ninety-nine point nine percent sure I was dreaming.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.3
I didnt have to look to know who it was; this was a voice I would know anywhereknow, and respond to, whether I was awake or asleep
or even dead, Id bet. The voice Id walk through fire foror, less dramatically, slosh every day through the cold and endless rain for. Edward.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.4
Well, Gran, you might have noticed that my boyfriend glitters. Its just something he does in the sun. Dont worry about it
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.4
In that second, I wished that I was not the one exception to his mysterious talent; I usually felt grateful that I was the only person whose thoughts he couldnt hear just as clearly as if they were spoken aloud. But now I wished he could hear me, too, so that he could hear the warning I was screaming in my head.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.5
Edward stood beside me, casting no reflection, excruciatingly lovely and forever seventeen.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.6
I couldnt feel anything but despair until I pulled into the familiar parking lot behind Forks High School and spotted Edward leaning motionlessly against his polished silver Volvo, like a marble tribute to some forgotten pagan god of beauty.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.7
Despair momentarily vanished; wonder took its place. Even after half a year with him, I still couldnt believe that I deserved this degree of good fortune.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.7
How many times have you been a senior?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.9
But Edward was dead set against any future that changed me. Any future that made me like himthat made me immortal, too. An impasse, he called it.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.10
What was so great about mortality? Being a vampire didnt look like such a terrible thingnot the way the Cullens did it, anyway.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.10
Edward and I had been together too long now to be an object of gossip anymore.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.12
It was easy to see where his inspiration came frombut Edwards look wasnt something that could be achieved through imitation.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.12
Attention is never a good thing, as any other accident-prone klutz would agree. No one wants a spotlight when theyre likely to fall on their face.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.12
College was Plan B. I was still hoping for Plan A, but Edward was just so stubborn about leaving me human
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.13
Money meant next to nothing to Edward or the rest of the Cullens. It was just something that accumulated when you had unlimited time on your hands and a sister who had an uncanny ability to predict trends in the stock market.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.13
Edward thought I was being unnecessarily difficult.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.13
He, for some unfathomable reason, wanted to be with me. Anything he gave me on top of that just threw us more out of balance.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.13
Sometimes it bothered Edward how very comfortable I was with being close to him. He thought he was hazardous to my healthan opinion I rejected vehemently whenever he voiced it.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.14
You want a nice stereo? Drive your own car.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.15
I was hardly ever bad-tempered with Edward, and my tone made him press his lips together to keep from smiling.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.15
As he intended, no doubt, I forgot all about my worries, and concentrated on remembering how to inhale and exhale.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.16
Edward had drawn many careful lines for our physical relationship, with the intent being to keep me alive. Though I respected the need for maintaining a safe distance between my skin and his razor-sharp, venom-coated teeth, I tended to forget about trivial things like that when he was kissing me.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.16
Do you think Ill ever get better at this? That my heart might someday stop trying to jump out of my chest whenever you touch me?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.16
The movie eventually captured my interest, thanks in large part to Edward whispering Romeos lines in my earhis irresistible, velvet voice made the actors voice sound weak and coarse by comparison.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.17
What is a Volturi?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.19
No matter what might ever happen to me, you are not allowed to hurt yourself!
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.20
Put me in danger! I thought wed established that all the bad luck is my fault?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.20
What if something did happen to you? Would you want me to go off myself?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.20
Im not really that interesting.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.21
Emmett, Edwards playful bear of a brother, I did miss. He was in many ways just like the big brother Id always wanted
only much, much more terrifying.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.24
If I develop this film, will you show up in the picture?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.25
Alice was always one step ahead of me.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.27
Dazed and disoriented, I looked up from the bright red blood pulsing out of my arm into the fevered eyes of the six suddenly ravenous vampires.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 1, p.29
Edward stood over me, still protective, still not breathing.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.32
You dont need to be a hero. Carlisle can fix me up without your help. Get some fresh air.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.32
Why are you so masochistic?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.32
Well, thats everyone. I can clear a room, at least.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.33
You try very hard to make up for something that was never your fault. What I mean is, its not like you asked for this. You didnt choose this kind of life, and yet you have to work so hard to be good.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.35
I couldnt imagine anyone, deity included, who wouldnt be impressed by Carlisle. Besides, the only kind of heaven I could appreciate would have to include Edward.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.37
If hed asked me whether I would risk my soul for Edward, the reply would be obvious. But would I risk Edwards soul? I pursed my lips unhappily. That wasnt a fair exchange.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.38
His face was smooth, unreadable, but there was something wrong with his eyes something he was trying very hard to hide. I felt a spasm of unease in my stomach.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.41
Carlisle sews faster than any other doctor Ive had.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.42
Charlie was never surprised to see me bandaged.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.43
Tell me you forgive me.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.44
How the hell did Mike Newton end up in this conversation?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.45
Id rather die than be with anyone but you.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.45
He smiled my favorite crooked smile, and then he disappeared into the darkness.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.46
His voice was sad. He was wallowing.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.47
Its beautiful, Edward. You couldnt have given me anything I would love more. I cant believe it.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.49
Charlie wasnt exactly aware that Edward frequently stayed over. In fact, he would have a stroke if that fact were brought to his attention. But I didnt feel too guilty for deceiving him It wasnt as if we were up to anything he wouldnt want me to be up to. Edward and his rules
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.49
Which is tempting you more, my blood or my body?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.52
I was halfway asleep, maybe more, when I realized what his kiss had reminded me of: last spring, when hed had to leave me to throw James off my trail, Edward had kissed me goodbye, not knowing whenor ifwe would see each other again. This kiss had the same almost painful edge for some reason I couldnt imagine.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 2, p.52
I was afraid of the time Id spent unconscious, afraid that he might have been thinking about right and wrong again while he watched me sleep.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.53
There was something buried in his eyes that I couldnt be sure ofand it scared me.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.53
The guilt made my head bow and my shoulders slump. Id run them out of their home, just like Rosalie and Emmett. I was a plague.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.55
By the end of the day, the silence was becoming ridiculous. I didnt want to be the one to break it, but apparently that was my only choice if I ever wanted him to talk to me again.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.55
I always want you.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.56
James had left me broken and nearly dead from loss of bloodand yet Edward had handled the interminable weeks in the hospital much better than this. Was it because, this time, it wasnt an enemy hed had to protect me from? Because it was his brother?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.57
Surely Edward could wait a year. What was a year to an immortal? It didnt even seem like that much to me.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.57
Whats the worst that can happen? I flinched. That was definitely the wrong question to ask. I was having a hard time breathing right. Okay, I thought again, whats the worst I can live through? I didnt like that question so much, either.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.59
So much had changed, and so abruptly. It made me feel a little bit dizzy, like I was standing on an edge, a precipice somewhere much too high.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.60
Change was coming. I could feel it. It wasnt a pleasant prospect, not when life was perfect the way it was.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.60
Maybe I just wasnt in the mood for normal human behavior today.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.64
Edward looked just as beautiful as he did in real life, staring at me out of the picture with the warm eyes Id missed for the past few days. It was almost uncanny that anyone could look so
so
beyond description. No thousand words could equal this picture.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.65
The contrast between the two of us was painful. He looked like a god. I looked very average, even for a human, almost shamefully plain.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.65
Edward still hadnt come over. I didnt want to admit that he was the reason Id stayed up so late, but of course he was. I tried to remember the last time hed stayed away like this, without an excuse, a phone call
He never had.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.66
He smiled my favorite crooked smile, but it was wrong. It didnt reach his eyes.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.67
I shook my head and took a deep breath, trying to locate some courage.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.67
Where you are is the right place for me.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.69
Youre the very best part of my life.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.69
I dont care! You can have my soul. I dont want it without youits yours already!
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.69
You
dont
want me?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.69
With shaky legs, ignoring the fact that my action was useless, I followed him into the forest. The evidence of his path had disappeared instantly. There were no footprints, the leaves were still again, but I walked forward without thinking. I could not do anything else. I had to keep moving. If I stopped looking for him, it was over. Love, life, meaning
over.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.73
The waves of pain that had only lapped at me before now reared high up and washed over my head, pulling me under. I did not resurface.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 3, p.84
Time passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does. Even for me.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.93
I didnt know much about psychoanalysis, but I was pretty sure that it didnt work unless the subject was relatively honest. Sure, I could tell the truthif I wanted to spend the rest of my life in a padded cell.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.96
In my haste to get away from Charlie, I ended up being one of the first ones to school. The plus side was that I got a really good parking spot. The downside was that I had free time on my hands, and I tried to avoid free time at all costs.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.98
The scene kept cutting between the horrified face of the heroine, and the dead, emotionless face of her pursuer, back and forth as it closed the distance. And I realized which one resembled me the most.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.106
I sat down on the bench outside the theater door and tried very hard not to think of the irony. But it was ironic, all things considered, that, in the end, I would wind up as a zombie. I hadnt seen that one coming.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.106
It was depressing to realize that I wasnt the heroine anymore, that my story was over.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.106
It was inevitable that I would have nightmares, but they wouldnt be about zombies.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.107
What was I doing? I should be running from this memory as fast as I could, blocking the image of the four lounging men from my mind, protecting myself with the numbness I couldnt function without. Why was I stepping, dazed, into the street?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.109
I saw no reason for fear. I couldnt imagine anything in the world that there was left to be afraid of, not physically at least. One of the few advantages of losing everything.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.110
I wasnt suicidal. Even in the beginning, when death unquestionably would have been a relief, I didnt consider it. I owed too much to Charlie. I felt too responsible for Renee. I had to think of them. And Id made a promise not to do anything stupid or reckless. For all those reasons, I was still breathing.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.110
In the instant that I heard his voice, everything was very clear. Like my head had suddenly surfaced out of some dark pool. I was more aware of everythingsight, sound, the feel of the cold air that I hadnt noticed was blowing sharply against my face, the smells coming from the open bar door.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.111
Option one: I was crazy. That was the laymans term for people who heard voices in their heads. Possible.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.112
I was not allowed to think of him. That was something I tried to be very strict about. Of course I slipped; I was only human. But I was getting better, and so the pain was something I could avoid for days at a time now. The tradeoff was the never-ending numbness. Between pain and nothing, Id chosen nothing.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.113
The anger was what I wanted to hearfalse, fabricated evidence that he cared, a dubious gift from my subconscious.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.113
Instead of shying away from the memories, Id walked forward and greeted them. Id heard his voice, so clearly, in my head. That was going to cost me, I was sure of it. Especially if I couldnt reclaim the haze to protect myself. I felt too alert, and that frightened me.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.116
As much as I struggled not to think of him, I did not struggle to forget. I worriedlate in the night, when the exhaustion of sleep deprivation broke down my defensesthat it was all slipping away. That my mind was a sieve, and I would someday not be able to remember the precise color of his eyes, the feel of his cool skin, or the texture of his voice. I could not think of them, but I must remember them. Because there was just one thing that I had to believe to be able to liveI had to know that he existed. That was all. Everything else I could endure. So long as he existed.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.116
Forbidden to remember, terrified to forget; it was a hard line to walk.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.117
It didnt feel like the pain had weakened over time, rather that Id grown strong enough to bear it.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.118
For the first time in a long time, I didnt know what to expect in the morning.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 4, p.119
I wished I could feel numb again, but I couldnt remember how Id managed it before.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.123
I wondered how long this could last. Maybe someday, years from nowif the pain would just decrease to the point where I could bear itI would be able to look back on those few short months that would always be the best of my life. And, if it were possible that the pain would ever soften enough to allow me to do that, I was sure that I would feel grateful for as much time as hed given me. More than Id asked for, more than Id deserved. Maybe someday Id be able to see it that way.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.124
As if hed never existed? That was insanity. It was a promise that he could never keep, a promise that was broken as soon as hed made it.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.125
Where was the logic in sticking to an agreement that had already been violated by the other party?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.125
Reckless in Forksnow there was a hopeless proposition.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.125
To be reckless in Forks would take a lot of creativitymaybe more than I had. But I wished I could find some way
I might feel better if I werent holding fast, all alone, to a broken pact.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.125
Sometimes, kismet happens.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.126
Who would want to ride a motorcycle here? It would be like taking a sixty-mile-per-hour bath.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.127
I wanted to be stupid and reckless, and I wanted to break promises. Why stop at one?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.127
I liked my truck very much, but Jacob seemed to consider the speed restrictions a shortcoming.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.130
Id forgotten how much I really liked Jacob Black.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.131
You grew again!
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.131
Its not like youll never see me again. I promise Ill be back again soonso much youll get sick of me.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.132
Wait a secare you legal yet?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.134
I needed to reign in the enthusiasm before I gave him the wrong ideait was just that it had been a long time since Id felt so light and buoyant. The rarity of the feeling made it more difficult to manage.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.135
Only a teenage boy would agree to this: deceiving both our parents while repairing dangerous vehicles using money meant for my college education.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 5, p.136
Many of the words they used were unfamiliar to me, and I figured Id have to have a Y chromosome to really understand the excitement.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.139
I was enjoying myselfhow strange.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.140
Im bankrolling this party. You just have to supply the labor and expertise.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.140
I was laughing, actually laughing, and there wasnt even anyone watching. I felt so weightless that I laughed again, just make the feeling last longer.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.141
I had to reach so high to slap his hand that he laughed.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.144
So where to, Mr. Goodwrench?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.144
Jacob was simply a perpetually happy person, and he carried that happiness with him like an aura, sharing it with whoever was near him. Like an earthbound sun, whenever someone was within his gravitational pull, Jacob warmed them. It was natural, a part of who he was. No wonder I was so eager to see him.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.145
Its not my fault youre a freak.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.147
By the time we got back to La Push, I was twenty-three and he was thirtyhe was definitely weighting skills in his favor.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.147
I still wanted to cheat. It was senseless, and I really didnt care. I was going to be as reckless as I could possibly manage in Forks. I would not be the only keeper of an empty contract. Getting to spend time with Jacob was just a much bigger perk than Id expected.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.147
While he worked, he seemed almost graceful. Unlike when he was on his feet; there, his height and big feet made him nearly as dangerous as I was.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.148
The laughter did not go deep; it was light and superficial, but still nice. I was sure he wouldnt notice the faint hint of hysteria. I wasnt used to laughing, and it felt right and also very wrong at the same time.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.148
The warmth of Jacobs presence was fading and, in its absence, the anxiety grew stronger.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.150
I remembered the first day Id come to Forks High Schoolhow desperately Id wished that I could turn gray, fade into the wet concrete of the sidewalk like an oversized chameleon. It seemed I was getting that wish answered, a year late.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.152
The figure of speech cold shoulder seemed to have some literal truth to it.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.153
I was beginning to get annoyed with myself. I might as well have been packed in Styrofoam peanuts through the last semester.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.153
Had all the people she was habitually nasty to caught her behind the gym and scalped her?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.154
She looked at me with concern, but not the offensive, maybe-shes-lost-it kind.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 6, p.157
I wasnt sure what the hell I was doing here. Was I trying to push myself back into the zombie stupor? Had I turned masochisticdeveloped a taste for torture?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.159
Unattainable and impossible, uncaring and distracted
but he was out there, somewhere. I had to believe that.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.160
The truth was that I wanted to hear his voice again, like I had in the strange delusion Friday night. For that brief moment, when his voice came from some other part of me than my conscious memory, when his voice was perfect and honey smooth rather than the pale echo my memories usually produced, I was able to remember without pain.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.160
Jacob was waiting for me. My chest seemed to relax as soon as I saw him, making it easier to breathe.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.162
I guess I am taking advantage of your very underpriced mechanical skills. But as long as you let me come over, Ill be here.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.163
I made a gesture indicating the two of us as a single entity. He liked thathe beamed.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.164
Honesty was probably the best policy at this point.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.166
Id come full circle, and now everything felt like an echoan empty echo, devoid of the interest it used to have.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.167
Jacob, you are absolutely, without a doubt, the most talented and wonderful person I know. You get ten years for this one.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.168
Jake, you have to take me cliff diving.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.172
I threw my arms around him instinctively, wrapping them around his waist and pressing my face against his chest. He was so big, I felt like I was a child hugging a grown-up.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.178
This didnt feel anything like the last time someone had embraced me this way. This was friendship. And Jacob was very warm.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.178
It was strange for me, being this closeemotionally rather than physically, though the physical was strange for me, tooto another human being. It wasnt my usual style. I didnt normally relate to people so easily, on such a basic level. Not human beings.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.179
Its hard to believe Im two years older than you. You make me feel like a dwarf.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.179
Lets not start with the albino cracks.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 7, p.179
That doesnt sound right. Arent both brakes kind of important?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 8, p.182
I tried to tell myself that the fear was pointless. Id already lived through the worst thing possible. In comparison with that, why should anything frighten me now? I should be able to look death in the face and laugh.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 8, p.182
If I move my foot, I will fall over.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 8, p.183
Hesitantly, I twisted the right handle. Though the movement was tiny, the bike snarled beneath me. It sounded angry and hungry now.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 8, p.183
The voice in my head growled against the roar of the motorcycle.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 8, p.186
This had to be it, the recipe for a hallucinationadrenaline plus clanger plus stupidity. Something close to that, anyway.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 8, p.187
He looked athletic and professional as he leaned over the handlebars, head low, face forward, his shiny hair whipping against the russet skin of his back. My eyes narrowed enviously. I was sure I hadnt looked like that on my motorcycle.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 8, p.189
Im an easy bleeder. Its not nearly as dire as it looks.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 8, p.190
Racing down the road like that had been amazing. The feel of the wind in my face, the speed and the freedom
it reminded me of a past life, flying through the thick forest without a road, piggyback while he ranI stopped thinking right there, letting the memory break off in the sudden agony.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 8, p.190
Did you know, youre sort of beautiful?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 8, p.192
Charlie seemed to buy my story about falling in Jacobs garage. After all, it wasnt like I hadnt been able to land myself in the ER before with no more help than my own feet.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 8, p.192
The hole came back, the way it always did when I was away from Jacob, but it didnt throb so badly around the edges.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 8, p.193
As always, Jacob was game for anything I wanted. No matter how strange it was.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 8, p.196
Normal memories were still dangerous. If I let myself slip up, Id end up with my arms clutching my chest to hold it together, gasping for air, and how would I explain that to Jacob?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 8, p.198
I was like a lost moonmy planet destroyed in some cataclysmic, disaster-movie scenario of desolationthat continued, nevertheless, to circle in a tight little orbit around the empty space left behind, ignoring the laws of gravity.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.201
I couldnt stand hurting Jacob; we seemed to be connected in an odd way, and his pain set off little stabs of my own.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.203
This movie was supposed to be a bloodbath from start to finish. I wasnt so recovered that I could stand to sit through a romance.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.204
Im in the mood for action. Bring on the blood and guts!
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.205
Im giving upI cant top this one. So you win. Youre oldest.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.206
Some people are hard to discourage.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.206
How was I ever going to fight the blurring lines in our relationship when I enjoyed being with him so much?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.210
I folded my arms tightly across my chest and hoped that both their hands fell asleep.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.210
There was nothing left in my life at this point that was more important than Jacob Black. But he seemed determined to ruin everything.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.212
Funny how he seemed to know not to say the namejust like before in the car with the music. He picked up on so much about me that I never said.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.213
Do you honestly expect me to remember where all my scars come from?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.214
I waited for the memory to hitto open the gaping hole. But, as it so often did, Jacobs presence kept me whole.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.214
It was so wrong to encourage Jacob. Pure selfishness. It didnt matter that Id tried to make my position clear. If he felt any hope at all that this could turn into something other than friendship, then I hadnt been clear enough.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.216
He deserved better than thatbetter than a one-room, falling-down fixer-upper. No amount of investment on his part could put me back in working order.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.216
I needed him too much, and I was selfish.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.217
How much I wished that Jacob Black had been born my brother, my flesh-and -blood brother, so that I would have some legitimate claim on him that still left me free of any blame now.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.218
One thing I truly knewknew it in the pit of my stomach, in the center of my bones, knew it from the crown of my head to the soles of my feet, knew it deep in my empty chestwas how love gave someone the power to break you.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.219
He thought time and patience would change me, and, though I knew he was dead wrong, I also knew that I would let him try.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.219
He was my best friend. I would always love him, and it would never, ever be enough.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.219
I was being silly, probably. I was just worried, and, to be honest, I was afraid of not being allowed to see Jacobthat made me nervous.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 10, p.227
Id give Billy a week, I decided, before I got pushy. A week was generous.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 10, p.227
I wasnt handling alone well.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 10, p.228
I wasnt really listening to his warnings; I was much more upset by the situation with Jacob than by the possibility of being eaten by a bear.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 10, p.231
There was nothing special about this place without him. I wasnt exactly sure what Id hoped to feel here, but the meadow was empty of atmosphere, empty of everything, just like everywhere else. Just like my nightmares.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 10, p.234
There was too much pain in this empty place to bearI would crawl away if I had to.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 10, p.235
Here was the connection Id sought. The proof, however remote, thatsomewhere in the same world where I livedhe did exist.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 10, p.236
It was ridiculous that I should be so elated because a vampire knew my name.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 10, p.236
Was I nor in the worst danger imaginable? The motorcycle was safe as kittens next to this.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 10, p.238
I was beginning to babble. I had to work to shut myself up.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 10, p.238
His name burst through all the walls Id built to contain it. Edward, Edward, Edward. I was going to die. It shouldnt matter if I thought of him now. Edward, I love you.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 10, p.242
Granted, the wolf was monstrous in size, but it was just an animal. What reason would a vampire have for fearing an animal?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 10, p.243
I guessed that, between the two choices before me, being eaten by wolves was almost certainly the worse option.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 10, p.244
At least Id come here alone, to this fairytale meadow filled with dark monsters. At least Jacob wasnt going to die, too. At least I wouldnt have his death on my hands.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 10, p.244
There was nothing I could do. There were no precautions I could take. There was no place I could hide. There was no one who could help me.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 10, p.250
My good vampires were never coming back; how soothing it was to imagine that the other kind could also disappear.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 10, p.250
As much as it hurt me, I knew it was better for Jacob that he was avoiding me. Safer for him.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 11, p.253
The boy was going to have to come home sometime, and when he did, he was going to have to talk to me.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 11, p.258
What was with the Quileute boys? Were they feeding them experimental growth hormones?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 11, p.259
There was a darkness in Jacob now. Like my sun had imploded.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 11, p.262
More than anything, I wanted to be fierce and deadly, someone no one would dare mess with. Someone who would scare Sam Uley silly. I wanted to be a vampire.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 11, p.263
Are you
breaking up with me?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 11, p.270
Not as bad! Not as bad! my mind tried to comfort me. It was true. This wasnt as bad. This wasnt the end of the world, not again. This was just the end of what little peace there was left behind. That was all. Not as bad, I agreed, then added, but bad enough.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 11, p.273
Id thought Jake had been healing the hole in meor at least plugging it up, keeping it from hurting me so much. Id been wrong. Hed just been carving out his own hole, so that I was now riddled through like Swiss cheese. I wondered why I didnt crumble into pieces.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 11, p.273
Sam Uley says Jacob cant be my friend anymore.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 11, p.274
Life seemed dark enough at the moment chat I let myself cheat. The holeholes nowwere already aching, so why not? I pulled out the memorynor a real memory that would hurt too much, but the false memory of Edwards voice in my mind this afternoonand played it over and over in my head until I fell asleep with the tears still streaming calmly down my empty face.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 11, p.276
When did you ever promise to kill yourself falling out of Charlies tree?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 12, p.279
A wide grin spread slowly across Jacobs face; he seemed extremely pleased with himself. It wasnt the grin that I knew and lovedit was a new grin, one that was a bitter mockery of his old sincerity, on the new face that belonged to Sam.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 12, p.280
For me, this was all essentially voluntary. I protected the Cullens secret out of love; unrequited, but true. For Jacob, it didnt seem to be that way.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 12, p.287
What kind of a place was this? Could a world really exist where ancient legends went wandering around the borders of tiny, insignificant towns, facing down mythical monsters? Did this mean every impossible fairy tale was grounded somewhere in absolute truth? Was there anything sane or normal at all, or was everything just magic and ghost stories?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 12, p.293
Wasnt one myth enough for anyone, enough for a lifetime?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 12, p.294
Jacob, the only human Id ever been able to relate to
And he wasnt even human. I fought the urge to scream again.What did this say about me?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 12, p.294
There was no cult. There had never been a cult, never been a gang. No, it was much worse than that. It was a pack. A pack of five mind-blowingly gigantic, multihued werewolves that had stalked right past me in Edwards meadow
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 12, p.295
Jacob was my best friend, but was he a monster, too? A real one? A bad one? Should I warn him, if he and his friends were
were murderers? If they were out slaughtering innocent hikers in cold blood? If they were truly creatures from a horror movie in every sense, would it be wrong to protect them?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 12, p.298
I couldnt be friends with a killer and say nothing, let the killing continue
That would make me a monster, too.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 13, p.300
It was bad enough that my best friend was a werewolf. Did he have to be a monster, too?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 13, p.301
Once you cared about a person, it was impossible to be logical about them anymore.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 13, p.304
Could you
well, try to not be a
werewolf?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 13, p.306
She didnt knowstill doesnt know, I guessthat
that
That things arent like that with us anymore. Not for Edward, anyway.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 13, p.315
Im nothing but a human, after all. Nothing special.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 13, p.315
It was just luck that she hadnt found me yetjust luck and five teenage werewolves.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 13, p.316
Im sort of used to weird by this point, you know.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 13, p.317
How do you know me so well, Jacob? Sometimes its like you can read my mind.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 13, p.321
I cowered into Jacobs side, my eyes scanning the forest for the other werewolves. When they appeared, striding out from between the trees, they werent what I was expecting. Id gotten the image of the wolves stuck in my head. These were just four really big half-naked boys.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 14, p.323
No matter how comfortable they seemed to be with their fate, here in this happy kitchen, none of these werewolves wanted the same fate for their friend.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 14, p.336
All in all, it wasnt exactly what Id been expecting from a pack of werewolves.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 14, p.338
If Im silly, then youre dangerously unbalanced.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 14, p.339
The more you loved someone, the less sense anything made.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 14, p.340
When I dreamed, I stood in the forest again, but I didnt wander. I was holding Emilys scarred hand as we faced into the shadows and waited anxiously for our werewolves to come home.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 14, p.341
Last spring break, Id been hunted by a vampire, too. I hoped this wasnt some kind of tradition forming.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 15, p.342
It hurts to think about them. Its like I cant breathe
like Im breaking into pieces.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 15, p.349
I was addicted to the sound of my delusions. It made things worse if I went too long without them.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 15, p.352
Jake could say what he wanted about us being a messed-up pairI was the one who was truly messed up. I made the werewolf seem downright normal.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 15, p.352
Id lost too much alreadywould fate take the last few shreds of peace left behind?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 15, p.355
I saw him, and I had no will to fight. It was so clear, so much more defined than any memory. My subconscious had stored Edward away in flawless detail, saving him for this final moment.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 15, p.361
Was I dying again, then? I didnt like itthis wasnt as good as the last time.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 16, p.364
Romeo wouldnt change his mind. Thats why people still remembered his name, always twined with hers: Romeo and Juliet. Thats why it was a good story. Juliet gets dumped and ends up with Paris would have never been a hit.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 16, p.371
Would it be so wrong to try to make Jacob happy? Even if the love I felt for him was no more than a weak echo of what I was capable of, even if my heart was far away, wandering and grieving after my fickle Romeo, would it be so very wrong?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 16, p.375
Wouldnt Edward, indifferent as he might be, want me to be as happy as possible under the circumstances? Wouldnt enough friendly emotion linger for him to want that much for me? I thought he would. He wouldnt begrudge me this: giving just a small bit of love he didnt want to my friend Jacob. After all, it wasnt the same love at all.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 16, p.376
Id forgotten how hard she was; it was like running headlong into a wall of cement.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 17, p.382
What did you think you were going to find? I mean, besides me dead? Did you expect to find me skipping around and whistling show tunes? You know me better than that.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 17, p.389
It was like someone had diedlike I had died. Because it had been more than just losing the truest of true loves, as if that were not enough to kill anyone. It was also losing a whole future, a whole familythe whole life that Id chosen
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 17, p.398
I was probably overdoing it with the antagonism, but I didnt want him to see how much this hurt.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 18, p.406
Well, run along now. Go tell Sam that the scary monsters arent coming to get you.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 18, p.407
Youll still be my friend, even though I love Alice, too?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 18, p.409
Why does everyone keep doing that to me? I dont smell!
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 18, p.409
It was a nasty catch-22on the one hand, I wanted Alice to stay forever. I was going to diemetaphoricallywhen she left me. But how was I supposed to go without seeing Jake for any length of time?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 18, p.410
I do not like the way things are.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 18, p.410
The prince was never coming back to kiss me awake from my enchanted sleep. I was not a princess, after all. So what was the fairy-tale protocol for other kisses? The mundane kind that didnt break any spells?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 18, p.411
The sense of deja vu was nearly stifling by this point. At least, unlike the last timewhen Id run away from Forks to escape thirsty vampires rather than to find themI wouldnt have to say goodbye to Charlie in person.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 18, p.421
I realized why her eyes begged for my understanding. She was protecting Jasper, at our expense, and maybe at Edwards, too. I understood, and I did not think badly of her.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 19, p.426
It was amazingly easy to say his name now. I wasnt sure what the difference was. Maybe because I wasnt really planning on living much longer without seeing him. Or at all, if we were too late. It was comforting to know that I would have an easy out.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 19, p.431
Maybe, if I were very, very, very lucky, I would somehow be able to save Edward. But I wasnt so stupid as to think that saving him would mean that I could stay with him. I was no different, no more special than Id been before. There would be no new reason for him to want me now. Seeing him and losing him again
I fought back against the pain. This was the price I had to pay to save his life. I would pay it.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 19, p.432
The image of Edward in the meadowglowing, shimmering like his skin was made of a million diamond facetswas burned into my memory. No human who saw that would ever forget.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 19, p.438
Sheesh, Alice. Could you pick a more conspicuous car to steal?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 19, p.439
I wasnt going to make it. I was stupid and slow and human, and we were all going to die because of it.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 20, p.448
Id never seen anything more beautifuleven as I ran, gasping and screaming, I could appreciate that. And the last seven months meant nothing. And his words in the forest meant nothing. And it did not matter if he did not want me. I would never want anything but him, no matter how long I lived.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 20, p.451
It was very strange, for I knew we were both in mortal danger. Still, in that instant, I felt well. Whole.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 20, p.452
At least I could be with him again before I died. That was better than a long life.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 20, p.459
Was it really such a loathsome idea? Would he rather die than change me? I felt like Id been kicked in the stomach.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 21, p.479
And would it really matter that Alice was willing, would it make any difference if I did become a vampire, when the idea was so repulsive to Edward? If death was, to him, a better alternative than having me around forever, an immortal annoyance? Terrified as I was, I felt myself sinking down into depression, drowning in it
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 21, p.480
To have my eyes so filled with tears that I could not see his features clearly was wastefulinsanity.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 22, p.486
As I stared at his too beautiful face, trying to understand the change, it suddenly struck me that I was really here, in Edwards arms, however fleetingly, and that we were notat this exact momentabout to be killed.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 22, p.488
Is it really sick for me to be happy right now?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 22, p.488
Lucky Alice. She could trust her future.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 22, p.489
Id rather he killed me now than move one inch from where I was.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 22, p.489
Here in his arms, it was so easy to fantasize that he wanted me. I didnt want to think about his motivations nowabout whether he acted this way to keep me calm while we were still in danger, or if he just felt guilty for where we were and relieved that he wasnt responsible for my death. Maybe the time apart had been enough that I didnt bore him for the moment. But it didnt matter. I was so much happier pretending.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 22, p.490
It was heavenright smack in the middle of hell.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 22, p.491
Id forgotten that I had access to a toothbrush. It brightened my outlook considerably.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 22, p.492
I dont want to sleep. If I close my eyes now, Ill see things I dont want to see. Ill have nightmares.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 22, p.494
He continued to kiss my hair, my forehead, my wrists
but never my lips, and that was good. After all, how many ways can one heart be mangled and still be expected to keep beating? Id lived through a lot that should have finished me in the last few days, but it didnt make me feel strong. Instead, I felt horribly fragile, like one word could shatter me.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 22, p.495
It took less than half a second for me to realize that, as long as I was truly insane now, I might as well enjoy the delusions while they were pleasant.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.501
His irises were pitch-black, with bruise-like shadows under them. This surprised me; my hallucinatory Edwards were usually better fed.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.502
Im dead, right? I did drown. Crap, crap, crap! This is gonna kill Charlie.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.502
If I was in hell, you wouldnt be with me.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.503
It never made sense for you to love me. I always knew that.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.511
What kind of an idiotic question is that?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.511
Of course I love youand theres nothing you can do about it!
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.512
His mouth was on mine then, and I couldnt fight him. Not because he was so many thousand times stronger than me, but because my will crumbled into dust the second our lips met.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.512
If I let myself hope, and it came to nothing
that would kill me. Where all those merciless vampires had not been able to finish me off, hope would do the job.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.513
My problems are a lot worse that a handful of adolescent wolves getting themselves into trouble.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.517
This isnt just about you anymore. Youre not the center of the universe, you know. If youre going to bring the Volturi down on us over something as stupid as leaving me human, then your family ought to have a say.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.521
I dont trust myself to be
enough. To deserve you. Theres nothing about me that could hold you.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.523
Hold on a second. I think Im having an epiphany here.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.526
What if you sincerely believed something was true, but you were dead wrong? What if you were so stubbornly sure that you were right, that you wouldnt even consider the truth? Would the truth be silenced, or would it try to break through?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.527
Option three: Edward loved me. The bond forged between us was not one that could be broken by absence, distance, or time. And no matter how much more special or beautiful or brilliant or perfect than me he might be, he was as irreversibly altered as I was. As I would always belong to him, so would he always be mine.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.527
Thank you. For wanting to keep me. I feel exactly the same way about all of you, too.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 24, p.535
With Edward back in place, it was almost as if the last eight months were just a disturbing nightmare.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Epilogue, p.549
The fairy tale was back on. Prince returned, bad spell broken. I wasnt sure exactly what to do about the leftover, unresolved character. Where was his happily ever after?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Epilogue, p.550
Abruptly, I remembered what had happened to Paris when Romeo came back. The stage directions were simple: They fight. Paris falls.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Epilogue, p.552
The sting of betrayal washed through me. I had trusted Jacob implicitlytrusted him with every single secret I had. He was supposed to be my safe harborthe person I could always rely on.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Epilogue, p.553
Let me go! Im going to murder him! Traitor!
Bella Swan, New Moon, Epilogue, p.554
Im already grounded! Why do you think I havent been down to La Push to kick your butt for avoiding my phone calls?
Bella Swan, New Moon, Epilogue, p.556
The only thing that Jacob would want from Edward would be his absence.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Epilogue, p.558
Charlie might just send me to military school. But that wont keep me away from Edward. Theres nothing that can do that.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Epilogue, p.558
Like we were connected, the echo of his pain twisted inside me. His pain, my pain.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Epilogue, p.561
I knew that last glimpse of his face would haunt me until I saw him smile again.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Epilogue, p.562
Edward was here, with his arms around me. I could face anything as long as that was true. I squared my shoulders and walked forward to meet my fate, with my destiny solidly at my side.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Epilogue, p.563
Black eyes, wild with their fierce craving for my death, watched for the moment when my protectors attention would be diverted. The moment when I would surely die.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Preface, p.1
I could imagine the frustration pulling his black eyebrows together and crumpling his forehead. If Id been there, I might have laughed. Dont give yourself a brain hemorrhage, Jacob, I would have told him. Just spit it out.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.4
The word boyfriend had me chewing on the inside of my cheek with a familiar tension while I stirred. It wasnt the right word, not at all. I needed something more expressive of eternal commitment
But words like destiny and fate sounded hokey when you used them in casual conversation.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.6
My dad was not a man of many words, and the effort he had put into trying to orchestrate a sit-down dinner with me made it clear there were an uncharacteristic number of words on his mind.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.7
It worked your cooking skills have me soft as a marshmallow.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.9
It was against the rules for normal people human people like me and Charlie to know about the clandestine world full of myths and monsters that existed secretly around us. I knew all about that world and I was in no small amount of trouble as a result.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.13
With Jacob there is a
conflict. A conflict about the friendship thing, I mean. Friendship doesnt always seem to be enough for Jake.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.14
You and Billy gossip like old women.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.14
Im shocked, Sheriff. Thats a federal crime.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.15
I wrenched the door out of my way ridiculously eager and there he was, my personal miracle.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.17
Staring into his eyes always made me feel extraordinary sort of like my bones were turning spongy. I was also a little lightheaded, but that could have been because Id forgotten to keep breathing. Again.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.17
His touch brought with it the strangest sense of relief as if Id been in pain and that pain had suddenly ceased.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.17
The idea of being in danger from even the most deadly of humans while I was with Alice or Edward was downright hilarious.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.21
I want to be a monster, too.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.25
I think its something about the inevitability. How nothing can keep them apart not her selfishness, or his evil, or even death, in the end
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.29
Its a bit late for me to worry about who I fall in love with. But even without the warning, I seem to have managed fairly well.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.29
My bad luck had nothing to do with it. The werewolves came back because the vampires did.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.31
I knew I must be patient with Edward. It wasnt that he was unreasonable, it was just that he didnt understand. He had no idea how very much I owed Jacob Black my life many times over, and possibly my sanity, too.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.32
If Jacob hadnt helped me
Im not sure what you would have come home to. I owe him better than this, Edward.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 1, p.32
Alice was scrutinizing my boring jeans-and-a-t-shirt outfit in a way that made me self-conscious. Probably plotting another makeover. I sighed. My indifferent attitude to fashion was a constant thorn in her side. If Id allow it, shed love to dress me every day perhaps several times a day like some oversized three-dimensional paper doll.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 2, p.36
Im sure I still have boundaries like the continental U.S., for example.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 2, p.38
Youre really not that good a mechanic, Edward. Maybe you should have Rosalie take a look at it tonight, just so you look good if Mike decides to let you help, you know. Not that it wouldnt be fun to watch his face if Rosalie showed up to help.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 2, p.41
If I had my way, I would spend the majority of my time kissing Edward.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 2, p.43
I knew I had about three seconds before he would sigh and slide me deftly away, saying something about how wed risked my life enough for one afternoon.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 2, p.44
He pulled my face away from his, breaking my hold with ease he probably didnt even realize that I was using all my strength.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 2, p.44
Id say Im sorry, but Im not.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 2, p.44
You know how I am with tools. No pain was inflicted intentionally.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 2, p.47
Ill do my time without complaining when Ive done something wrong, Dad, but Im not going to put up with your prejudices.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 2, p.54
Youre a rotten liar, Dad.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 2, p.54
Its not like Im headed off to Vegas to be a showgirl or anything. Im going to see Mom.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 2, p.54
Interceded? You threw me to the sharks!
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 2, p.56
Edward and Alice playing chess was one of the funniest things Id ever seen. Theyd sat there nearly motionless, staring at the board, while Alice foresaw the moves he would make and he picked the moves she would make in return out of her head. They played most of the game in their minds; I think theyd each moved two pawns when Alice suddenly flicked her king over and surrendered. It took all of three minutes.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 2, p.58
Please tell me you are not trying to have a sex talk with me, Charlie.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 2, p.58
This was beyond the seventh circle of Hades; even worse was realizing that Edward had known this was coming. No wonder hed seemed so smug in the car.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 2, p.59
I really wish you were not forcing me to say this out loud, Dad. Really. But
I am a
virgin, and I have no immediate plans to change that status.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 2, p.59
I wasnt in the mood to be alone, but I certainly wasnt going to go back downstairs to hang out with my Dad, just in case he thought of some topic of sex education that he hadnt touched on before; I shuddered.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 2, p.61
Renée is so much more
perceptive than Charlie in some ways. It was making me jumpy.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 3, p.66
I knew Jake inside and out. It shouldnt be that complicated to figure out his motivations.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 3, p.73
I think
I think he was checking. Checking to make sure. That Im human, I mean.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 3, p.75
Id forgotten how much this face bothered me. Though Id gotten to know Sam pretty well before the Cullens had come back to like him, even Id never been able to completely shake the resentment I felt when Jacob mimicked Sams expression. It was a strangers face. He wasnt my Jacob when he wore it.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 3, p.76
With a sense of astonishment, I realized that Jacob looked dangerous to them. How odd.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 3, p.77
Edward cut him off mid-sentence, and his face was abruptly frightening truly frightening. For a second, he looked like
like a vampire.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 3, p.79
Graduation was only a few weeks away, but I wondered if it wasnt a little foolish to sit around, weak and tasty, waiting for the next disaster. It seemed too dangerous to be human just begging for trouble. Someone like me shouldnt be human. Someone with my luck ought to be a little less helpless.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 4, p.92
So the consensus was that I was just supposed to forget that a deranged vampire was stalking me, intent on my death.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 4, p.93
Alice was certainly just as capable of crippling my truck as Edward was.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 4, p.95
For some reason impending mania, perhaps this really irritated me.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 4, p.96
As we walked, I felt myself settling into another version of myself, the self I had been with Jacob. A little younger, a little less responsible. Someone who might, on occasion, do something really stupid for no good reason.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 4, p.101
Can you listen, or will you be interrupting me with rude comments about my friends?
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 4, p.103
Being apart
It didnt work out so well for either of us.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 4, p.108
I love him. Not because hes beautiful or because hes rich! Id much rather he werent either one. It would even out the gap between us just a little bit because hed still be the most loving and unselfish and brilliant and decent person Ive ever met. Of course I love him. How hard is that to understand?
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 4, p.110
What is a valid reason for someone to love someone else? Since apparently Im doing it wrong.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 4, p.110
You know, Jacob, youre awfully self-righteous considering that youre a werewolf and all.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 4, p.111
Normal humans cant throw motorcycles around the way you can.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 4, p.112
Jacob had become a part of me, and there was no changing that now.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 4, p.112
He really hates it when I do things he considers
risky.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 5, p.115
At least he can be a grown-up about this. He knows that hurt ing you would hurt me and so he never would. You dont seem to care about that at all!
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 5, p.115
Most people fall in and out of love many times in their lives. It was just that Id seen Sam with Emily, and I couldnt imagine him with someone else. The way he looked at her
well, it reminded me of a look Id seen sometimes in Edwards eyes when he was looking at me.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 5, p.117
Remind me not to get on your bad side.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 5, p.118
Am I the only one who has to get old? I get older every stinking day! Damn it! What kind of world is this? Wheres the justice?
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 5, p.119
Im a pro at weird.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 5, p.121
Edwards never in my head. He only wishes.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 5, p.126
I dont care whos a vampire and whos a werewolf. Thats irrelevant. You are Jacob, and he is Edward, and I am Bella. And nothing else matters.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 5, p.130
It felt so ordinary here. Angelas easy human dramas were oddly reassuring. It was nice to know that life was normal somewhere.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 6, p.133
I wanted to talk to a normal human girlfriend. I wanted to moan a little bit, like any other teenage girl. I wanted my problems to be that simple. It would also be nice to have someone outside the whole vampire-werewolf mess to put things in perspective. Someone unbiased.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 6, p.135
Er
so, Im still alive.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 6, p.140
You made the treaty you stick to it.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 6, p.141
Next to the warmth of the last of the afternoon sun streaming through the window, his skin felt especially icy. He seemed like ice, too, frozen the way he was.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 6, p.141
I believe that. But I want you to know something when it comes to all this enemies nonsense, Im out. I am a neutral country. I am Switzerland. I refuse to be affected by territorial disputes between mythical creatures. Jacob is family. You are
well, not exactly the love of my life, because I expect to love you for much longer than that. The love of my existence. I dont care whos a werewolf and whos a vampire. If Angela turns out to be a witch, she can join the party, too.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 6, p.143
Youre kidnapping me, arent you?
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 6, p.145
Alice, dont you think this is just a little bit controlling? Just a tiny bit psychotic, maybe?
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 6, p.146
Yes, because a vampire slumber party is the pinnacle of safety conscious behavior.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 6, p.146
You are in trouble. Enormous trouble. Angry grizzly bears are going to look tame next to what is waiting for you at home.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 6, p.149
Porsches as bribes and king-sized beds in houses where nobody slept it was beyond irritating.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 6, p.151
Why dont you just lock me in the basement, and forget the sugar coating?
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 7, p.169
Charlies blatant preference for my Quileute friends was so unfair. I wondered if he would feel the same if he knew the choice was really between vampires and werewolves.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 8, p.173
So whats the latest pack scandal?
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 8, p.173
We cant all be freakishly strong.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 8, p.177
If I get hurt, it was because I tripped.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 8, p.178
I traded a lifetime of servitude for a box of conversation hearts. Thats not something Im likely to forget.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 8, p.178
I held very still a reaction to stress. It was a habit Id picked up from Edward.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 8, p.180
There was no friction in the space between us. The stillness was peaceful not like the calm before the tempest, but like a clear night untouched by even the dream of a storm.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 8, p.185
I like danger.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 8, p.188
Im going to spontaneously combust one of these days and youll have no one but yourself to blame.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 8, p.188
I dont mind if you want to give me the wrong impression again.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 8, p.188
You can hold me hostage any time you want.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 8, p.189
Where did all this tolerance come from?
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 8, p.190
If youre going to have a lapse in control, I can think of a better place for it.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 8, p.192
Let me be in charge of responsibility for a few minutes
or hours.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 8, p.192
If Jacob preferred me dead, then maybe he should get used to the silence.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 9, p.197
I was frustrated. Against my better judgment, I was still human.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 9, p.207
Theyll get so bored, theyll have to kill me themselves, just for something to do.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 9, p.207
Is Jacob paying you for all the P.R., or are you a volunteer?
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 9, p.207
He sang me to sleep again and aware even in unconsciousness that he was there I slept free of nightmares.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 9, p.208
Theres
well, theres this other problem thats slightly more worrisome than a bratty teenage werewolf
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 9, p.210
It was hard to get used to how much faster Jacob was without his car. How everyone seemed to be so much faster than me
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 10, p.215
Im not worried about anyone who would be deterred by a locked door.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 10, p.215
Is it really so impossible to wear clothes, Jacob?
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 10, p.215
Do you have a medical degree that you never told me about?
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 10, p.220
I wondered if he had trouble saying the word werewolf aloud, the way I often had difficulty with vampire.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 10, p.223
Okay! Time for the werewolf to get out!
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 10, p.224
I cant afford it, and Im not letting you throw away enough money to buy yourself another sports car just so that I can pretend to go to Dartmouth next year.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 10, p.225
It was stupid to want to go hang out with a bunch of big idiot wolf-boys right now when there was so much that was frightening and unexplained going on. Of course, that was exactly why I wanted to go. I wanted to escape the death threats, for just a few hours . . . to be the less-mature, more-reckless Bella who could laugh it off with Jacob, if only briefly.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 10, p.231
I stared at the beautiful machine. Beside it, my bike looked like a broken tricycle. I felt a sudden wave of sadness when I realized that this was not a bad analogy for the way I probably looked next to Edward.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 10, p.233
You know what this reminds me of? Its just like when I was a kid and Renée would pass me off to Charlie for the summer. I feel like a seven-year-old.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 10, p.235
Hes being pretty dang pleasant about this; you dont need to push your luck.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 10, p.238
Hanging out with no one but extremely dexterous people all the time was going to give me a complex.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 11, p.240
Other than a few teasing complaints mostly by Paul about keeping the bloodsucker stench downwind, I was treated like someone who belonged.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 11, p.241
The way he stared at her! It was like a blind man seeing the sun for the first time. Like a collector finding an undiscovered Da Vinci, like a mother looking into the face of her newborn child.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 11, p.242
Whats the best part? You swallowing an entire cow whole?
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 11, p.243
All was silent for a long moment. The living descendants of magic and legend stared at one another across the fire with sadness in their eyes.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 11, p.259
Ill be there. And Ill hate every minute of it. Promise.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 12, p.268
I felt like someone had kicked my legs out from under me. The weeks of stress, of worry
somehow in the middle of all my obsessing over the time, my time had disappeared. My space for sorting through it all, for making plans, had vanished. I was out of time.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 12, p.269
I knew exactly what I wanted, but I was suddenly terrified of getting it.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 12, p.269
You really do want to keep me, no matter how I turn out?
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 12, p.273
Im not that girl, Edward. The one who gets married right out of high school like some small-town hick who got knocked up by her boyfriend!
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 12, p.275
Edward, theres no point to forever without you. I wouldnt want one day without you.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 12, p.276
As we walked in, Emmett ambled through the kitchen door, seeming perfectly at ease. Nothing ever bothered Emmett.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 12, p.283
Emmett sighed theatrically, and plopped down on the couch to wait with exaggerated impatience.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 12, p.285
I shuddered at the image in my head, at the word feed. But Jasper wasnt worried about frightening me, not overprotective like Edward always was.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 13, p.288
I frowned at the way he pronounced the name with respect, almost gratitude. The idea of the Volturi as the good guys in any sense was hard to accept.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 13, p.288
We would win, but we would lose. Some wouldnt survive.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 13, p.309
Sure, I thought to myself. Trust him. He wasnt the one who was going to have to sit behind and wonder whether or not the core of his existence was going to come home.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 14, p.312
He was so beautiful that it made it hard sometimes to think about anything else, hard to concentrate on Phils troubles or Renées apologies or hostile vampire armies. I was only human.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 14, p.315
I hate being babysat.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 14, p.316
If something helped even the odds
and then I shuddered, realizing I was willing to have a stranger die to protect him. I was horrified at myself, but not entirely able to deny it, either.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 14, p.317
I was pleased to have an option besides being babysat. There was a tiny bit more dignity in spending the day with Jacob.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 14, p.318
I wanted to make both of them get out of their cars and shake hands and be friends be Edward and Jacob rather than vampire and werewolf. It was as if I had those two stubborn magnets in my hands again, and I was holding them together, trying to force nature to reverse herself
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 14, p.319
While he slept, every trace of defensiveness and bitterness disappeared and suddenly he was the boy who had been my very best friend before all the werewolf nonsense had gotten in the way. He looked so much younger. He looked like my Jacob.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 14, p.323
There was just something about him being the one to make the choice to want to keep me enough that he wouldnt just allow me to be changed, he would act to keep me. It was childish, but I liked the idea that his lips would be the last good thing I would feel. Even more embarrassingly, something I would never say aloud, I wanted his venom to poison my system. It would make me belong to him in a tangible, quantifiable way.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 14, p.324
I miss you when youre not there. When youre happy, it makes me happy. But I could say the same thing about Charlie, Jacob. Youre family. I love you, but Im not in love with you.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 15, p.329
I cant wait to see what Edward does to you! I hope he snaps your neck, you pushy, obnoxious, moronic DOG!
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 15, p.332
Ill give you passionate. Murder, the ultimate crime of passion.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 15, p.332
If I think about you tonight, it will be because Im having a nightmare.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 15, p.333
I dont want to be happy with anyone but him.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 15, p.333
That was not kissing back, that was trying to get you the hell off of me, you idiot.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 15, p.334
I punched a werewolf in the face.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 15, p.342
I guess I could throw in a few extra homicides, if it makes Jasper happy. Why not?
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 15, p.343
Was there a human experience I was not willing to give up?
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 15, p.345
Stupid, thieving, annoying vampire!
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 16, p.347
I cant imagine how awful that must feel. Being normal? Ugh.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 16, p.347
Well, everyone can relax. Nobodys trying to exterminate the Cullens after all.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 16, p.349
And now Edward rode in the backseat of my fathers police car, behind the fiberglass divider, with an amused expression probably due to my fathers amused expression, and the grin that widened every time Charlie stole a glance at Edward in his rearview mirror. Which almost certainly meant that Charlie was imagining things that would get him in trouble with me if he said them out loud.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 16, p.351
Please dont get all weepy on me.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 16, p.352
They stood out from the rest of the crowd, their beauty and grace otherworldly. I wondered how Id ever fallen for their human farce. A couple of angels, standing there with wings intact, would be less conspicuous.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 16, p.354
Okay, so telling Edward had been a really bad idea. Alice was right to keep her thoughts clouded. I should have waited till we were alone somewhere, maybe with the rest of his family. And nothing breakable close by like windows
cars
school buildings.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 16, p.358
This kiss frightened me. There was too much tension, too strong an edge to the way his lips crushed mine like he was afraid we only had so much time left to us.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 17, p.365
I saw Emmett grin at Mike over the food table, the red lights gleaming off his teeth, and watched Mike take an automatic step back.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 17, p.368
She was forever trying to make me be human the way she thought humans should be.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 17, p.368
In case my right hook was too subtle for you, let me translate: that was me uninviting you.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 17, p.372
All around us, my friends and neighbors and petty enemies ate and laughed and swayed to the music, oblivious to the fact that they were about to face horror, danger, maybe death. Because of me.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 17, p.379
People well, vampires and werewolves really, but still people I loved were going to get hurt. Hurt because of me. Again. I wished my bad luck would focus a little more carefully.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 18, p.386
He raced through the black, quiet forest with me on his back, and even in his run I could feel the elation. He ran the way he did when it was just us, just for enjoyment, just for the feel of the wind in his hair. It was the kind of thing that, during less anxious times, would have made me happy.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 18, p.386
Youre in every thought I have.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 19, p.413
Youre more important than everyone else. And youve given me you. Thats already more than I deserve, and anything else you give me just throws us more out of balance.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 19, p.413
Okay, look, Edward. Heres the thing
Ive already gone crazy once. I know what my limits are. And I cant stand it if you leave me again.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 19, p.419
I wondered if I was a monster. Not the kind that he thought he was, but the real kind. The kind that hurt people. The kind that had no limits when it came to what they wanted.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 19, p.421
Two voices struggled inside me. One that wanted to be good and brave, and one that told the good one to keep her mouth shut.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 19, p.422
Edward had requested that I relax, and I was going to do my best.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 20, p.435
After everything Id seen in the past two years, I didnt believe in the word impossible anymore. It was going to take more than that to stop me now.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 20, p.436
He must have been eager to give me my non-present, because human velocity was not fast enough for him.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 20, p.438
I leaned into him, ducking my head under his arm and cuddling into his side. It probably felt similar to snuggling with Michelangelos David, except that this perfect marble creature wrapped his arms around me to pull me closer.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 20, p.439
I didnt have the faintest idea how to be seductive. I would just have to settle for flushed and self-conscious.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 20, p.442
I doubted if awkward, self-conscious, and inept added up to desirable in anyones book.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 20, p.445
I already know how strong you are. You didnt have to break the furniture.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 20, p.447
There isnt much thats traditional about you and me.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 20, p.451
Its not like you didnt know you were going to win in the end. You always win.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 20, p.452
You make me feel like a villain in a melodrama twirling my mustache while I try to steal some poor girls virtue.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 20, p.452
Thats it, isnt it? Youre trying to protect your virtue!
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 20, p.453
Vampire rules arent enough for you? You want to worry about the human ones too?
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 20, p.453
You cant make me go somewhere you wont be. Thats my definition of hell. Anyway, I have an easy solution to all this: lets never die, all right?
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 20, p.455
Show me the damn ring, Edward.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 20, p.457
There were many things I wanted to say, some of them not nice at all, and others more disgustingly gooey and romantic than he probably dreamed I was capable of.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 20, p.460
The urge to fight must be a defining characteristic of the Y chromosome. They were all the same.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 21, p.463
I never thought Id see the day where Id be willing to take a bet against you, Alice, but it has arrived.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 21, p.467
It would hurt his feelings if I told the truth that it didnt really matter, because it was all just varying degrees of awful anyway.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 21, p.469
Some people will go to any lengths to delude themselves.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 21, p.476
But I dont count that as a kiss, Jacob. I think of it more as an assault.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 21, p.476
Dont mess with me, Jake. I swear I wont stop him if he wants to break your jaw.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 21, p.477
Youre an enormous monster who refuses to respect anyone elses personal space.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 21, p.478
Nervousness and irritation are not the same thing.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 21, p.478
I was horrible. I had to be, to convince him to stay with me. He wont hold it against me, but Ill always know what Im capable of.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 21, p.480
Youre my best friend. At least, you used to be. And still sometimes are
when you let your guard down.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 21, p.481
Leave it to you to ruin the moment.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 21, p.481
I wondered if the Cullens and the Quileutes werent just playing up that whole odor issue because of their prejudices. Everyone smelled fine to me.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 22, p.492
Why are you so much furrier than your friends?
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 22, p.493
Edward met my gaze evenly. His expression was calm, but the pain in his eyes was unconcealed.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 23, p.506
Youve always seemed more like a dream than reality.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 23, p.513
It made no difference that Jacob was not human when he cried out. I needed no translation.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 23, p.514
Yes. I should save my energy to torment Jacob some more. I wouldnt want to leave any part of him unharmed.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 23, p.515
Do you think I care whether its fair or whether he was adequately warned? Im hurting him. Every time I turn around, Im hurting him again. Im a hideous person.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 23, p.515
I was hurting everyone today. Was there anything I touched that didnt get spoiled?
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 23, p.517
I was selfish, I was hurtful. I tortured the ones I loved.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 23, p.517
Edward would never see me shed another tear for Jacob Black.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 23, p.517
I had to get over this irrational feeling that Jacob belonged in my life. He couldnt belong with me, could not be my Jacob, when I belonged to someone else.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 23, p.518
It would be no more than I deserved if I somehow lost them both.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 23, p.520
There was no end to his generosity. I deserved him now less than I ever had.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 23, p.521
I had to never hurt him again. That would be my mission in life. Never again would I be the reason for this look to come into his eyes.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 23, p.521
Kiss me, Jacob. Kiss me, and then come back.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 23, p.525
Jacob was right. Hed been right all along. He was more than just my friend. Thats why it was so impossible to tell him goodbye because I was in love with him. Too. I loved him, much more than I should, and yet, still nowhere near enough. I was in love with him, but it was not enough to change anything; it was only enough to hurt us both more. To hurt him worse than I ever had.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 23, p.528
I lay facedown across the sleeping bag, waiting for justice to find me. Maybe an avalanche would bury me here. I wished it would. I never wanted to have to see my face in the mirror again.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 24, p.531
There wasnt enough room in my body to contain anything besides the hatred I felt toward myself.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 24, p.533
I should have known youd find some way to blame yourself. Please stop. I cant stand it.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 24, p.534
What happened to fighting back? Dont start with the noble self-sacrifice now! Fight!
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 24, p.535
I dont care that its cold here. I dont care that I stink like a dog right now. Make me forget how awful I am. Make me forget him. Make me forget my own name. Fight back!
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 24, p.535
You said I could have any part of you I wanted. I want this part. I want every part.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 24, p.535
First, because you are bizarrely moral for a vampire.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 24, p.536
If I had to bleed to save them, I would do it. I would die to do it, like the third wife. I had no silver dagger in my hand, but I would find a way.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 24, p.539
I wasnt sure how I heard the low sound with all the other noises echoing off the stone wall and hammering inside my head. My own heartbeat should have been enough to drown it out. But, in the split second that I stared into Victorias eyes, I thought I heard a familiar, exasperated sigh.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 24, p.550
Im fine. Im okay. Im just. Freaking out. Give me. A minute.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 25, p.557
Just you wait till Im a vampire! Im not going to be sitting on the sidelines next time.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 25, p.559
A united front, as Edward had said, with me at the heart, in the safest place.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 25, p.571
If only I could be struck by lightning and be split in two. Preferably painfully. For the first time, giving up being human felt like a true sacrifice. Like it might be too much to lose.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 26, p.589
Why didnt anyone ever try to kill me when I wanted to die?
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 26, p.592
He wasnt even mad at me he wasnt even mad at you! Hes so unselfish it makes me feel even worse. I wish he would have yelled at me or something. Its not like I dont deserve . . . well, much worse that getting yelled at But he doesnt care. He just wants me to be happy.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 26, p.593
How can we be friends, when we love each other like this?
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 26, p.597
Two futures, two soul mates
too much for any one person.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 26, p.599
Silly Jacob dont you know better than to believe vampire stories?
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 26, p.602
I probably wont think shes good enough for you. I wonder how jealous Ill be.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 26, p.603
Sometimes, there isnt any way to compromise.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 27, p.607
Nothing scared Charlie worse than tears.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 27, p.608
My hindsight seemed unbearably clear tonight. I could see every mistake Id made, every bit of harm Id done, the small things and the big things. Each pain Id caused Jacob, each wound Id given Edward, stacked up into neat piles that I could not ignore or deny.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 27, p.608
It had not been Edward and Jacob that Id been trying to force together, it was the two parts of myself, Edwards Bella and Jacobs Bella. But they could not exist together, and I never should have tried.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 27, p.608
Edward, I know who I cant live without.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 27, p.610
You may be brave enough or strong enough to live without me, if thats whats best. But I could never be that self-sacrificing. I have to be with you. Its the only way I can live.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 27, p.610
Ive chosen my life now I want to start living it.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 27, p.616
At least my mom and dad and my friends will know the best part of my choice, the most Im allowed to tell them. Theyll know I chose you, and theyll know were together. Theyll know Im happy, wherever I am. I think thats the best I can do for them.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 27, p.616
Its a good thing youre bulletproof. Im going to need that ring. Its time to tell Charlie.
Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 27, p.620
Id had more than my fair share of near-death experiences; it wasnt something you ever really got used to.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Book One Preface, p.1
You could run from someone you feared, you could try to fight someone you hated. All my reactions were geared toward those kinds of killers the monsters, the enemies. When you loved the one who was killing you, it left you no options. How could you run, how could you fight, when doing so would hurt that beloved one? If your life was all you had to give your beloved, how could you not give it? If it was someone you truly loved?
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Book One Preface, p.1
It was still considered rude to stare at people, wasnt it? Didnt that apply to me anymore?
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 1, p.3
I was going without a lot of things these days, like Pop-Tarts and shoelaces, to avoid spending time in public.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 1, p.4
Personally, I didnt get it. But then, I was just proud I could distinguish between the symbols for Toyota, Ford, and Chevy. This car was glossy black, sleek, and pretty, but it was still just a car to me.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 1, p.5
I briefly contemplated my issues with words like fiancé, wedding, husband, etc. I just couldnt put it together in my head. On the one hand, I had been raised to cringe at the very thought of poofy white dresses and bouquets. But more than that, I just couldnt reconcile a staid, respectable, dull concept like husband with my concept of Edward. It was like casting an archangel as an accountant; I couldnt visualize him in any commonplace role.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 1, p.6
I miss my truck.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 1, p.7
Body armor. Four thousand pounds of body armor. And missile-proof glass? Nice. What had happened to good old-fashioned bulletproof?
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 1, p.7
Ha ha. Because I was so fragilely human, so accident-prone, so much a victim to my own dangerous bad luck, apparently I needed a tank-resistant car to keep me safe. Hilarious. I was sure he and his brothers had enjoyed the joke quite a bit behind my back.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 1, p.8
Virtual indestructibility was just one of the many perks I was looking forward to. The best parts about being a Cullen were not expensive cars and impressive credit cards.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 1, p.9
The phrase bite my head off was not entirely a figure of speech when it came to Leah.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 1, p.11
The friendship that had sprung up between Edward and Seth was something that still boggled my mind. It was proof, though, that things didnt have to be this way. That vampires and werewolves could get along just fine, thank you very much, if they were of a mind to.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 1, p.12
Wait till he hangs his gun up!
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 1, p.13
Edward grimaced, and I knew it was in objection to the word okay. He probably would have used something more like wonderful or perfect or glorious.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 1, p.14
I wanted to elbow Edward in the ribs, but I knew that move would only give me a bruise. Id told Edward that people would immediately jump to this conclusion! What other possible reason would sane people have for getting married at eighteen? (His answer then had made me roll my eyes. Love. Right.)
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 1, p.15
For just an instant, listening to the absolute confidence in his voice, I experienced a rare moment of insight. I could see, fleetingly, the way the world looked to him.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 1, p.15
Im one hundred percent sure about Edward.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 1, p.16
He wasnt exaggerating; theyd been big on old-fashioned morals during World War I.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 1, p.16
Charlies mouth twisted to the side. Looking for an angle to argue from. But what could he say? Id prefer you live in sin first? He was a dad; his hands were tied.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 1, p.17
The ultimate doom: telling Renée. Early marriage was higher up on her blacklist than boiling live puppies.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 1, p.17
Im having an out-of-body experience right now.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 1, p.19
There was only one human experience I worried about missing. Of course it would be the one he wished I would forget completely.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 1, p.22
For several years, my biggest personality trait was going to be thirsty. It would take some time before I could be me again. And even when I was in control of myself, I would never feel exactly the way I felt now. Human
and passionately in love. I wanted the complete experience before I traded in my warm, breakable, pheromone-riddled body for something beautiful, strong
and unknown. I wanted a real honeymoon with Edward. And, despite the danger he feared this would put me in, hed agreed to try.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 1, p.22
I was with Edward in my happy place.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 1, p.22
I miss you already.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 2, p.23
Sometimes it was so easy to forget that I was kissing a vampire.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 2, p.23
I opened my eyes and found his open, too, staring at my face. It made no sense when he looked at me that way. Like I was the prize rather than the outrageously lucky winner.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 2, p.24
It seemed silly that this fact the existence of his soul had ever been in question, even if he was a vampire. He had the most beautiful soul, more beautiful than his brilliant mind or his incomparable face or his glorious body.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 2, p.24
We were curled up on my small bed, intertwined as much as it was possible, considering the thick afghan I was swathed in like a cocoon. I hated the necessity of the blanket, but it sort of ruined the romance when my teeth started chattering.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 2, p.25
He started to pull away that was his automatic response whenever he decided things had gone too far, his reflex reaction whenever he most wanted to keep going. Edward had spent most of his life rejecting any kind of physical gratification. I knew it was terrifying to him trying to change those habits now.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 2, p.25
Practice makes perfect.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 2, p.25
But this is the dress rehearsal, and weve only practiced certain scenes. Its no time for playing it safe.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 2, p.26
How different it would be when he didnt need to worry about me anymore. What would he do with all his free time? Hed have to get a new hobby.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 2, p.26
Im sure about you. The rest I can live through.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 2, p.27
Ill miss my friends, too. Especially Mike. Oh, Mike! How will I go on?
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 2, p.27
Edward, weve been through this and through this. I know it will be hard, but this is what I want. I want you, and I want you forever. One lifetime is simply not enough for me.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 2, p.27
I clutched him closer for one second and then released him. I didnt have a prayer of winning a tug-of-war with Emmett.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 2, p.28
He vanished launching himself out my window too swiftly for my eyes to follow. Outside, there was a muted thud, and I heard Emmett curse.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 2, p.29
Jasper? What do vampires do for bachelor parties? Youre not taking him to a strip club, are you?
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 2, p.30
My last night as Isabella Swan. Tomorrow night, I would be Bella Cullen. Though the whole marriage ordeal was a thorn in my side, I had to admit that I liked the sound of that.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 2, p.30
Id never seen Tanya before, but I was sure that meeting her wouldnt be a pleasant experience for my ego.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 2, p.31
No one expects me to be stunning. I think the bigger problem is that I might fall asleep during the ceremony and not be able to say I do at the right part, and then Edward will make his escape.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 3, p.40
I was afraid to look in the mirror afraid the image of myself in the wedding dress would send me over the edge into a full-scale panic attack.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 3, p.44
I should have realized that having Alice as my only bridesmaid was a mistake. I would look that much more uncoordinated coming behind her.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 3, p.47
Dont let me fall, Dad.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 3, p.48
All I really saw was Edwards face; it filled my vision and overwhelmed my mind. His eyes were a buttery, burning gold; his perfect face was almost severe with the depth of his emotion. And then, as he met my awed gaze, he broke into a breathtaking smile of exultation.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 3, p.48
Charlie took my hand and, in a symbol as old as the world, placed it in Edwards. I touched the cool miracle of his skin, and I was home.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 3, p.49
In that moment, as the minister said his part, my world, which had been upside down for so long now, seemed to settle into its proper position. I saw just how silly Id been for fearing this as if it were an unwanted birthday gift or an embarrassing exhibition, like the prom. I looked into Edwards shining, triumphant eyes and knew that I was winning, too. Because nothing else mattered but that I could stay with him.
Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 3, p.49
I tried to comprehend, through the film of tears blinding me, the surreal fact that this amazing person was mine.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 3, p.50
One scorching hug stood out from all the others Seth Clearwater had braved the throng of vampires to stand in for my lost werewolf friend.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 3, p.50
We took turns shoving cake in each others faces; Edward manfully swallowed his portion as I watched in disbelief. I threw my bouquet with atypical skill, right into Angelas surprised hands. Emmett and Jasper howled with laughter at my blush while Edward removed my borrowed garter which Id shimmied down nearly to my ankle very carefully with his teeth. With a quick wink at me, he shot it straight into Mike Newtons face.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 4, p.55
It wasnt nearly as easy to dance with Charlie. He was no better at it than I was, so we moved safely from side to side in a tiny square formation. Edward and Esme spun around us like Fred Astaire and Ginger Rogers.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 4, p.56
I feel just horrible, leaving you to cook for yourself its practically criminal negligence. You could arrest me.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 4, p.56
Id never done anything good enough to deserve a friend like Jacob.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 4, p.60
Alice is an unstoppable force of nature.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 4, p.63
My relationship with Jacob used to be so easy. Natural as breathing. But since Edward had come back into my life, it was a constant strain. Because in Jacobs eyes by choosing Edward, I was choosing a fate that was worse than death, or at least equivalent to it.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 4, p.64
I can do anything I want! Butt out!
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 4, p.65
The darkness was suddenly very crowded.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 4, p.66
My insides were chaotic with panic and grief, but that didnt matter only the outside mattered right now. Putting on a good show was something I knew I had to master.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 4, p.68
Id been so glad to see Jacob here. I knew the sacrifice it had taken him. And then Id ruined it, turned his gift into a disaster. I should be quarantined.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 4, p.68
You and me. Thats the only thing that matters. The only thing youre allowed to think about now. Do you hear me?
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 4, p.69
Edward, Im not afraid.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 4, p.69
By the way, I love you.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 4, p.69
Youre the best, smartest, most talented sister in the whole world.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 4, p.71
I love you forever, Dad. Dont forget that.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 4, p.73
Oh well, I thought to myself. He was a vampire, after all. Maybe we were going to Atlantis.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 5, p.77
Who gives an island as a gift? I frowned. I hadnt realized Edwards extreme generosity was a learned behavior.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 5, p.78
He didnt ask what I was thinking, which was out of character for him. I guessed that meant that he was just as nervous as I suddenly was.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 5, p.79
Did my skin burst into flames? I had to look down to check. Nope, nothing was burning. At least, not visibly.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 5, p.81
I didnt know how or when, but someday, Alice was going to pay for this.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 5, p.81
I started to feel a little dizzy, apparently a full-scale panic attack on the way. I sat down on the cool tile floor in my big towel and put my head between my knees. I prayed he wouldnt decide to come look for me before I could pull myself together. I could imagine what he would think if he saw me going to pieces this way. It wouldnt be hard for him to convince himself that we were making a mistake.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 5, p.83
I was freaking out because I had no idea how to do this, and I was afraid to walk out of this room and face the unknown. Especially in French lingerie. I knew I wasnt ready for that yet.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 5, p.83
How did people do this swallow all their fears and trust someone else so implicitly with every imperfection and fear they had with less than the absolute commitment that Edward had given me? If it werent Edward out there, if I didnt know in every cell of my body that he loved me as much as I loved him unconditionally and irrevocably and, to be honest, irrationally Id never be able to get up off this floor.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 5, p.83
Dont be afraid. We belong together.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 5, p.85
His arms wrapped around me, holding me against him, summer and winter. It felt like every nerve ending in my body was a live wire.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 5, p.85
I would have been happy to lie here forever, to never disturb this moment, but my body had other ideas. I laughed at my impatient stomach. It seemed sort of prosaic to be hungry after all that had passed last night. Like being brought back down to earth from some great height.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 5, p.86
My first instinct, the product of a lifetime of insecurities, was to wonder what I had done wrong.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 5, p.87
Fire and ice, somehow existing together without destroying each other. More proof that I belonged with him.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 5, p.87
Why am I covered in feathers?
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 5, p.89
You
bit a pillow? Why?
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 5, p.89
Ugh! Why cant you just read my mind already? Its so inconvenient to be a mental mute!
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 5, p.90
I was perfectly happy. Totally and completely blissed out. Now well, Im sort of pissed actually.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 5, p.91
That. That right there is why Im angry. You are killing my buzz, Edward.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 5, p.91
You listen to me, Edward Cullen. I am not pretending anything for your sake, okay? I didnt even know there was a reason to make you feel better until you started being all miserable. Ive never been so happy in all my life I wasnt this happy when you decided that you loved me more than you wanted to kill me, or the first morning I woke up and you were there waiting for me
Not when I heard your voice in the ballet studio, or when you said I do and I realized that, somehow, I get to keep you forever. Those are the happiest memories I have, and this is better than any of it. So just deal with it.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 5, p.94
Do I look that hideous?
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 5, p.95
How did you keep from laughing at this? I look ridiculous.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 5, p.96
I gritted my teeth for a second, fighting a smile. If there was one thing he couldnt resist, it was an opportunity to give me something.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 6, p.102
He kissed me back, but not in a way that made me think I was winning. It was more like he was being careful not to hurt my feelings; he was completely, maddeningly in control of himself.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 6, p.103
In this dream that was both new and old, I simply had to protect the unknown child. There was no other option. At the same time, I knew that I would fail.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 6, p.105
It wasnt desire at all it was need, acute to the point of pain.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 6, p.107
I couldnt tell if he was moved by the tears trembling in my voice, or if he was unprepared to deal with the suddenness of my attack, or if his need was simply as unbearable in that moment as my own. But whatever the reason, he pulled my lips back to his, surrendering with a groan.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 6, p.107
I was afraid to admit I was awake and face his anger no matter whom it was directed at today.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 6, p.108
How much trouble am I in?
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 6, p.108
The pillows all appear to have survived.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 6, p.109
I told you that it was all about practice.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 6, p.110
If I dont have a better sense of equilibrium in my next life, Im demanding a refund.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 6, p.110
I dont spend my free time plotting like some people do. What can we do to wear Bella out today?
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 6, p.111
His words painted a very happy immediate future, one free of pain for everyone involved. The Jacob-drawer, all but forgotten, rattled, and I amended the thought for almost everyone.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 6, p.112
Now that Id discovered exactly how good being human could be, it was tempting to let my plans drift. Eighteen or nineteen, nineteen or twenty
Did it really matter? I wouldnt change so much in a year. And being human with Edward
The choice got trickier every day.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 6, p.112
Beautiful women only? Well, that was kind of flattering.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 6, p.114
Yes, Im sure a movie will convince her that youre human.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 6, p.114
I had another idea for burning calories.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 6, p.117
We seemed to exist outside of time here, just drifting along in a perfect state.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 7, p.119
The phone kept ringing. I wished Edward would answer it I was having a moment. Possibly the biggest of my life.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 7, p.127
Im a little worried about Edward
Can vampires go into shock?
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 7, p.129
I would wait somewhere else for his mood to pass. I couldnt talk to this icy, focused Edward who honestly frightened me a little.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 7, p.131
Surprising, absolutely. Astonishing, even. But wrong? No. So why was Edward so furious? He was the one who had actually wished out loud for a shotgun wedding.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 7, p.131
From that first little touch, the whole world had shifted. Where before there was just one thing I could not live without, now there were two. There was no division my love was not split between them now; it wasnt like that. It was more like my heart had grown, swollen up to twice its size in that moment. All that extra space, already filled. The increase was almost dizzying.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 7, p.132
This child, Edwards child, was a whole different story. I wanted him like I wanted air to breathe. Not a choice a necessity.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 7, p.132
I wished I could speak Portuguese, or that my Spanish was less rudimentary, so that I could try to thank this woman who had dared to anger a vampire just to check on me.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 7, p.134
As if I could discount something because it was a legend. My life was circled by legend on every side. They were all true.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 7, p.137
Behave. And then come back.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 9, p.176
Did you know that I told you so has a brother, Jacob? His name is Shut the hell up.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 10, p.188
Im not saying things will work out easily, Jake. But how could I have lived through all that Ive lived through and not believe in magic by this point?
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 10, p.189
Carlisle only changed them because it was that or death. He doesnt end lives, he saves them.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 10, p.191
Youre very pessimistic, Jacob.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 10, p.192
Please, Jacob. You think I should kill my baby and replace it with some generic substitute?
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 10, p.195
There isnt much you wouldnt do for me, either, is there? I really dont know why you bother. I dont deserve either of you.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 10, p.196
I wish I could explain it to you right so that you would understand. I cant hurt him any more than I could pick up a gun and shoot you. I love him.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 10, p.196
Not pleasant? Gosh, thatll be such a change.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 12, p.241
So, whos going to catch me a grizzly bear?
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 12, p.242
Well, Im starving, so Ill bet he is, too. Lets go for it. My first vampire act.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 12, p.243
Stop being a jerk, Jacob.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 13, p.247
Does this screw my total? Or do we start counting after Im a vampire?
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 13, p.250
It feels
complete when youre here, Jacob. Like all my family is together. I mean, I guess thats what its like Ive never had a big family before now. Its nice. But its just not whole unless youre here.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 15, p.298
We got off track, Jake. Out of balance. Youre supposed to be part of my life I can feel that, and so can you. But not like this. We did something wrong. No. I did. I did something wrong, and we got off track
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 15, p.298
You have the most beautiful voice in the universe. Who wouldnt love it?
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 16, p.327
Rosell catch me if I trip over my feet. Which could happen pretty easily, since I cant see them.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 17, p.346
Were going to die, I thought in panic. I was desperate for the precious one I guarded, but even to think of that was a lapse in attention I could not afford.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Book Three Preface, p.367
Non-reality was black, and it didnt hurt so much. Reality was red, and it felt like I was being sawed in half, hit by a bus, punched by a prize fighter, trampled by bulls, and submerged in acid, all at the same time. Reality was feeling my body twist and flip when I couldnt possibly move because of the pain. Reality was knowing there was something so much more important than all this torture, and not being able to remember what it was. Reality had come on so fast.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 19, p.369
Her tiny face was so absolutely perfect that it stunned me. She was even more beautiful than her father. Unbelievable. Impossible.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 19, p.372
If I did the easy thing now, let the black nothingness erase me, I would hurt them. Edward. Edward. My life and his were twisted into a single strand. Cut one, and you cut both. If he were gone, I would not be able to live through that. If I were gone, he wouldnt like through it, either. And a world without Edward seemed completely pointless. Edward had to exist. Jacob whod said goodbye to me over and over but kept coming back when I needed him. Jacob, who Id wounded so many times it was criminal. Would I hurt him again, in the worst way yet? Hed stayed for me, despite everything. Now all he asked was that I stay for him.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 19, p.373
It was sort of the pattern to my life Id never been strong enough to deal with the things outside my control, to attack the enemies or outrun them. To avoid the pain. Always human and weak, the only thing Id ever been able to do was keep going. Endure. Survive. It had been enough up to this point. It would have to be enough today. I would endure this until help came. I knew Edward would be doing everything he could. He would not give up. Neither would I.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 19, p.374
I had done it. Against the odds, I had been strong enough to survive Renesmee, to hold on to her until she was strong enough to live without me.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 19, p.375
I hadnt guessed that the morphine would have this effect that it would pin me down and gag me. Hold me paralyzed while I burned. I knew all the stories. I knew that Carlisle had kept quiet enough to avoid discovery while he burned. I knew that, according to Rosalie, it did no good to scream. And Id hoped that maybe I could be like Carlisle. That I would believe Rosalies words and keep my mouth shut. Because I knew that every scream that escaped my lips would torment Edward. Now it seemed like a hideous joke that I was getting my wish fulfilled. If I couldnt scream, how could I tell them to kill me?
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 19, p.377
Though the fire did not decrease one tiny degree in fact, I began to develop a new capacity for experiencing it, a new sensitivity to appreciate, separately, each blistering tongue of flame that licked through my veins I discovered that I could think around it. I could remember why I shouldnt scream. I could remember the reason why Id committed to enduring this unendurable agony. I could remember that, though it felt impossible now, there was something that might be worth the torture.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 19, p.378
It was harder not to answer this voice, but I stayed paralyzed. I knew that the pain in his voice now was nothing compared to what it could be. Right now he only feared that I was suffering.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 19, p.380
Edward didnt answer, but Alices words gave me hope that maybe I didnt resemble the charcoal briquette I felt like. It seemed as if I must be just a pile of charred bones by now. Every cell in my body had been razed to ash.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 19, p.383
I didnt need the air. My lungs werent waiting for it. They reacted indifferently to the influx. I did not need the air, but I liked it.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 20, p.388
Oh. Of course. Edward wouldnt feel cold to me. We were the same temperature now.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 20, p.389
Jasper and Emmett were in the front to protect the others, as I had assumed. What I hadnt grasped immediately was that I was the danger.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 20, p.390
How many times had I stared at Edward and marveled over his beauty? How many hours days, weeks of my life had I spent dreaming about what I then deemed to be perfection? I thought Id known his face better than my own. Id thought this was the one sure physical thing in my whole world: the flawlessness of Edwards face. I may as well have been blind. For the first time, with the dimming shadows and limiting weakness of humanity taken off my eyes, I saw his face. I gasped and then struggled with my vocabulary, unable to find the right words. I needed better words.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 20, p.390
His touch seemed to sweep beneath the surface of my skin, right through the bones of my face. The feeling was tingly, electric it jolted through my bones, down my spine, and trembled in my stomach. Wait, I thought as the trembling blossomed into a warmth, a yearning. Wasnt I supposed to lose this? Wasnt giving up this feeling a part of the bargain?
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 20, p.392
He smiled the kind of smile that would have stopped my heart if it were still beating.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 20, p.393
I was stronger than Edward. Id made him say ow.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 20, p.393
It was like hed never kissed me like this was our first kiss. And, in truth, hed never kissed me this way before. It almost made me feel guilty. Surely I was in breach of the contract. I shouldnt be allowed to have this, too.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 20, p.394
Youve been holding out on me.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 20, p.395
I knew there was nothing left inside me, and I faintly remembered the bloody removal scene, but the physical proof was still hard to process. All I knew was loving my little nudger inside of me. Outside of me, she seemed like something I must have imagined. A fading dream a dream that was half nightmare.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 20, p.399
I stared at the beautiful woman with the terrifying eyes, looking for pieces of me. There was something there in the shape of her lips if you looked past the dizzying beauty, it was true that her upper lip was slightly out of balance, a bit too full to match the lower. Finding this familiar little flaw made me feel a tiny bit better. Maybe the rest of me was in there, too.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 20, p.405
I guess my brain will never work right. At least Im pretty.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 20, p.406
We have all eternity, and youre worried about the time it would take to walk to the back door?
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 21, p.407
Right. I was the monster now. I had to keep away from scents that might trigger my wild side. From the people that I loved in particular. Even the ones I didnt really know yet.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 21, p.408
And I was very conscious of my family behind me, watching silently. Mostly silently. Emmett had already chuckled under his breath once. One mistake, and hed be rolling on the floor. Then the jokes about the worlds only clumsy vampire would start.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 21, p.408
It was the first time anyone had ever applied the word graceful to me in my entire life
or, well, existence anyway.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 21, p.409
So Jacob was watching, too? I couldnt imagine what he was thinking now, or what he was still doing here. Id envisioned our reunion if he could ever forgive me taking place far in the future, when I was more stable, and time had healed the wounds Id inflicted in his heart.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 21, p.411
I could finally understand why Edward never hit the trees when he ran a question that had always been a mystery to me. It was a peculiar sensation, the balance between the speed and the clarity. For, while I rocketed over, under, and through the thick jade maze at a rate that should have reduced everything around me to a streaky green blur, I could plainly see each tiny leaf on all the small branches of every insignificant shrub that I passed.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 21, p.413
Why are you laughing at me?
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 21, p.419
Such powerful emotions. Id been prepared for the thirst part, but not this. Id been so sure it wouldnt be the same when he touched me. Well, truthfully, it wasnt the same. It was stronger.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 21, p.420
I thought I wouldnt feel this way for a long time? But I still want you.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 21, p.421
It was a surprisingly sensual experience to observe Edward hunting. His smooth spring was like the sinuous strike of a snake; his hands were so sure, so strong, so completely inescapable; his full lips were perfect as they parted gracefully over his gleaming teeth. He was glorious. I felt a sudden jolt of both pride and desire. He was mine. Nothing could ever separate him from me now. I was too strong to be torn from his side.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 21, p.425
My old mind hadnt been capable of holding this much love. My old heart had not been strong enough to bear it. Maybe this was the part of me that Id brought forward to be intensified in my new life. Like Carlisles compassion and Esmes devotion. I would probably never be able to do anything interesting or special like Edward, Alice, and Jasper could do. Maybe I would just love Edward more than anyone in the history of the world had ever loved anyone else. I could live with that.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 21, p.426
Oops. I didnt mean to tackle you like that. Are you okay?
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 21, p.427
It seemed odd now that I had needed him so much then. That sense of absence without him near had vanished; it must have been a human weakness.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 22, p.430
Then he smiled his familiar smile, the smile of a kindred spirit, and I was sure our friendship was intact. It was just like before, when we were hanging out in his homemade garage, just two friends killing time. Easy and normal. Again, I noticed that the strange need Id felt for him before Id changed was completely gone. He was just my friend, the way it was supposed to be.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 22, p.433
Huh. I can see what everyones been going on about. You stink, Jacob.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 22, p.436
Jacob just kept grinning. This made me feel hopeful that things were going to be right between us, the way they hadnt been for so long now. Maybe now I could truly be his friend, since I disgusted him enough physically that he couldnt love me the same way as before. Maybe that was all I needed.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 22, p.436
Hes not telling it right. He left out the part where I growled at him.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 22, p.442
It seemed very natural to lean in and press my lips to her forehead. She smelled wonderful. The scent of her skin set my throat burning, but it was easy to ignore. It didnt strip the joy from the moment. Renesmee was real and I knew her. She was the same one Id fought for from the beginning. My little nudger, the one who loved me from the inside, too. Half Edward, perfect and lovely. And half me which, surprisingly, made her better rather than detracting. Id been right all along. She was worth the fight.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 22, p.447
Edward, I dont want to hurt you, so please let go of me.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 22, p.448
You stupid mutt! You could you! My baby!
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 22, p.449
Ive held her all of one time, and already you think you have some moronic wolfy claim on her? Shes mine.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 22, p.449
How dare you imprint on my baby? Have you lost your mind?
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 22, p.449
You think youll be part of my family as my son-in-law!
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 22, p.450
Run away while you still can.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 22, p.451
You nicknamed my daughter after the Loch Ness Monster?
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 22, p.451
Edward was still apologizing, and I didnt think that was either fair or appropriate. After all, Edward hadnt tried to rip Jacobs head off Jacob, who wouldnt even phase to protect himself and then accidentally broken Seths shoulder and collarbone when he jumped in between. Edward hadnt almost killed his best friend.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 23, p.452
I tried to erase the anger from my system entirely, but it was hard, knowing that Jacob was outside with Renesmee right now. Keeping her safe from me, the crazed newborn.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 23, p.453
It rankled to realize over and over again how much I owed Jacob when I just wanted to be mad at him.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 23, p.456
Jacob, I thought, despite myself. Though that yearning was both vanished and defined and I was vastly relieved that it was he was still my friend. Someone who knew the real me and accepted her. Even has a monster.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 23, p.459
I remembered further back, to the fuzzy, weak memories of my human life. Back to the very hardest part to remember the time without Edward, a time so dark Id tried to bury it in my head. I couldnt get the words exactly right; I only remembered wishing that Jacob were my brother so that we could love each other without any confusion or pain. Family. But Id never factored a daughter into the equation.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 23, p.459
There was still enough petty ire in my system to make me glad, not for his pain, but for the idea of having Renesmee away from him. How was I supposed to deal with having her belong to Jacob when she only barely seemed to belong to me?
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 23, p.459
I felt irritated again, like Jacob was stealing my lines and delivering them all wrong.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 23, p.462
Thirstiness was way down the list right now. Besides, Renesmee smelled good in a very non-food way.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 23, p.462
Renesmee smiled her brilliant smile, and her memory eyes did not leave Jacob through all the following mess. I tasted a new flavor to the memory not exactly protective, more possessive as she watched Jacob. I got the distinct impression that she was glad Seth had put himself in front of my spring. She didnt want Jacob hurt. He was hers.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 23, p.463
For a tiny space, I was disappointed. What? No magic visions, no formidable offensive abilities like, oh, shooting lightning bolts from my eyes or something? Nothing helpful or cool at all?
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 23, p.466
I was pleased by how often my face both of my faces, hideous human and glorious immortal cropped up in her unconscious thoughts. More than Edward or Rosalie. I was neck and neck with Jacob; I tried not to let that get to me. For the first time, I understood how Edward had been able to watch me sleep night after boring night, just to hear me talk in my sleep. I could watch Renesmee dream forever.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 23, p.469
No. No way! No, this doesnt count. I stopped aging three days ago. I am eighteen forever.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 24, p.471
Rosalie grinned at me, and I was glad to see that the new comradeship between us was still there in her smile. I hadnt been entirely sure it would last after Renesmees life was no longer tied to mine. But maybe we had fought together on the same side long enough that we would always be friends now. Id finally made the same choice she would have if shed been in my shoes. That seemed to have washed away her resentment for all my other choices.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 24, p.473
I realized that lots of things about me like truly hating surprises, and not liking gifts in general much more had not changed one bit. It was a relief and revelation to discover how much of my essential core traits had come with me into this new body. I hadnt expected to be myself.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 24, p.474
I wasnt afraid of hitting a tree; the tree would be the only one getting hurt in that scenario.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 24, p.475
Youre giving me a house for my birthday?
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 24, p.476
I was just thinking today is the first and last day of forever. Its kind of hard to wrap my head around it. Even with all this extra room for wrapping.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 24, p.478
Edward had always thought that he belonged to the world of horror stories. Of course, Id known that he was dead wrong. It was obvious that he belonged here. In a fairy tale. And now I was in the story with him.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 24, p.479
I sighed. My baby, the sea serpent. Maybe there was no help for it. Well, I wasnt giving in.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 24, p.480
Were going to tell Alice that I ran right to the clothes. Were going to tell her I spent hours in there playing dress-up. Were going to lie.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 24, p.481
I could really appreciate him now could properly see every beautiful line of his perfect face, of his long, flawless body with my strong new eyes, every angle and every plane of him. I could taste his pure, vivid scent on my tongue and feel the unbelievable silkiness of his marble skin under my sensitive fingertips.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 24, p.482
He had the most beautiful, perfect body in the world and I had him all to myself, and it didnt feel like I was every going to find a point where I would think, Now Ive had enough for one day. I was always going to want more. And the day was never going to end. So, in such a situation, how did we ever stop? It didnt bother me at all that I had no answer.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 24, p.483
I gritted my teeth and reminded myself of the negative consequences when Id let my temper get away from me yesterday. Of course, Emmett wasnt as breakable as Seth
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 25, p.490
You have thirty seconds to tell me every single word before I give Renesmee to Rosalie and rip your miserable head off. Seth wont be able to stop me this time.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 25, p.495
If I dont kill Charlie tonight, Ill consider forgiving you for this.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 25, p.499
Im actually holding her so that my hands arent free to kill you, Jacob.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 25, p.499
Undiluted fear ripped through my stomach as the enormity of what I was about to do hit me. I was going to gamble on my iffy self-control with my pure human father as the guinea pig.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 25, p.499
Edward hadnt forgiven Jacob, because he knew that no matter what happened now, I was going to be hurting. But Id take the burn happily if that were the worst thing Id face tonight.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 25, p.504
It wasnt precisely a peck on the lips, and my wild vampiric reactions took me off guard yet again. Edwards lips were like a shot of some addictive chemical straight into my nervous system. I was instantly craving more. It took all my concentration to remember the baby in my arms.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 25, p.504
I hoped Charlie could see past the changes in my new face to read the remorse there.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 25, p.507
Charlie shot an incredulous glance at Carlisle, still standing by the front door; he looked like Zeuss younger, better-looking brother.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 25, p.509
This stuff isnt for the fainthearted.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 26, p.512
I remembered how it felt, that first uncomfortable immersion in fantasy the sensation that everything would disappear in the light of the rising sun.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 26, p.516
Id actually made it through the whole day without hurting Charlie. All by myself. I must have a superpower! It seemed too good to be true. Could I really have both my new family and some of my old as well? And Id thought that yesterday had been perfect.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 26, p.517
Emmett, how do you feel about a little bet?
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 26, p.518
You. Me. Arm-wrestling. Dining room table. Now.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 26, p.518
Id been so careful since the last time I woke up, trying so hard not to break things. It was a relief to use my muscles. To let the strength flow rather than struggling to restrain it.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 26, p.520
Just keep your mouth shut.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 26, p.520
Its not going to wear off that fast. Maybe you ought to give it a month.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 26, p.521
Hey, whatever makes you happy, big brother.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 26, p.521
Fascinated by the undeniable proof that I was stronger than the strongest vampire Id ever known, I placed my hand, fingers spread wide, against the rock. Then I dug my fingers slowly into the stone, crushing rather than digging; the consistency reminded me of hard cheese. I ended up with a handful of gravel.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 26, p.521
He was both dazzling and dazzled.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 26, p.523
It was a strange feeling not surprising, I supposed, since everything felt strange now this being a natural at something. As a human, Id never been best at anything.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 26, p.523
After eighteen years of mediocrity, I was pretty used to being average. I realized now that Id long ago given up any aspirations of shining at anything. I just did the best with what I had, never quite fitting into my world. So this was really different. I was amazing now to them and to myself. It was like I had been born to be a vampire. The idea made me want to laugh, but it also made me want to sing. I had found my true place in the world, the place I fit, the place I shined.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 26, p.523
I took mythology a lot more seriously since Id become a vampire.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 27, p.525
Happiness was the main component in my life now, the dominant pattern in the tapestry.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 27, p.527
The days were not long enough for me to get my fill of adoring my daughter; the nights did not have enough hours to satisfy my need for Edward.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 27, p.527
Even freed from old nightmares, from any dreams at all, it was impossible to forget the Volturi. Nor did they leave us without reminders.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 27, p.531
Are you officially dropping out of high school, then? If youre going to keep up with Renesmee, youre going to have to study a lot harder.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 27, p.534
Jacob was more a child than Renesmee sometimes.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 27, p.535
When I returned, I would take Jacobs side. He should come with us. He had as big a stake in this as any of us his entire life was at stake, just like mine.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 27, p.536
The Amazon offered a change from our normal quarry. Jaguars and panthers, for example. Emmett had a whim to wrestle with an anaconda.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 28, p.542
My first illogical thought was that Alice was playing some joke on us. Because there was no way that Alice could have dropped the vase by accident. I could have darted across the room to catch the vase in plenty of time myself, if I hadnt assumed she would get it. And how would it fall through her fingers in the first place? Her perfectly sure fingers
I had never seen a vampire drop anything by accident. Ever.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 28, p.543
I felt not like stone but ice. For the first time since Id been reborn a vampire, I felt cold.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 28, p.544
After all, the Cullens were in league with werewolves. From Irinas point of view, maybe this meant nothing was beyond us
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 28, p.547
His voice was still quiet, gentle, velvet
and yet the pain and desolation in the sound was unavoidable. His voice was like Alices eyes before like the inside of a tomb.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 28, p.548
Was this the limit, then? Id had more happiness than most people ever experienced. Was there some natural law that demanded equal shares of happiness and misery in the world? Was my joy overthrowing the balance?
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 28, p.549
There was a hint of a smile on Emmetts face now. I was surprised no one had hit him yet. I wanted to.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 28, p.550
Its over. Weve all been sentenced to die.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 28, p.553
The sunlight broke through the back windows, sparkling on Edwards skin. My eyes had not moved from his since Alices departure. Wed stared at each other all night, staring at what neither of us could live through losing; the other. I saw my reflection glimmer in his agonized eyes as the sun touched my own skin.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 29, p.555
Emmett cussed loud enough that Jacob lurched to his feet with a growl. In the yard, his growl was echoed by his pack. My family was already a blur of action.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 29, p.556
I didnt know how to cry in this body; I couldnt do anything but stare. There was no feeling yet. Everything seemed unreal, like I was dreaming again after all these months. Having a nightmare.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 29, p.560
We would fight, they would fight, and we would all die.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 29, p.561
I did not know what Alice was trying to tell me, only that shed gone to great lengths to keep it from anyone but me. The one person whose mind Edward could not read. So she must want to keep him in the dark, and it was probably for a good reason.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 29, p.564
I was the only person in the world who could lie to Edward. Was that what Alice wanted from me? Her last request?
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 29, p.564
The whole imprinted-werewolf-gives-the-object-of-his-imprinting-whatever-she-wants thing was getting old pretty fast.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 29, p.567
Did vampires ever do anything absentmindedly?
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 29, p.569
I didnt know if I could stand this. As much as I feared for my life, for Edwards, for the rest of my familys, it was not the same as the gut-wrenching terror I felt for my daughter. There had to be a way to save her, even if that was the only thing I could do. Suddenly, I knew that this was all I wanted anymore. The rest I would bear if I had to, but not her life being forfeited. Not that. She was the one thing I simply had to save.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 29, p.570
I dont know. But shes Alice. Shes doing the right thing, like always.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 29, p.570
So this was what it felt like to cry.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 29, p.571
Id been planning on needing years just to somewhat organize the overwhelming passion I felt for him physically. And then centuries after that to enjoy it. If we had only a month left together
Well, I didnt see how I could stand to have this end. For the moment I couldnt help but be selfish. All I wanted was to love him as much as possible in the limited time given to me.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 30, p.573
Edward, will you teach me how to fight?
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 30, p.574
He froze, and then his eyes swept over me with a deep significance, like he was looking at me for the first or last time.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 30, p.574
Would you leave me unable to defend myself?
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 30, p.575
I was a tiny bit special, in my own way if having a supernaturally thick skull could really be considered special.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 30, p.575
Edward cut me off, his voice abruptly panicked. He was probably seeing the same image in his head that I was: the Cullens standing helpless, senseless pillars on the killing field all but me. Id be the only one who could fight.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 30, p.577
I have to learn everything. As much as you can possibly cram into my head in the next month.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 30, p.578
My head is sort of
private. But it doesnt stop Jasper from being able to mess with my mood or Alice from seeing my future.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 31, p.596
I wished fervently that I might be good at this projecting thing, too, like I was somehow mysteriously good at all the other aspects of being a vampire. My human life had not prepared me for things that came naturally, and I couldnt make myself trust this aptitude to last. It felt like I had never wanted anything so badly before this: to be able to protect what I loved.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 31, p.600
If Aro wanted me to do something anything all he had to do was threaten Edward and I would comply. And vice versa.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 31, p.605
I was amazed at the easy acceptance the visiting vampires had for Jacob; the problems Edward had anticipated had never materialized. Jacob seemed more or less invisible to them, not quite a person, but also not food, either. They treated him the way people who are not animal lovers treat the pets of their friends.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 32, p.608
Of course, Jacob got more surly with each new addition. He kept his distance when he could, and when he couldnt he grumbled to Renesmee that someone was going to have to provide an index if anyone expected him to keep all the new bloodsuckers names straight.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 32, p.611
My first attempt at learning to fight did not go well. Edward had me pinned in about two seconds. But instead of letting me wrestle my way free which I absolutely could have hed leaped up and away from me. I knew immediately that something was wrong; he was still as stone, staring across the meadow we were practicing in.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 32, p.615
Emmett was more than willing to help, though his teaching felt to me a lot like revenge for all the lost arm-wrestling matches. If I could still bruise, I would have been purple from head to toe.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 32, p.616
Every minute of the day that I wasnt with Renesmee or learning to fight, I was in the backyard working with Kate, trying to push my internal shield outside of my own brain to protect someone else. Edward encouraged me in this training. I knew he hoped I would find a way of contributing that satisfied me while also keeping me out of the line of fire.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 32, p.617
Now my hands were free, and if Kate wanted to keep her hands attached to her wrists, shed better keep her distance.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 32, p.620
We did not hope for the same things, but we all hoped.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 32, p.628
There was no way Jacob would voluntarily miss an afternoon with Renesmee sans bloodsuckers.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 33, p.630
Edward had gotten around to revealing my after car; as hed suspected, I had not been capable of showing the appropriate enthusiasm. Sure, it was pretty and fast, but I liked to run.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 33, p.630
I wanted to be done with todays mission, to have the mystery sorted out so that I could get back to the vital task of learning. Learning to protect some, learning to kill others.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 33, p.634
Im not really a fan of drugs, and neither is my husband. Just say no and all that.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 33, p.641
Please! Is that the kind of people you usually deal with, Max? Maybe you need a new job.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 33, p.641
I had to admit, I was enjoying myself a little. I hadnt interacted with humans much besides Charlie and Sue. It was entertaining to watch him flounder. I was also pleased at how easy it was not to kill him.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 33, p.641
So this man knew Jasper, not Alice. Knew him, and seemed afraid of him, too.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 33, p.643
I took a deep breath and smiled. I owed Max big time.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 33, p.644
The only reason Renesmee would need a forger was if she was running. And the only reason Renesmee would be running was if we had lost.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 33, p.644
Keeping secrets from Edward was bad enough; having to be away from him was almost too much.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 33, p.648
I heard the music before I was out of the car. Edward hadnt touched his piano since the night Alice left. Now, as I shut the car door, I heard the song morph through a bridge and change into my lullaby. Edward was welcoming me home.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 34, p.649
It was not going to be the end of the world. Just the end of the Cullens. The end of Edward, the end of me. I preferred it that way the last part anyway. I would not live without Edward again; if he was leaving this world, then I would be right behind him.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 34, p.652
You could always count on werewolves to be buzzed about a coming fight, no matter how suicidal.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 34, p.653
Renesmee sat on my lap, playing with her locket, opening and closing it. I watched her and imagined the things I would say to Jacob right now if I didnt have to keep my words out of Edwards head. If its ever safe again, take her to Charlie. Tell him the whole story someday. Tell him how much I loved him, how I couldnt bear to leave him even when my human life was over. Tell him he was the best father. Tell him to pass my love on to Renée, all my hopes that she will be happy and well
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 34, p.654
What if your trust in me is the reason that we fail?
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 34, p.662
My shield has holes, Edward!
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 34, p.663
You thought of this a long time ago, didnt you?
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 34, p.663
How much had he pieced together? That I had a secret, absolutely. Would he have deduced the reason why I didnt confide in him? Did he guess that Aro might soon know everything he knew? I thought Edward could have come to that conclusion, which explained why he had demanded no reasons from me.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 35, p.665
I couldnt help being a little flattered; I still wasnt used to being beautiful to everyone rather than just Edward.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 35, p.667
For one half second, I wondered what it would feel like to put my hand in the fire. What it would feel like when I burned
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 35, p.667
I bowed my head again against a sudden urge to sob, clenching my teeth together. It was better that Renesmee go on without me. But I already missed her so much I could barely stand it.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 35, p.673
Edward and I had not had a last grand scene of farewell, nor did I plan one. To speak the word was to make it final. It would be the same as typing the words The End on the last page of a manuscript. So we did not say our goodbyes, and we stayed very close to each other, always touching. Whatever end found us, it would not find us separated.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 35, p.674
Seven months ago, our triangular relationship seemed impossible, three different kinds of heartbreak that could not be avoided. Now everything was in perfect balance. It seemed hideously ironic that the puzzle pieces would fit together just in time for all of them to be destroyed.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 35, p.674
I couldnt see a goodbye anywhere in his eyes. Maybe he had more hope for something after this life than hed let on.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 35, p.677
If any of the wolves stood with us, the Volturi would be sure to search out the rest. They had gambled their entire species on this stand. And we were going to lose.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 36, p.683
Of course he wanted Edward. Once he could see into Edwards mind, he would know all our thoughts. Except mine.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 36, p.689
The shield blew out from me in a bubble of sheer energy, a mushroom cloud of liquid steel. It pulsed like a living thing I could feel it, from the apex to the edges.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 36, p.690
It was almost physically painful to do it, but reluctantly I pulled my shield back and left Edward exposed again. The laughing mood had vanished. I focused totally on Edward, ready to shield him instantly if something went wrong.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 36, p.691
Edwards chin came up arrogantly, and he held his hand out to Aro as if he were conferring a great honor.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 36, p.691
Every secret thought, every strategy, every insight everything Edward had heard in the minds around him during the last month now was Aros. And further back every vision of Alices, every quiet moment with our family, every picture in Renesmees head, every kiss, every touch between Edward and me
All of that was Aros now too.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 36, p.692
Emmett, because he was dying to go. Jacob, because he wouldnt be able to bear being left behind. Both nodded. Emmett grinned.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 36, p.695
I could feel the sharp plumes of light where my family and friends stood each one an individual flavor that I thought I would be able to recognize with practice. I already knew Edwards his was the very brightest of them all.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 37, p.703
It was one thing to know that death was coming with fierce, unstoppable speed; it was another thing to watch it happen.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 37, p.708
In that second I understood that Caius had never underestimated the ties of a true family. This was the ploy. He had not wanted Irinas complaint; he had wanted her defiance. His excuse to destroy her, to ignite the violence that filled the air like a thick, combustible mist. He had thrown a match.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 37, p.708
Edwards and Jacobs faces were almost identical masks of horror, despite the fact that one of them was an animal.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 37, p.722
Youre the only one we could ever trust her with. If you didnt love her so much, I could never bear this. I know you can protect her, Jacob.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 37, p.723
I love you, too, Jake. Youll always be my best man.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 37, p.723
Edward took my hand. He knew that he was included. When I said my fate, there was no question that I meant the two of us. We were just halves of the whole.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 37, p.724
I am all over this.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 38, p.725
I knew he was desperate to keep Edward and me, to imprison us the way he had hoped to enslave Alice. But this fight was too big. He would not win if I lived. I was fiercely glad to be so powerful that I left him no way not to kill me.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 38, p.730
His face glowed with an expression of triumph that I didnt understand it was the expression an angel of destruction might wear while the world burned. Beautiful and terrifying.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 38, p.730
My teeth ground together; Aro was never more dangerous than when he was gracious.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 38, p.731
I analyzed their expressions as Aro turned back to us. His face was as benign as ever, but unlike before, I sensed a strange blankness behind the façade. As if his scheming was over. Caius was clearly incensed, but his race was turned inward now; he was resigned. Marcus looked
bored; there really was no other word for it.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 38, p.739
Happiness expanded like an explosion inside me so extreme, so violent that I wasnt sure Id survive it.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 38, p.741
I couldnt speak anymore. I lifted my head and kissed him with a passion that might possibly set the forest on fire. I wouldnt have noticed.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 38, p.741
So there are real werewolves? With the full moon and silver bullets and all that?
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 39, p.745
You had me totally convinced that we were all going to die! Ive been a wreck for weeks.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 39, p.746
This was about my acting skills?
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 39, p.746
I know it was rough for you, too. Its just that
well, I missed you like crazy, Alice. Dont do that to me again.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 39, p.747
The way everyone looked at me made me uncomfortable. Even Edward. It was like I had grown a hundred feet during the course of the morning. I tried to ignore the impressed looks, mostly keeping my eyes on Nessies sleeping face and Jacobs unchanged expression. I would always be just Bella to him, and that was a relief.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 39, p.747
You are fairly ideal in every way.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 39, p.751
But most significant in this tidal wave of happiness was the surest fact of all: I was with Edward. Forever.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 39, p.752
I knew it was working then, so I concentrated even harder, dredging up specific memories Id saved for this moment, letting them flood my mind, and hopefully his as well. Some of the memories were not clear dim human memories, seen through weak eyes and heard through weak ears: the first time Id seen his face
the way it felt when hed held me in the meadow
the sound of his voice through the darkness of my faltering consciousness when hed saved me from James
his face as he waited under a canopy of flowers to marry me
every precious moment from the island
his cold hands touching our baby through my skin
And the sharp memories, perfectly recalled: his face when Id opened my eyes to my new life, to the endless dawn of immortality
that first kiss
that first night
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 39, p.753
Now you know. No ones ever loved anyone as much as I love you.
Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 39, p.753