Mamsalaphala
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Yup ! I am at ease with Kids . I enjoy their company but my parents get angry when I am with Kids .
Abusive environment , Yes but at a small small level .
I am studying for a Job in Bank .
I will be rejected by the society , if I do jobs like that .
You unhealthy association with kids will lead you to Pedophilia. It is inevitable given your background. Your parents are right this time, you HAVE TO learn to make friends with people your own age or older.
Currently YOU have rejected society because of your inability to deal with it. So unless you learn to deal with it and deal with your own Shame and Social pressure, you will ALWAYS be a prisoner of your own mind and in your own house.
Unless you break this pattern you will never be able to find acceptance in society. The reality is you seek societies approval because you are unable to give yourself your OWN approval.
This is a Catch-22 situation.
Without professional help the only way out for you is to take up a job and then study for a bank job at the same time. Without that I can guarantee you that you will not pass that exam because you will never get over your depression and laziness to study for it.
You lack motivation and that comes from you lack of self esteem and self belief. That is what you need to address first.
1. Get out of your abusive and bullying home environment.
2. Earn some money and live independently and regain self esteem.
3. Work to improve your life style and study and give your bank exam.
There is no easy way out, and that is what you are seeking.