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Rama, Why were you unfair to me ? asks Sita..
Sita: Today marks the end of one chapter of my life, a chapter that no one could have dreamt of 14 long years in exile. An entire phase of my living self! As I alight from the flower bedecked plane, I think within myself that these 14 years have been full of incidents and memories; some memories that make me happy, some sad and some that I shudder to think. Did they have to happen to me? Me? The beloved daughter of Raja Janak, the wife of Maryada Purushottam Ram..
I was blessed by the grace of God. I remember how God heard my prayers at Pushpa Vatika when I saw Rama for the first time. And then when no one could break the sacred bow at the swayamvar, HE heard my prayers and saw that Ram, my Ram breaks the bow and wins my hand in marriage. Happiness reigned all around.. But the evil eye pried too soon. It was my husband's step mother Kaikayi who at the urging of her maid Manthara wanted to see her own son, Bharata, coronated! She sent my Rama to exile... oh, fate.... fate.
As fate had it:
Fate can be so cruel. How could I let him go alone? Did the glamour and comforts of the palace mean anything without my beloved Rama? I resolved to accompany him into the forest and justify my role of a true ardhaangini, a vow I took when I married. Did I miss the palatial comforts of the palace? Nay, never! I had everything, my beloved by my side and the joy in my heart, what more could have I asked for?
But one day I saw a golden deer and the desire to possess it, possessed me. Cruel fate once again beckoned loneliness and misery. How was I to know that I was giving into the temptation that would spell disaster and turn the course of my life for all times to come? That I would be abducted by the arrogant, vain and jealous Ravana, the king of Lanka in guise of a lowly Brahmin? Only if I had known then, that crossing the Lakshman-Rekha would spell disaster. Oh, sadness, tears, heavy heart and prayers became my constant companions. In the misty haze of tears, a ray of light I saw when Rama killed Ravana. The ten-headed king of Lanka, Dushasana was defeated, his ego crushed. After so many lonely years, I would now be in the arms of my beloved Rama.
Sita's Dialogue with herself:
But wait, stop yourself Sita, do not rush forward towards him, don't you see the sad look in his eyes? Happiness comes with a price. But haven't I paid the price? Haven't I? Then why this? Sita, how can Rama be sure that you have remained untouched in another man's house.. a man who abducted you and wanted to possess you? But does he not have faith in me? Does he not believe in his heart that I am true and pure? Was it my fault that I was abducted?
Rama is not only a man.. but he will be king soon and so, his wife has to be above reproach. Therefore, Sita you'll have to undergo the test of fire, the agni pariksha in order to bury this suspicion. And I, Sita who have never even for a flash of moment thought of another man in her life, whose heart and soul belonged to Rama, have full confidence in herself. There is nothing I am scared of. I know that I have never deceived anyone and hence Agni, Vayu, Jal, Prithvi, Aakash, anyone that wants to test my purity is welcome to do so.
Fire did not even touch me. But now the fire of humiliation is raging inside me.. along with it a few questions.
1) What is the assurance that on reaching Ayodhya I will not be subjected to another test of fire?
2) What is the assurance that all the elders and wise especially the women folk including my mothers-in-law will understand what I have been through? Being women will they think of me as untainted or will they, like the men folk think of me as tainted and impure?
3) Will I be respected by my brothers-in-law, Bharata, Shatrughan and other cousins and their wives? Will Bharata's wife be happy to see my return to Ayodhaya? For it means renouncing the position of a ruler's wife.
4) Will the kingdom accept me as a queen and accord me respect?
The fire of humiliation, the fire of uncertainity, the fear of always being under the clouds of suspicion, disbelief, lack of trust and confidence by not only the members of family but the whole kingdom, my own husband, my Maryada Purushottam Rama, rages fiercely within me, tormenting me. What do I have with me? What can a woman have with her? Only the belief in herself and trust in HIM. Partings and meetings are ways of life.. People come and go. What stays with you is your conscious, your skills and knowledge, your courage, hope and faith in yourself and the world around you.
Sita: Today marks the end of one chapter of my life, a chapter that no one could have dreamt of 14 long years in exile. An entire phase of my living self! As I alight from the flower bedecked plane, I think within myself that these 14 years have been full of incidents and memories; some memories that make me happy, some sad and some that I shudder to think. Did they have to happen to me? Me? The beloved daughter of Raja Janak, the wife of Maryada Purushottam Ram..
I was blessed by the grace of God. I remember how God heard my prayers at Pushpa Vatika when I saw Rama for the first time. And then when no one could break the sacred bow at the swayamvar, HE heard my prayers and saw that Ram, my Ram breaks the bow and wins my hand in marriage. Happiness reigned all around.. But the evil eye pried too soon. It was my husband's step mother Kaikayi who at the urging of her maid Manthara wanted to see her own son, Bharata, coronated! She sent my Rama to exile... oh, fate.... fate.
As fate had it:
Fate can be so cruel. How could I let him go alone? Did the glamour and comforts of the palace mean anything without my beloved Rama? I resolved to accompany him into the forest and justify my role of a true ardhaangini, a vow I took when I married. Did I miss the palatial comforts of the palace? Nay, never! I had everything, my beloved by my side and the joy in my heart, what more could have I asked for?
But one day I saw a golden deer and the desire to possess it, possessed me. Cruel fate once again beckoned loneliness and misery. How was I to know that I was giving into the temptation that would spell disaster and turn the course of my life for all times to come? That I would be abducted by the arrogant, vain and jealous Ravana, the king of Lanka in guise of a lowly Brahmin? Only if I had known then, that crossing the Lakshman-Rekha would spell disaster. Oh, sadness, tears, heavy heart and prayers became my constant companions. In the misty haze of tears, a ray of light I saw when Rama killed Ravana. The ten-headed king of Lanka, Dushasana was defeated, his ego crushed. After so many lonely years, I would now be in the arms of my beloved Rama.
Sita's Dialogue with herself:
But wait, stop yourself Sita, do not rush forward towards him, don't you see the sad look in his eyes? Happiness comes with a price. But haven't I paid the price? Haven't I? Then why this? Sita, how can Rama be sure that you have remained untouched in another man's house.. a man who abducted you and wanted to possess you? But does he not have faith in me? Does he not believe in his heart that I am true and pure? Was it my fault that I was abducted?
Rama is not only a man.. but he will be king soon and so, his wife has to be above reproach. Therefore, Sita you'll have to undergo the test of fire, the agni pariksha in order to bury this suspicion. And I, Sita who have never even for a flash of moment thought of another man in her life, whose heart and soul belonged to Rama, have full confidence in herself. There is nothing I am scared of. I know that I have never deceived anyone and hence Agni, Vayu, Jal, Prithvi, Aakash, anyone that wants to test my purity is welcome to do so.
Fire did not even touch me. But now the fire of humiliation is raging inside me.. along with it a few questions.
1) What is the assurance that on reaching Ayodhya I will not be subjected to another test of fire?
2) What is the assurance that all the elders and wise especially the women folk including my mothers-in-law will understand what I have been through? Being women will they think of me as untainted or will they, like the men folk think of me as tainted and impure?
3) Will I be respected by my brothers-in-law, Bharata, Shatrughan and other cousins and their wives? Will Bharata's wife be happy to see my return to Ayodhaya? For it means renouncing the position of a ruler's wife.
4) Will the kingdom accept me as a queen and accord me respect?
The fire of humiliation, the fire of uncertainity, the fear of always being under the clouds of suspicion, disbelief, lack of trust and confidence by not only the members of family but the whole kingdom, my own husband, my Maryada Purushottam Rama, rages fiercely within me, tormenting me. What do I have with me? What can a woman have with her? Only the belief in herself and trust in HIM. Partings and meetings are ways of life.. People come and go. What stays with you is your conscious, your skills and knowledge, your courage, hope and faith in yourself and the world around you.
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