Lock-down has changed my perspective on life

[Nilu Pule]

I apologize in advance for bed grammer.

So, I have been getting a lot of calls from depressed relatives. Although I wanted my struggle with Depression to be kept secret. Not because I was ashamed of it, but because I am an extremely private person and borderline anti-social. In spite of my numerous pleas to my parents not to talk about it, they anyway decided to tell everyone. Now my relatives think I can alleviate their depression.

My cousins who are getting the lockdown blues, keep calling me for a telephonic counseling session. Btw successful and seemingly happy relatives of mine never kept in touch with me (nor did I with them) for the past few years.

What surprises me the most is these guys are successful, financially well off and healthy.
Let's talk about my cousin who surprised me the most. 6'1, light brown, sharp features with a cute little dimple. Has a high paying job, has a trophy girlfriend, bought a used Audi, bought a flat in a luxury housing complex. Spends a vacation abroad every year. All at a very tender age. And yet lockdown got to him. Dude sounded extremely depressed on the phone. At first, I really did not want to talk to him. Although he was always nice to me. Few years he had made fun of me for paying for some love time. I did not expect that from him. If it was anyone else it wouldn't matter to me. You know what I am saying.

So getting back to the story. He started ranting out how lockdown made him do some introspection. He realized has not achieved anything. All the work he has done was meaningless. He hates his job although it isn't stressful. He wanted to quit his job and start a homestay for tourists in rural Goa. He told his parents are financially sound and don't expect him to care for them. He has enough money as well. I told him it was an excellent idea and stress-free living is anything better than high paying money. I also suggested him to become a blogger and provide homestay workshops along with that. We talk like for two hours whenever he calls. I listen patiently to his rants. I provide positive encouragement even if it means degrading myself. For eg, I say hey look at me I am a loser but man, you are the guy every guy dreams about being. You know what I am saying.

Yet the guy does not have the courage to chase his dream. He is just afraid of what people will think of him. He has millions of doubts. I mean, seriously come on. Life is unfair. Some are born lucky. They take the elevator to the top. Yet these lucky people are mentally weak in spite of life gifting them roses at their every step.

I look at their pictures on social media. And they do a good job of pretending to be happy and successful. But deep inside they are more insecure and lonely than the losers. They have all the resources to chase their dreams and strangers who will support them in their venture just because they were born winners. Yet they are the biggest pussy betas. You know what I am saying.

Let's take discuss suicide case of Sushant Singh Rajput. Sushant, if you are reading this please create a false flag account and answer me. You were a tier 2 Bollywood actor. Your net worth was 70 cr. You had low IQ Bollywood fans who worshipped you. Lolitas who wanted to have your babies. A huge offer from Netflix which would have made you one of the highest-paid TV actors in the world. Not to mention an excellent academic record.

Bro, you killed yourself because bolly fags like Karan Johar and Salman boycotted you for not sleeping them. Come on, seriously? Maybe you had observed the lives of those who are born unlucky yet go on with their lives. And show some F-kiiing gratitude. You would have been happy and alive.

I have been reading a lot of news articles of successful people killing themselves because of lockdown depression. Can't you stay locked up in your homes with your loved ones for 3 months? I live all alone with no one to talk in person. Lockdown brought down my minimal social interaction to nil. Yet I am going on. Not whining or moaning irl about being unhappy or unlucky. Success seems like an 11/10 racist pdf girl who is never going to come to you. You know what I am saying. But I am still doing my thing. So if these lucky ones want me to shed a tear for them. They will get a middle finger.


The universe is throwing a Satanic party. Pandemic > Economic collapse > World War 3 most likely in that order. I think tough times ahead for these lucky snowflakes. They won't be able to swallow minor hurdles as they have been used to only winning.

The unlucky ones rejoice now. Your era is about to come.

The universe is rearranging the cosmic order. It is separating the grain from the chaff.

Yours sincerely,
Nilu Pule


Let me tag our pdf wise men @padamchen @Bagheera @Mangus Ortus Novem @SIPRA @El Sidd @aryadravida @Ace of Spades @Mentee @Azadkashmir

My haters @Joe Shearer @Nilgiri @krash @DalalErMaNodi come at me.

Forgot to tag you @Juggernaut_Flat_Plane_V8. You are the guy who knows a lot about life and stuff.

 

[waz]

I apologize in advance for bed grammer.

So, I have been getting a lot of calls from depressed relatives. Although I wanted my struggle with Depression to be kept secret. Not because I was ashamed of it, but because I am an extremely private person and borderline anti-social. In spite of my numerous pleas to my parents not to talk about it, they anyway decided to tell everyone.

My cousins who are getting the lockdown blues, keep calling me for a telephonic counseling session. Btw successful and seemingly happy relatives of mine never kept in touch with me (nor did I with them) for the past few years.

What surprises me the most is these guys are successful, financially well off and healthy.
Let's talk about my cousin who surprised me the most. 6'1, light brown, sharp features with a cute little dimple. Has a high paying job, has a trophy girlfriend, bought a used Audi, bought a flat in a luxury housing complex. Spends a vacation abroad every year. All at a very tender age. And yet lockdown got to him. Dude sounded extremely depressed on the phone. At first, I really did not want to talk to him. Although he was always nice to me. Few years he had made fun of me for paying for some love time. I did not expect that from him. If it was anyone else it wouldn't matter to me. You know what I am saying.

So getting back to the story. He started ranting out how lockdown made him do some introspection. He realized has not achieved anything. All the work he has done was meaningless. He hates his job although it isn't stressful. He wanted to quit his job and start a homestay for tourists in rural Goa. He told his parents are financially sound and don't expect him to care for them. He has enough money as well. I told him it was an excellent idea and stress-free living is anything better than high paying money. I also suggested him to become a blogger and provide homestay workshops along with that. We talk like for two hours whenever he calls. I listen patiently to his rants. I provide positive encouragement even if it means degrading myself. For eg, I say hey look at me I am a loser but man, you are the guy every guy dreams about being. You know what I am saying.

Yet the guy does not have the courage to chase his dream. He is just afraid of what people will think of him. He has millions of doubts. I mean, seriously come on. Life is unfair. Some are born lucky. They take the elevator to the top. Yet these lucky people are mentally weak in spite of life gifting them roses at their every step.

I look at their pictures on social media. And they do a good job of pretending to be happy and successful. But deep inside they are more insecure and lonely than the losers. They have all the resources to chase their dreams and strangers who will support them in their venture just because they were born winners. Yet they are the biggest pussy betas. You know what I am saying.

Let's take discuss suicide case of Sushant Singh Rajput. Sushant, if you are reading this please create a false flag account and answer me. You were a tier 2 Bollywood actor. Your net worth was 70 cr. You had low IQ Bollywood fans who worshipped you. Lolitas who wanted to have your babies. A huge offer from Netflix which would have made you one of the highest-paid TV actors in the world. Not to mention an excellent academic record.

Bro, you killed yourself because bolly fags like Karan Johar and Salman boycotted you for not sleeping them. Come on, seriously? Maybe you had observed the lives of those who are born unlucky yet go on with their lives. And show some F-kiiing gratitude. You would have been happy and alive.

I have been reading a lot of news articles of successful people killing themselves because of lockdown depression. Can't you stay locked up in your homes with your loved ones for 3 months? I live all alone with no one to talk in person. Lockdown brought down my minimal social interaction to nil. Yet I am going on. Not whining or moaning irl about being unhappy or unlucky. Success seems like an 11/10 racist pdf girl who is never going to come to you. You know what I am saying. But I am still doing my thing. So if these lucky ones want me to shed a tear for them. They will get a middle finger.


The universe is throwing a Satanic party. Pandemic > Economic collapse > World War 3 most likely in that order. I think tough times ahead for these lucky snowflakes. They won't be able to swallow minor failures as they have been used to only winning.

The unlucky ones rejoice now. Your era is about to come.

The universe is rearranging the cosmic order. It is separating the grain from the chaff.

Yours sincerely,
Nilu Pule


Let me tag our pdf wise men @padamchen @Bagheera @Mangus Ortus Novem @SIPRA @El Sidd @aryadravida

My haters @Joe Shearer @Nilgiri @krash @DalalErMaNodi come at me.

Forgot to tag you @Juggernaut_Flat_Plane_V8. You are the guy who knows a lot about life and stuff.

Agree, take actions that make you happy. If you're not hurting anyone, why the hell should you care what others think? However society in desi culture can be a lead weight around the legs.
As for lockdown, I sympathise with people, but come on what's life like in shanty towns in the world? A great deal worse at the very least. People with privilege should just be thankful.

 

[Nilu Pule]

Agree, take actions that make you happy. If you're not hurting anyone, why the hell should you care what others think? However society in desi culture can be a lead weight around the legs.
As for lockdown, I sympathise with people, but come on what's life like in shanty towns in the world? A great deal worse at the very least. People with privilege should just be thankful.

The lucky ones usually feel entitled.

There is an old gentleman in her who has excellent communication skills and too much of academic knowledge.

The gent loves throw to nasty personal insults at people with humble backgrounds who oppose his views. And he gets off seeing the likes by a vast majority of PDFers. Not to mention he gets a lot of admiration from both Pakistanis and Indians. He absolutely adores his little fan boys.

God forbid he his fanbois turn against me, the poor soul will have a heart attack.

I had to cite a practical example. So that our lovely pdfers get me point.

@doorstar No offence to you! I know you like that gentleman.

 

[DalalErMaNodi]

I do not harbour any ill will towards you personally, I choose not to make up my mind about people unless I've met them in real life. The internet brings out the wildest and most erratic bits from people, it's just the way it is.

I don't know what led you to think that I despise you, perhaps you think I should despise you, after the things you've said and I'm sure you remember what you said.

I was very patient in dealing with your abusive and blatantly racist tirade against me and my Bengali people, feel free to go back to the thread and find any post of mine where I personally attack you.

I try to be patient and calm for those are the values my parents drilled into me. Truth be told, I shouldn't have responded to your insults but I cannot let racism slide.

You can insult me, my country but you can't speak ill of my people as a group, I will not have that.


I'm very much surprised at your labelling me a 'Hater', as I have said earlier I have no ire against you.

We are all humans and we can make mistakes, as such I will give you the benefit of the doubt, I consider you a kind and thoughtful person as your post above (op) has demonstrated, a person who sometimes crosses the line but is for the most part a fine being.

We are but motes of dust in a vast ocean of celestial bodies and in the grand scheme of things, the statements we make and the things we do may appear irrelevant and maybe they are irrelevant but we still have a choice; whether to do the right or the wrong and I make a conscious decision to do the right thing and right now that means reaching out to you.

I would be lying, if I said I didn't find you posts offensive and perhaps that was your intention but I choose to let it go and I want us to get along.

Our last interaction was not Ideal, and I take my share of the blame for replying to you and enabling you but we are interacting right now; without any name calling or bad mouthing, so that's a start.


Here's to hoping we can have friendlier, respectful and educative interactions in the future.

This forum is a platform for people to connect with others and share their views, so it would be foolish to box ourselves in hate and anger, I'd rather we make full use of this forum to learn from each other and grow ourselves as humans.


Yours Truly,
DEMN

 

[Philosopher]

I learned a long time ago that the important important things in life are the little things we take for granted everyday. If you have been blessed with a good family, then cherish every moment of it. Those are the real treasures in life that god has blessed us with. So many times we telescopically search for happiness out there when its usually close by, so close by. This pandemic highlighted other little things we take for granted, for example just going out for a meal with a close friend. As for your cousin, ultimately he will need to fill his emptiness himself. Everyone has own their battles they're fighting within. If they're "successful" on the surface, it does not guarantee happiness. A poor villager living in a remove village can be far happier than someone to the manor born with fame and riches.

 

[TNT]

It all depends on how u view success. To many people success might look like wealth and fame or status. To others it might be something very different. It all depends on ur perspective of things. Its not necessary that a majority's perspective of something is correct.

 

[masterchief_mirza]

Nilu, pull yourself together for fk sake.

 

[Nilu Pule]

Nilu, pull yourself together for fk sake.

It's that time of the month.


@krash The time when I don't get banned in an hour or two. You know what I am saying. I love and respect women. Even though they don't like me.

 

[Philosopher]

Although I am sceptical as to whether you practise what you preach. IMO people who give sermons on give sermons on humanity are usually hypocrites.

But I grant you my the benefit of the doubt.

My friend,

I try to put it in practise but we are humans in the end. Of course there are days that I go without practising what I preach. But I thankfully always manage to put myself back on the right track.

 

[Nilu Pule]

I do not harbour any ill will towards you personally, I choose not to make up my mind about people unless I've met them in real life. The internet brings out the wildest and most erratic bits from people, it's just the way it is.

I don't know what led you to think that I despise you, perhaps you think I should despise you, after the things you've said and I'm sure you remember what you said.

I was very patient in dealing with your abusive and blatantly racist tirade against me and my Bengali people, feel free to go back to the thread and find any post of mine where I personally attack you.

I try to be patient and calm for those are the values my parents drilled into me. Truth be told, I shouldn't have responded to your insults but I cannot let racism slide.

You can insult me, my country but you can't speak ill of my people as a group, I will not have that.


I'm very much surprised at your labelling me a 'Hater', as I have said earlier I have no ire against you.

We are all humans and we can make mistakes, as such I will give you the benefit of the doubt, I consider you a kind and thoughtful person as your post above (op) has demonstrated, a person who sometimes crosses the line but is for the most part a fine being.

We are but motes of dust in a vast ocean of celestial bodies and in the grand scheme of things, the statements we make and the things we do may appear irrelevant and maybe they are irrelevant but we still have a choice; whether to do the right or the wrong and I make a conscious decision to do the right thing and right now that means reaching out to you.

I would be lying, if I said I didn't find you posts offensive and perhaps that was your intention but I choose to let it go and I want us to get along.

Our last interaction was not Ideal, and I take my share of the blame for replying to you and enabling you but we are interacting right now; without any name calling or bad mouthing, so that's a start.


Here's to hoping we can have friendlier, respectful and educative interactions in the future.

This forum is a platform for people to connect with others and share their views, so it would be foolish to box ourselves in hate and anger, I'd rather we make full use of this forum to learn from each other and grow ourselves as humans.


Yours Truly,
DEMN

Although I am sceptical as to whether you practise what you preach. IMO people who give sermons on give sermons on humanity are usually hypocrites.

But I grant you my the benefit of the doubt.

Give this man atleast 10 +ve ratings or this site is a joke.

My friend,

I try to put it in practise but we are humans in the end. Of course there are days that I go without practising what I preach. But I thankfully always manage to put myself back on the right track.

Sorry grandpa, quoted wrong message.

 

[DalalErMaNodi]

Although I am sceptical as to whether you practise what you preach. IMO people who give sermons on give sermons on humanity are usually hypocrites.

But I grant you my the benefit of the doubt.

Make what you will of my post but it was written with a clear conscience.

And Thank you for bestowing upon me your benefit of the doubt.

Give this man atleast 10 +ve ratings or this site is a joke.

By the way, I completely agree with your little anecdote on people not realising that they have it well and wanting for more and then splitting under the pressure of their overambitious expectations.

 

[Verve]

I apologize in advance for bed grammer.

So, I have been getting a lot of calls from depressed relatives. Although I wanted my struggle with Depression to be kept secret. Not because I was ashamed of it, but because I am an extremely private person and borderline anti-social. In spite of my numerous pleas to my parents not to talk about it, they anyway decided to tell everyone. Now my relatives think I can alleviate their depression.

My cousins who are getting the lockdown blues, keep calling me for a telephonic counseling session. Btw successful and seemingly happy relatives of mine never kept in touch with me (nor did I with them) for the past few years.

What surprises me the most is these guys are successful, financially well off and healthy.
Let's talk about my cousin who surprised me the most. 6'1, light brown, sharp features with a cute little dimple. Has a high paying job, has a trophy girlfriend, bought a used Audi, bought a flat in a luxury housing complex. Spends a vacation abroad every year. All at a very tender age. And yet lockdown got to him. Dude sounded extremely depressed on the phone. At first, I really did not want to talk to him. Although he was always nice to me. Few years he had made fun of me for paying for some love time. I did not expect that from him. If it was anyone else it wouldn't matter to me. You know what I am saying.

So getting back to the story. He started ranting out how lockdown made him do some introspection. He realized has not achieved anything. All the work he has done was meaningless. He hates his job although it isn't stressful. He wanted to quit his job and start a homestay for tourists in rural Goa. He told his parents are financially sound and don't expect him to care for them. He has enough money as well. I told him it was an excellent idea and stress-free living is anything better than high paying money. I also suggested him to become a blogger and provide homestay workshops along with that. We talk like for two hours whenever he calls. I listen patiently to his rants. I provide positive encouragement even if it means degrading myself. For eg, I say hey look at me I am a loser but man, you are the guy every guy dreams about being. You know what I am saying.

Yet the guy does not have the courage to chase his dream. He is just afraid of what people will think of him. He has millions of doubts. I mean, seriously come on. Life is unfair. Some are born lucky. They take the elevator to the top. Yet these lucky people are mentally weak in spite of life gifting them roses at their every step.

I look at their pictures on social media. And they do a good job of pretending to be happy and successful. But deep inside they are more insecure and lonely than the losers. They have all the resources to chase their dreams and strangers who will support them in their venture just because they were born winners. Yet they are the biggest pussy betas. You know what I am saying.

Let's take discuss suicide case of Sushant Singh Rajput. Sushant, if you are reading this please create a false flag account and answer me. You were a tier 2 Bollywood actor. Your net worth was 70 cr. You had low IQ Bollywood fans who worshipped you. Lolitas who wanted to have your babies. A huge offer from Netflix which would have made you one of the highest-paid TV actors in the world. Not to mention an excellent academic record.

Bro, you killed yourself because bolly fags like Karan Johar and Salman boycotted you for not sleeping them. Come on, seriously? Maybe you had observed the lives of those who are born unlucky yet go on with their lives. And show some F-kiiing gratitude. You would have been happy and alive.

I have been reading a lot of news articles of successful people killing themselves because of lockdown depression. Can't you stay locked up in your homes with your loved ones for 3 months? I live all alone with no one to talk in person. Lockdown brought down my minimal social interaction to nil. Yet I am going on. Not whining or moaning irl about being unhappy or unlucky. Success seems like an 11/10 racist pdf girl who is never going to come to you. You know what I am saying. But I am still doing my thing. So if these lucky ones want me to shed a tear for them. They will get a middle finger.


The universe is throwing a Satanic party. Pandemic > Economic collapse > World War 3 most likely in that order. I think tough times ahead for these lucky snowflakes. They won't be able to swallow minor hurdles as they have been used to only winning.

The unlucky ones rejoice now. Your era is about to come.

The universe is rearranging the cosmic order. It is separating the grain from the chaff.

Yours sincerely,
Nilu Pule


Let me tag our pdf wise men @padamchen @Bagheera @Mangus Ortus Novem @SIPRA @El Sidd @aryadravida @Ace of Spades @Mentee @Azadkashmir

My haters @Joe Shearer @Nilgiri @krash @DalalErMaNodi come at me.

Forgot to tag you @Juggernaut_Flat_Plane_V8. You are the guy who knows a lot about life and stuff.

Lockdown is not for the weak minded, and having lots of money etc is not a measure of a strong mind.

If the clock was turned back just a 100 years for us in present now, majority would crash in depression and the suicide rates would go off the chart.

Ultimately it all boils down to FEAR OF DEATH!

 

[Nowshera]

I apologize in advance for bed grammer.

So, I have been getting a lot of calls from depressed relatives. Although I wanted my struggle with Depression to be kept secret. Not because I was ashamed of it, but because I am an extremely private person and borderline anti-social. In spite of my numerous pleas to my parents not to talk about it, they anyway decided to tell everyone. Now my relatives think I can alleviate their depression.

My cousins who are getting the lockdown blues, keep calling me for a telephonic counseling session. Btw successful and seemingly happy relatives of mine never kept in touch with me (nor did I with them) for the past few years.

What surprises me the most is these guys are successful, financially well off and healthy.
Let's talk about my cousin who surprised me the most. 6'1, light brown, sharp features with a cute little dimple. Has a high paying job, has a trophy girlfriend, bought a used Audi, bought a flat in a luxury housing complex. Spends a vacation abroad every year. All at a very tender age. And yet lockdown got to him. Dude sounded extremely depressed on the phone. At first, I really did not want to talk to him. Although he was always nice to me. Few years he had made fun of me for paying for some love time. I did not expect that from him. If it was anyone else it wouldn't matter to me. You know what I am saying.

So getting back to the story. He started ranting out how lockdown made him do some introspection. He realized has not achieved anything. All the work he has done was meaningless. He hates his job although it isn't stressful. He wanted to quit his job and start a homestay for tourists in rural Goa. He told his parents are financially sound and don't expect him to care for them. He has enough money as well. I told him it was an excellent idea and stress-free living is anything better than high paying money. I also suggested him to become a blogger and provide homestay workshops along with that. We talk like for two hours whenever he calls. I listen patiently to his rants. I provide positive encouragement even if it means degrading myself. For eg, I say hey look at me I am a loser but man, you are the guy every guy dreams about being. You know what I am saying.

Yet the guy does not have the courage to chase his dream. He is just afraid of what people will think of him. He has millions of doubts. I mean, seriously come on. Life is unfair. Some are born lucky. They take the elevator to the top. Yet these lucky people are mentally weak in spite of life gifting them roses at their every step.

I look at their pictures on social media. And they do a good job of pretending to be happy and successful. But deep inside they are more insecure and lonely than the losers. They have all the resources to chase their dreams and strangers who will support them in their venture just because they were born winners. Yet they are the biggest pussy betas. You know what I am saying.

Let's take discuss suicide case of Sushant Singh Rajput. Sushant, if you are reading this please create a false flag account and answer me. You were a tier 2 Bollywood actor. Your net worth was 70 cr. You had low IQ Bollywood fans who worshipped you. Lolitas who wanted to have your babies. A huge offer from Netflix which would have made you one of the highest-paid TV actors in the world. Not to mention an excellent academic record.

Bro, you killed yourself because bolly fags like Karan Johar and Salman boycotted you for not sleeping them. Come on, seriously? Maybe you had observed the lives of those who are born unlucky yet go on with their lives. And show some F-kiiing gratitude. You would have been happy and alive.

I have been reading a lot of news articles of successful people killing themselves because of lockdown depression. Can't you stay locked up in your homes with your loved ones for 3 months? I live all alone with no one to talk in person. Lockdown brought down my minimal social interaction to nil. Yet I am going on. Not whining or moaning irl about being unhappy or unlucky. Success seems like an 11/10 racist pdf girl who is never going to come to you. You know what I am saying. But I am still doing my thing. So if these lucky ones want me to shed a tear for them. They will get a middle finger.


The universe is throwing a Satanic party. Pandemic > Economic collapse > World War 3 most likely in that order. I think tough times ahead for these lucky snowflakes. They won't be able to swallow minor hurdles as they have been used to only winning.

The unlucky ones rejoice now. Your era is about to come.

The universe is rearranging the cosmic order. It is separating the grain from the chaff.

Yours sincerely,
Nilu Pule


Let me tag our pdf wise men @padamchen @Bagheera @Mangus Ortus Novem @SIPRA @El Sidd @aryadravida @Ace of Spades @Mentee @Azadkashmir

My haters @Joe Shearer @Nilgiri @krash @DalalErMaNodi come at me.

Forgot to tag you @Juggernaut_Flat_Plane_V8. You are the guy who knows a lot about life and stuff.

Something a lot of people seem to have never realised is that we are responsible for our own happiness. We choose to be happy or depressed with the thoughts we think to ourselves everyday.

Also a lot of the times successful individuals are deeply unhappy as they are surrounded by other successful people. Their view of the world is skewed.

 

[Ace of Spades]

Ara nilu, abhi hamara yudh hona baki hai, you can't go in it like that.

On the serious note, this covid episode is a reminder that the most beautiful and valuable gift you've got is your life and health and of your loved ones and people around you. And death doesn't discriminate against who is rich, successful or not so one. So cherish the most beautiful thing you've got. The rest is just subjective

 

[Avicenna]

I apologize in advance for bed grammer.

So, I have been getting a lot of calls from depressed relatives. Although I wanted my struggle with Depression to be kept secret. Not because I was ashamed of it, but because I am an extremely private person and borderline anti-social. In spite of my numerous pleas to my parents not to talk about it, they anyway decided to tell everyone. Now my relatives think I can alleviate their depression.

My cousins who are getting the lockdown blues, keep calling me for a telephonic counseling session. Btw successful and seemingly happy relatives of mine never kept in touch with me (nor did I with them) for the past few years.

What surprises me the most is these guys are successful, financially well off and healthy.
Let's talk about my cousin who surprised me the most. 6'1, light brown, sharp features with a cute little dimple. Has a high paying job, has a trophy girlfriend, bought a used Audi, bought a flat in a luxury housing complex. Spends a vacation abroad every year. All at a very tender age. And yet lockdown got to him. Dude sounded extremely depressed on the phone. At first, I really did not want to talk to him. Although he was always nice to me. Few years he had made fun of me for paying for some love time. I did not expect that from him. If it was anyone else it wouldn't matter to me. You know what I am saying.

So getting back to the story. He started ranting out how lockdown made him do some introspection. He realized has not achieved anything. All the work he has done was meaningless. He hates his job although it isn't stressful. He wanted to quit his job and start a homestay for tourists in rural Goa. He told his parents are financially sound and don't expect him to care for them. He has enough money as well. I told him it was an excellent idea and stress-free living is anything better than high paying money. I also suggested him to become a blogger and provide homestay workshops along with that. We talk like for two hours whenever he calls. I listen patiently to his rants. I provide positive encouragement even if it means degrading myself. For eg, I say hey look at me I am a loser but man, you are the guy every guy dreams about being. You know what I am saying.

Yet the guy does not have the courage to chase his dream. He is just afraid of what people will think of him. He has millions of doubts. I mean, seriously come on. Life is unfair. Some are born lucky. They take the elevator to the top. Yet these lucky people are mentally weak in spite of life gifting them roses at their every step.

I look at their pictures on social media. And they do a good job of pretending to be happy and successful. But deep inside they are more insecure and lonely than the losers. They have all the resources to chase their dreams and strangers who will support them in their venture just because they were born winners. Yet they are the biggest pussy betas. You know what I am saying.

Let's take discuss suicide case of Sushant Singh Rajput. Sushant, if you are reading this please create a false flag account and answer me. You were a tier 2 Bollywood actor. Your net worth was 70 cr. You had low IQ Bollywood fans who worshipped you. Lolitas who wanted to have your babies. A huge offer from Netflix which would have made you one of the highest-paid TV actors in the world. Not to mention an excellent academic record.

Bro, you killed yourself because bolly fags like Karan Johar and Salman boycotted you for not sleeping them. Come on, seriously? Maybe you had observed the lives of those who are born unlucky yet go on with their lives. And show some F-kiiing gratitude. You would have been happy and alive.

I have been reading a lot of news articles of successful people killing themselves because of lockdown depression. Can't you stay locked up in your homes with your loved ones for 3 months? I live all alone with no one to talk in person. Lockdown brought down my minimal social interaction to nil. Yet I am going on. Not whining or moaning irl about being unhappy or unlucky. Success seems like an 11/10 racist pdf girl who is never going to come to you. You know what I am saying. But I am still doing my thing. So if these lucky ones want me to shed a tear for them. They will get a middle finger.


The universe is throwing a Satanic party. Pandemic > Economic collapse > World War 3 most likely in that order. I think tough times ahead for these lucky snowflakes. They won't be able to swallow minor hurdles as they have been used to only winning.

The unlucky ones rejoice now. Your era is about to come.

The universe is rearranging the cosmic order. It is separating the grain from the chaff.

Yours sincerely,
Nilu Pule


Let me tag our pdf wise men @padamchen @Bagheera @Mangus Ortus Novem @SIPRA @El Sidd @aryadravida @Ace of Spades @Mentee @Azadkashmir

My haters @Joe Shearer @Nilgiri @krash @DalalErMaNodi come at me.

Forgot to tag you @Juggernaut_Flat_Plane_V8. You are the guy who knows a lot about life and stuff.

You need a podcast bro.

You will give Joe Rogan a run for his money.

Spotify will pick you up and you will be rich and famous.

You exude wisdom.